Wednesday, March 9th 2022
Dear yaniel~
You were the first guy...that was interested in me first that I actually liked back.
February 2022~
I just moved to Florida and I made the high school varsity softball team.
And you... you were on the varsity baseball team.
You saw me on the softball field from the baseball field and thought I was pretty.
So you asked my teammate for my number.
And that's how we started talking.
You messaged me on a Friday night for the first time and we hit it off well...
And we come to realize we were both going to the same softball tournament the next day...because his sister was playing against my team.
What are the odds right? Lol
so we would end up meeting each other for the first time that Saturday.
When I showed up and saw you I was so nervous to go up to you and talk to you.
But so were you...
So we ended up just texting each other 5 feet away instead....
Silly I know~
But you were soo cute and I didn't know how to approach you.
I'll never forget the first game we played against your sisters team.
And you were sitting right behind the dugout and you waved at me as I was walking on the field to pitch.
I saw you but wasn't sure if I could wave back knowing how strict my coach is about talking to the sidelines..
But I shyly waved back anyway...And you started laughing because you thought I wasn't going to wave back.
After I pitched that inning my teammates were so curious as to why I waved at you.
And they all were invested in our "relationship" now
after the game you texted me and said how good of a pitcher I was.
And my stomach turned a little....
In my mind I just can't believe how someone this attractive could like me??
There's no way right?
After the tournament I went home and we texted
And from there we messaged each other everyday
You asked me if I would pick the #1 so we could match numbers and be a cute baseball softball couple with matching numbers.
But I was sketchy about doing that at the time because I wasn't sure if WE would work out...and if we didn't then I'd be stuck with a number i truly didn't want.
Wednesday came and It was the first game of the high school season...
the baseball boys and softball girls were to meet in the gym to wait for our buses.
So you texted me to get there so you could give me a hug...
And so I excitedly got there expecting a hug from you, but all I got was a quick hug for 1 second and you ran off.
Which I thought was very odd...
But I sat down and ate with my teammates and then it was time for your bus to leave.
So you came to me and hugged me goodbye for the first time and that's when everyone found out we were talking.
Next practice...you would see me and hug me before practice started every single day.
And we began to FaceTime every Saturday and Sunday night.
We would have conversation and then you would play video games.
But you were also make finger hearts at me in the meanwhile to let me know you were still thinking of me.
And that melted my heart.
Fast forward to March~
Everything was going great.
We texted everyday everyone loved us together.
And it was as if we were the perfect sports couple
I played softball~
You played baseball~
I was the pitcher~
you were the catcher~
Everything was so great!
Then came the rivalry game between the neighbor schools.
We both had a game there on the same night.
We had won 15-7 and got done with our game early
Just enough time to watch the last two innings of your game!
I was so excited because I got to watch my first baseball game in real life and it was YOURS!!
but sadly you guys lost...and you were really sad about it...I wasn't even sure if I should have stayed and waited for you...because you were angry.
But I did anyway.
You came out of the dugout and walked towards me quickly...you looked so angry.
My heart was pounding...I wasn't sure if me staying was a good idea~
But you still have me a hug, you gave me a long tight hug and I told you "good job..you did amazing"
But you didn't say a word, you just hugged me a left.
And I felt horrible...I know how badly you wanted to beat them.
But even after that our texts would consist of flirting back and fourth.
you would tell me how pretty I am And my heart would race and I'd get all giddy on the other side of the phone.
You always knew the right words to say to get me to smile and blush.
One day after practice you gave me a hug and then you invited me to go watch your game that night.
I told you I wasn't sure and you begged me to go
"Pleaseeee you should totally come...what do you mean you don't know!!"
But the game was an hour away and it was my dads birthday.
But My dad told me I should just go watch the game bc we weren't doing anything for his birthday...and he knew I really liked this boy.
So my friend and I drove an hour to go watch.
Y'all ended up losing sadly:(
But after the game my friend waited for her BF and I was waiting for you
Her bf came to her but you...
You left me there alone...
I looked over at you waiting for yu to come towards me...but all I got was you holding up your finger saying "hold on" as you drank your water and walked away.
I awkwardly waited there being left out of my friend and her BF's convo just waiting for you to come talk to me.
Finally...you walked over to me and hugged me...I told you that you did a great job and you said thanks.
But you were being so distant....so I thought I would ask you a question about one of the trick plays.
But you explained it halfway...and then you had to leave..so we hugged goodbye.
But little did I know that was going to be the last time I ever hugged you.
I really don't know what I did that night for you to not like me anymore.
But you ghosted me after. You didn't answer my texts and when you did you answered them dry.
And when the weekend came around you didn't FaceTime me like usual.
And you stopped messaging me first.
I missed my dads birthday to go watch your baseball game that night....
All for you to blow me off out of no where?
This was the first time I actually thought I was going to get a boyfriend.
FINALLY someone who likes me that I truly like back...
But somehow you switched up overnight.
And never spoke to me ever again....
You then unfollowed me on Instagram out of the blue.
So that's when I knew we were done.
I wish I knew what I did wrong??
All the thoughts that crossed my mind were endless...
(What if the baseball team saw me and told him I was ugly and he believed them)
(What if he didn't like the way I wore my hair that day?)
( was he weirded out that I actually drove an hour to his game?)
(Maybe he thought my outfit was weird...)
(Or maybe he just saw me without uniform and realized how ugly I really am?)
All these unhealthy thoughts....
But I can't lie...I really did like you...
but you played me I guess....
It took a few weeks to get over you completely...especially because I saw you every day before practice
And ate next to you every time we had the same game days.
But soon enough I got over you....
And then you got back with your Ex..
You did hurt me, but I'm glad I don't let myself get toooo attached...
I just wish I would've known that night was going to be the last hug I'd ever get from you, because I loved your hugs...and I would've appreciated it a lot more.
Goodbye Yaniel Mercado~