âGreat, Tessa and I have already set the table.â
Landon goes over to where Dakota sits, puts his arm around her waist, and leads her to the table. I take my seat across from them and glance over at the empty place setting next to me, which Karen had set up for âpurposes of symmetry,â but it just makes me a little sad. In another life Hardin would be sitting next to me, holding my hand the way Landon is Dakotaâs, and I could lean into him without fear of being rejected. Iâm beginning to wish I had invited Zed even though it would have been extremely awkward; having dinner with two deeply in-love couples may prove worse.
Ken enters, saving me from my thoughts. He walks over and kisses Karen on her cheek before sitting down.
âDinner looks great, honey,â he says and playfully places a napkin on his lap. âDakota, you get more beautiful each time I see you.â He smiles at her, then turns to me. âAnd Tessa, congratulations on your internship at Vance. Christian called me and told me. You made a wonderful first impression on him.â
âThank you again for calling him; itâs such an amazing opportunity.â I smile and the tableâs silent for a moment while we all try Karenâs chicken, which is delicious.
âSorry Iâm late,â I hear from behind me and my fork falls out of my hand onto my plate.
âHardin! I didnât know you were coming!â Karen says nicely, then looks at me. I look away. My pulse is already quickening.
âYeah, remember we discussed it last week, Tessa?â He smiles his menacing smile and takes the seat next to me.
What is wrong with him? Why canât he just leave me alone? I know it is partly my fault for letting him get to me, but he really enjoys playing cat-and-mouse. Everyoneâs eyes are on me, so I nod and pick up my fork. Dakota looks confused and Landon looks worried.
âYou must be Delilah?â Hardin says to her.
âOh, Dakota, actually,â she corrects him sweetly.
âYeah, Dakota. Same thing,â he mutters and I kick him under the table.
Landon glares at him, but Hardin doesnât seem to notice. Ken and Karen go into conversation between themselves, as do Dakota and Landon. I stay focused on my food and think of an exit strategy.
âSo, howâs your evening so far?â Hardin asks in a casual tone. He knows that I wonât cause a scene, so he is trying to annoy me.
âFine,â I answer quietly.
âYouâre not going to ask me how mine is?â He smirks.
âNope,â I mumble and take another bite.
âTessa, was that your car outside?â Ken asks and I nod.
âOh yeah, I finally got my own car!â I say, with a little extra excitement in the hopes that everyone else will join in so Iâm not stuck talking to just Hardin.
Hardin raises his eyebrow at me. âWhen?â
âThe other day,â I answer. You know, the day that you told me that itâs all about the chase?
âOh. Where did you get it?â
âA used-car lot,â I answer and watch Dakota and Karen both try to hide their smiles. Sensing an opportunity to direct the attention off me, I say, âSo, Dakota, Landon told me you were thinking of going to New York for a ballet school?â She tells us all about her plans to move to New York, and Landon looks genuinely happy for her despite the distance that will stay between them.
When she finishes, Landon looks at his phone and says, âWell, we should get going soon. That bonfire waits for no man.â
âWhat?â Karen says. âOkay, but at least take some of the dessert with you!â
Landon nods and helps her put some into a Tupperware container.
âAre you going to ride with me?â Hardin says. I look around like Iâm confused about whom heâs addressing.
âIâm talking to you,â he states.
âWhat? No, youâre not going,â I tell him.
âYes, I am. And you canât stop me from going, so you might as well ride with me.â He smiles and tries to put his hand on my thigh.
âWhat the hell is wrong with you?â I say under my breath.
âCan we talk outside?â he asks and looks toward his father.
âNo,â I say quietlyâevery time Hardin and I âtalk,â I end up crying.
But Hardin stands up quickly and grabs my hand, pulling me to my feet. âWeâll be outside,â he announces, and pulls me through the living room and out the front door.
Once weâre outside, I yank my arm away and warn him, âStop touching me!â
He shrugs. âSorry, but you werenât going to come with me.â
âBecause I didnât want to.â
âI am sorry. For everything, okay?â His fingers play with his lip ring and I avoid focusing on his mouth. I stare at the way his eyes search my face.
âYouâre sorry? Youâre not sorry, Hardinâyou just want to mess with me. Just stop. I am exhausted and drained from fighting with you all the time. I canât do it anymore. Isnât there anyone else that you can mess with? Heck, Iâll even help you find someone, some poor innocent girl for you to torture as long as it isnât me.â
âThatâs not what I am doing. I know I am back and forth a lot with you, and I donât know why I do it. But if you give me one chance, one more chance, I will stop. I tried to stay away from you but I canât. I need you . . .â He looks down at the deck, rubbing the tips of his boots together.
The audacity of what heâs saying helps me keep my tears in check this time; his ego has seen quite enough of them. âStop! Just stop. Arenât you tired of this? If you needed me you wouldnât treat me the way you do. You told me yourself it was all about the chase, remember? You canât just show up here after everything and act like nothing happened.â