âItâs not crazy. I understand. I just donât know what to do about it. Molly is in our group and she probably always will be.â
I donât know what I expected him to say but the equivalent of âtoo badâ isnât what I wanted to hear. âOkay.â I should be happy that he basically told everyone we are dating now, but the whole thing felt so off.
âIâm going to go,â I tell him.
âThen Iâm coming with you.â
âYou sure you want to leave your friends?â I snap.
He rolls his eyes and follows me to my car. I try to hide my smile as we get in the car. At least I know he would rather be with me than Molly.
âSo how long were you there before I arrived?â Hardin asks as I pull out of the parking lot.
âAbout twenty minutes.â
âOh. You didnât meet Zed there, did you?â
âNo. It was the last place open to eat I could find. I had no idea he was thereâor that you would show up. You know, because you never texted me.â
âOh,â he says and pauses for a beat. But then he looks over at me again. âSo what did you guys talk about?â
âNothing; he was only at the table for a few minutes before you got there. Why?â
âIâm just wondering.â His fingers drum on his knee. âI missed you today.â
âI missed you, too,â I say as we pull onto campus. âI got a lot of homework done and I prepared everything for my first day at Vance.â
âDo you want me to drive you tomorrow?â
âNo, thatâs why I got my own car, remember?â I laugh.
âStill, I could drive you,â he offers as we get to my dorm and head inside.
âNo, itâs fine. I will drive myself. Thank you, though.â
Just as I am about to ask him what he did all dayâwhy he hadnât texted me if he missed me so muchâmy breath gets locked in my throat and panic takes over.
My mother is standing in front of my door with her arms crossed and a deep scowl on her face.
Chapter seventy-four
Hardinâs eyes follow mine and widen as he sees her. He reaches for my hand, but I pull away and step out in front of him. âHi, Mothââ
âWhat the hell are you thinking!â she yells as we approach.
I want to shrink and disappear.
âI . . . what?â I donât know what she knows yet, so I stay quiet. In her anger, her blond hair looks brighter, more angled toward her perfectly drawn-on face.
âWhat are you thinking, Theresa! Noah has been avoiding me for the last two weeks, and I finally ran into Mrs. Porter at the groceryâand you know what she told me? That you two have broken up! Why wouldnât you tell me? I had to find out in the most humiliating way!â she shouts.
âItâs not that big a deal, Mother. We broke up,â I say and she gasps. Hardin stays behind me, but I feel his hand go to the small of my back.
âNot that big a deal? How dare youâyou and Noah have been together for years. He is good for you, Tessa. He has a future, and comes from a great family!â She pauses to catch her breath a moment, but I donât interrupt, knowing thereâs more to come. She straightens up and says as calmly as she can, âLuckily, I have just spoken to him and he has agreed to take you back, despite your promiscuous behavior.â
Anger flares inside me. âHow dare I? If I donât want to date him, I donât have to. What does it matter what type of family he comes from? If I wasnât happy with him, that is what should matter. How dare you talk to him about thisâI am an adult!â
I push past her to open the door. Hardin follows close behind me and my mother storms in after.
âYou have no idea how ridiculous you sound! And then you show up here with . . . this . . . this . . . punk! Look at him, Tessa! Is this your way of rebelling against me? Have I done something to make you hate me?â
Hardin is standing by my dresser with his jaw clenched and hands shoved deep in his pockets. If only she knew that Hardinâs father is the chancellor at WCU and has even more money than Noahâs family. But I wonât tell her that, because that has nothing to do with it.
âThis isnât about you! Why do you have to make everything about you!â My tears are fighting to break free, but I refuse to let her get the best of me. I hate that when I am angry I cry; it makes me seem weak, but I canât help it.
âYouâre right, it isnât about meâitâs about your future! You have to think of the future, not just how youâre feeling now. I know he seems fun and dangerous, but there is no future here!â She gestures to Hardin. âNot with him . . . this freak!â
Before I realize what I am doing, I am in my motherâs face and Hardin has stepped forward, grabbing me by the elbows to pull me away from her. âDo not talk about him like that!â I scream.
My motherâs eyes are wide and red-rimmed. âWho are you? My daughter would never speak to me this way! She would never jeopardize her future or be so disrespectful!â
I begin to feel guilty, but thatâs exactly what she wants, and I have to fight through it to defend what I want. âI am not jeopardizing my future! My future isnât even in question here, Iâll have a four-point-oh, and I have a great internship starting tomorrow! You are beyond selfish to come here and try to make me feel bad for being happy. He makes me happy, Mother, and if you canât accept that, then you should go.â
âExcuse me?â She huffs, but in truth Iâm as surprised by what I just said as she is. âYou will regret this, Theresa! I am disgusted to even look at you!â