âI didnât mean that. You know I didnât.â
âSo you admit you just said it to hurt me?â I glare at him, trying to keep my guard up.
âYeah . . .â He looks down.
Iâm so confused by him; he says he wants more, then he kisses Molly, then he tells me he loves me and takes it back, and now he is apologizing again? âWhy should I forgive youâyou just admitted that you did something solely to hurt me.â
âOne more chance? Please, Tess. Iâll tell you everything,â he pleads. I almost believe the pain in his eyes as he looks down at me.
âI canât, I have to go.â
âWhy canât I come with you?â he asks.
âBecause . . . because I am meeting Zed there.â
I watch as his expression changes and seems to crumple before me. It takes everything in me not to comfort him. But Hardin did this to himself. Even if he actually does care, itâs too late.
âZed? So are you guys, what . . . dating now?â His tone is full of disgust.
âNo, we havenât even talked about it. We are just . . . I donât know, spending time together, I guess.â
âYou havenât talked about it? So if he asked you, you would?â
âI donât know . . .â And I honestly donât know. âHe is nice and polite and he treats me well.â Why am I even explaining myself to this boy?
âTessa, you donât even know him, you donât knowââ
The front door shoots open and an exuberant Landon asks, âReady?â
His eyes dart to Hardin, who for once looks unguarded and even . . . heartbroken.
I force my feet toward my car and follow Landon as he pulls out of the driveway. I canât help but look back at Hardin, who is still on the porch, still staring back at me as I drive away.
Chapter sixty-five
Pulling into the spot next to Landon, I text Zed to tell him that I have arrived. He writes back immediately with a note to meet him at the far left corner of the field.
I tell Landon where heâll be as he and Dakota walk up.
âSounds good,â he says, but he seems less than thrilled.
âWhoâs Zed?â Dakota asks.
âHeâs my . . . friend.â He is just my friend.
âHardinâs your boyfriend, right?â she asks.
I look over at her. She doesnât seem to be implying anything, she just seems confused. Welcome to the club.
âNo, babe.â Landon laughs. âNeither of them are.â
I laugh, too. âItâs not as bad as it sounds.â
Right as we get to where everyone is, the school band begins to play and the field becomes more and more crowded. Iâm relieved when I spot Zed leaning against the fence. I point him out, and we head over there.
âOh,â Dakota squeals as we get close. I canât tell if sheâs surprised by his tattoos and piercings, or his good looks. Maybe both.
âHey, beautiful,â Zed says, beaming, and hugs me. I smile at him, returning the hug.
âHi, Iâm Zed. Itâs nice to meet you both.â He nods toward Landon and Dakota. I know heâs met Landon before, so maybe heâs just trying to be polite.
âHave you been here long?â I ask.
âOnly about ten minutes. A lot more people here than I expected.â
Landon leads the way to a less crowded area near the enormous mound of wood, and we all sit on the grass. Dakota sits between Landonâs legs and leans back against his chest. The sun is going down and the breeze is picking up. I should have worn long sleeves.
âYeah, have you been to one of these before?â I ask Zed, who shakes his head.
âNo, this isnât my typical scene,â he says with a laugh before adding, âBut Iâm glad to be here tonight.â
I smile at his compliment and right then someone walks up to the central bandstand and gives us all a warm welcome on behalf of the school and the band. After a couple of minutes of rambling on, they finally count down to the lighting of the fire, and three, two, one . . . the fire ignites and swallows the mound of wood fiercely. Itâs actually quite beautiful being this close to the flames, and I can tell Iâll be warm enough after all.
âSo how long are you here?â Zed asks Dakota.
She frowns. âOnly the weekend. I wish I could come back for the wedding next weekend.â
âWhat wedding?â Zed asks.
I look at Landon, who answers, âMy motherâs.â
âOh . . .â He pauses and looks down, as if thinking about something.
âWhat?â I ask him.
âNothing. Iâm just trying to remember who else said something about a wedding next weekend . . . Oh yeahâHardin, I think. He was asking us what he should wear to a wedding.â
My heart stops. I hope I donât show it on my face. So Hardin definitely still hasnât told any of his friends that his father is the chancellor, or that heâs marrying Landonâs mother.
âBit of a coincidence, right?â he asks.
âNo, they areââ Dakota begins, but I interrupt: âQuite a coincidence, but, then, in a town this size, there are probably a few every weekend.â
Zed nods in agreement, and Landon whispers something in Dakotaâs ear.
Hardin is actually considering going to the wedding?
Zed chuckles. âI canât imagine Hardin at a wedding anyway.â
âWhy not?â My tone is a little harsher than I meant it to be.
âI donât know, because heâs Hardin. The only way to get him to go to a wedding would be if he knew he could have sex with the bridesmaids. All of them,â he says and rolls his eyes.