Iâm up at the crack of dawn after a restless night of tossing and turning.
When Iâm done showering, I check the lashes on my back, glad to see theyâre healing and not infected. Still, theyâll leave horrible marks.
Yesterday Nisa brought me the softest towels, the same peach color as the bedding. She also brought me shampoo, conditioner, a brush, and hair ties. There are products Iâve never used or had access to before.
It feels wrong, though. Like I shouldnât have these luxuries.
While I wonder if itâs too early to get to work, I also think about everything that happened during the past eight days.
Itâs surreal.
Not once have we had stew here, and the food is delicious. Itâs like thereâs an explosion of tastes in my mouth during every meal.
Last night we sat at a table in a quaint little room filled with potted plants. I didnât have to shove the food down as fast as possible while standing by the sink.
Also, Nisa and Murat have actually been nice to me. No one barks orders at me. The atmosphere in the house is pleasant and not filled with tension.
But all of this makes the apprehension grow in my chest.
Itâs not what Iâm used to, and itâs making me feel emotions Iâve never felt before.
Just do your best.
Keep your guard up and your head down.
Bey for mister. Hanin for miss. Evet for yes.
I go over the Turkish words I learned yesterday so I wonât forget them.
I take five minutes to squash all the new emotions down and to gather the strength for the day ahead.
Today Iâm wearing a pale yellow dress with a light brown pattern. The flat shoes are comfortable, unlike the pumps I used to wear.
I noticed Nisa doesnât wear a maidâs uniform, and I wonder if that means I wonât be wearing one as well.
Thereâs a lot I wonder about, but not wanting to overstep any boundaries, I keep the questions to myself.
Walking to the window, I glance outside and notice the sunâs rays are just starting to break through the darkness.
It must be past five oâclock already.
Not wanting to be late, I make sure every strand of my hair is neatly tucked into the bun before walking to the door.
Now that I have hair ties, I can maybe braid my hair like Nisaâs. Tomorrow, though. Thereâs no time for that now.
Itâs still hard to believe I donât have to share my sleeping space with anyone. Or a bathroom.
Itâs too good to be true, which means this could be a trap of some kind. Maybe Gabriel is hoping Iâll let my guard down, and Iâll give him information on Tymon.
If only he knew I donât know anything of worth. Not once have I lied to him.
Feeling tense and unsure in the foreign house, I cautiously open the door and peek up and down the hallway. Thereâs no sign of Murat.
Can I leave the room without Murat?
Crap.
I donât know what to do, and I really donât want to be late for my first day of work.
With my hand clutching the doorknob, I worry about what to do.
Do I wait?
Do I go to the kitchen and get to work?
This is so hard.
A door opens to my left, and when Nisa steps into the hallway, I almost let out an audible sigh of relief.
She notices me and says, âYouâre up early. Letâs have some tea.â
Still hesitant, I ask, âIs it okay if I leave the room without Murat Bey?â
âTsk.â She gestures for me to come. âAs long as youâre with me, itâs okay. Just donât wander around alone.â
Thatâs good to know.
I follow Nisa to the kitchen. While she opens the backdoor, I fill the teapot with water so it can boil. I peek into all the cupboards again to refresh my memory of where everything goes.
Thereâs even a dishwasher.
Last night it was weird loading all the dirty dishes into it and not washing them by hand.
Moving closer to the dishwasher, I ask, âDo I just open the machine to unload the dishes?â
âEvet,â Nisa murmurs.
I watch as she takes various ingredients from the pantry and fridge. Opening the dishwasher, I get to work.
Honestly, Iâm surprised everything is clean.
As I pack the dishes and utensils away, I have to admit itâs more convenient than washing and drying it all by hand.
I notice Nisa takes out curved glasses in which she serves the tea. Beneath each glass is a small plate with a light blue and gold pattern.
I try to memorize everything as quick as possible as Nisa shows me how to pour the tea. She uses a double teapot contraption, the bottom half holding the boiled water and the smaller teapot containing brewed tea.
âI like my tea strong, so I never add boiling water,â Nisa explains. She glances up at me. âHow do you like your tea?â
Ahhâ¦
We only had water at Tymonâs mansion.
âIâm not sure? Normal?â
Nisa lets out an amused chuckle and pours an equal blend of water and tea, the red color much lighter than hers. She also adds sugar to mine.
The whole process took thirty minutes.
Gone are the days of making a quick cup of tea.
âThank you, Nisa Hamin,â I murmur as I take my glass of tea from her. I sip tentatively on the hot liquid and have to admit itâs much better than water.
A small smile tugs at my mouth as I drink some more, then I catch Nisa grinning at me.
âItâs delicious,â I compliment her.
âYou wonât get any work out of me before Iâve had my tea,â she says, her tone light and friendly. Her eyes flick over me, then she says, âTell me about yourself.â
I set the glass down on the small plate. Not knowing what to say, I shrug. âIâm a hard worker.â
Nisa shakes her head. âTsk. No, tell me where youâre from, about your family, how you ended up working for someone like Tymon Mazur.â
My eyebrows lift slightly. Is this a Turkish thing? I never had conversations with the other staff.
âAh⦠Iâm Polish.â Then I think to quickly add, âBut I have citizenship in America.â I fidget nervously with the fabric of the dress. âMy mom died when I was twelve, and I have no other family.â I shrug again. âI took over her position as a maid after she passed.â
Nisa blinks at me. âYouâve been working as a maid since you were twelve?â
I nod.
âAllah Allah,â she exclaims dramatically, making me stare wide-eyed at her. âThatâs no childhood.â She pins me with an intense look. âDid you go to school?â
âYes. Until I was sixteen.â
âAllah Allah.â
Itâs not that bad.
Just then, Gabriel walks into the kitchen. I quickly straighten my posture, fold my hands in front of me, and respectfully look down.
âGabriel Bey,â Nisa says, her tone still pitching. âThe girl didnât even get to finish school.â
Gabriel says nothing as he takes a bottle of water from the fridge.
Today heâs dressed in a pair of jeans, a white t-shirt, and an olive green jacket. Gone are the brown leather shoes, and in their place are black boots.
He almost looks like a normal human being and not a mafia boss.
A very attractive human being.
Isnât he going to work? What day is it?
âWill we be having breakfast soon?â he asks.
Nisa waves a hand at him, and again my eyes widen as she shoos him out of the kitchen. âHave I ever let you starve?â
âThereâs always a first time.â The teasing tone in his voice has me peeking at them.
When weâre alone again, Nisa says, âLetâs get to work. You can continue telling me about yourself while we prepare breakfast.â
While I help Nisa prepare pide which is a Turkish flatbread, I tell her how we werenât allowed to have any kind of relationships. Friendships of any kind were strictly forbidden.
When sheâs gaping at me like a fish out of water, I murmur, âItâs not something Iâm used to.â I give her a sheepish grin. âBut Iâll do my best to learn.â
She lifts her eyes to the ceiling as if sheâs praying, then mutters, âAllah Allah.â Patting my shoulder, she gives me a comforting look. âIâll teach you everything, Lara Hanim.â
Emotions shoot through me like a rocket, and I have to swallow hard to keep them down. Clearing my throat, I get back to work.
Youâll be okay.