Chapter 70

Chapter 70

SEBASTIAN

“I've called you a thousand times. I went to your penthouse, but you

weren't there. And your secretary didn't tell me anything. Where have

you been?” Catherine said as she slowly walked down the stairs the

moment I walked through the door.

I almost forgot when was the last time I stepped foot in this house. I

looked at Catherine's face, and I couldn't feel anything but disgust. I

loathed her. I wanted to blame her for everything, but I couldn't

because I know deep in my heart I'm part of the blame for everything

that happened to me. I'm miserable not because of Catherine. I allow

myself to be manipulated so easily. I believe in every word she said,

and I can’t blame anyone but myself. I'm miserable, and I deserve it.

It took me time to realize how stupid I was. I let my guilt cloud my

judgment. Back then, I really thought I still loved Catherine. I made the

right choice when I chose to be with her and leave Blaire. But it only

took me a year into marriage with Catherine before I realized that I

made the biggest mistake of my life when I chose to let go of Blaire.

I don't love Catherine anymore. I felt the need to be with her because I

thought that was the right thing to do. But the truth was, I was just

feeling guilty about not being with Catherine when she was fighting for

her life. I confused guilt with love.

“Are you ready to sign the divorce papers?” I asked her, not paying

attention to all her nagging questions.

She blew a loud breath. “How many times do I have to tell you that I'm

not going to sign those papers? I'll be your wife until I die.” she

answered.

“Then, I hope you die now,” I said coldly before heading towards my

office. I have important documents that I need to get from the office, so

I was forced to come here despite my eagerness to avoid this place as

much as possible.

As usual, she didn't let go of this topic. She followed me up to my

office. “Where have you been, Sebastian?” she asked once again.

I had a feeling that she already knew what's going on. She just wanted

to hear the confirmation from me. "Somewhere I should have been a

long time ago,” I answered her without much context. She's smart.

She'll figure it out.

“So, you're still unable to let go of her, huh?” she said, her words filled

with bitterness. “How can you do this to me, Sebastian? After all I've

done for you? After all I've been through just to be with you, you still

weren't able to forget her! How dare you?!"

I scoffed, “Everything that you've done for me?” I said sarcastically.

“You want to take that path? Sure, let's go there.” I slowly walked

towards her, and with each word, it was like a threat. “Tell me, what

have you done to be with me?” I asked her.

She gulped as she found herself cornered, and her back was pressed

against the drawer. “I-I did that because I love you, Sebastian,” she

stuttered.

“You did what, Catherine? You have to be more specific.”

She opened her mouth to answer, but she failed.

I scoffed, “Can't say anything?” I said. “Fine, let me say it for you. You

lied about being pregnant, and you needed my help because the father

of your child didn’t want to support you. And you used that same

supposed child to make Blaire believe that it was mine, only to find out

that you were never pregnant in the first place!”

“Don’t just blame it all on me!”

“Yes, I know. It's my fault as well. That's why I'm trying my best to do

what is right. I tried to be considerate and understanding But my

patience is running thin, Catherine. Sign the papers so we can move on

with our lives. I'm trying to rectify the mistakes that we made, and I'm

hoping you'll do the same.”

“So, you can be with Blaire? I will never let her win! i will never let the

two of you be happy while I'm being miserable! You have to kill me first

before I sign those papers!

I laughed bitterly before I slowly walked towards my table and imped on

my swivel chair. I suddenly felt exhausted after

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“Do you really think Blaire and I will be together after you sign those

divorce papers? Blaire will never want to be with me after all that I've

done to her. She may never forgive me, but I'd rather spend my whole

life begging for her forgiveness rather than spending it in hell with you.

So, sign those goddamn papers for fck's sake!”

I watched the tears fall on her checks, and her eyes were filled with

sadness and sorrow. But I will not allow myself to be swayed by her

tears, not anymore. I was blinded by the image of the woman I used to

love and cherish. When I found out the truth about her struggles

to protect me, I felt the need to pay her back. I felt guilty for not being

with her when she needed me the most. I feel like I owe it to her to

make sure that she'll be happy after all the sacrifices that she has

made for me.

But all the good things that she has done lose their purpose when her

lies pile up on top of each other. As soon as those lies were finally

revealed, it didn't take long before I realized the gravity of my mistakes.

I lost the woman I love because I was too caught up in making up for

what happened in the past. I was in love with Catherine. But it was

Blaire who made me realize what true love was all about. Cliché it may

sound, but it's true that you'll only realize the true value of something

when it's gone.

“N-No, I-l won't, Sebastian. I can't let you go. I love you. And I know

deep in your heart, you still love me too. You wouldn't have married me

if you didn’t have even an ounce of love for me. We made our vows

when we got married, and I had every intention to fulfil that vow.”

I let out a loud sigh. “You'll be generously compensated after the

divorce. I'll give you half of my assets if you want. That's the least I

could do for all the pain I've caused you, Catherine. Accept it. That's

the only thing you'll get from me. I don't love you anymore, and I don't

intend to stay in this marriage much longer.”

“You'll never going to get what you want, Sebastian. I'm not as stupid

as Blaire. I'll hold on to that paper for as long as I could until you realize

that you have nowhere else to go but beside me,” she threatened.

“You know I don’t respond well to threats, Catherine. Sign the papers

while I'm still patient. You don’t want me as your enemy. It's my last

warning to her before getting the documents I came for, then left the

room.

I've been staying in my office penthouse for the last four years. That

has been my life since Blaire and I decided to go our separate ways. It

only took me a year to realize that my feelings for Catherine were all

gone. What I felt for her that time was guilt and pity. Now, I'm punishing

myself for acting so stupid in the past.

Despite my initial plan to remain miserable my whole life as a

punishment for myself, all of that flew out the window the moment she

stepped into my office. God knows I tried to push her away by

discouraging her to take the job. But the more I tried to make it hard for

her, the more determined to prove herself. I saw how desperate she

was for the job. I know she needed the money.

The monster inside me loosened its grip and took that opportunity to

trap her in his arms, completely disregarding the pain that he had

caused her before. I was selfish, evil, and self-centered. She despises

me to the core that she'd rather sell her soul to me rather than ask for

herself.

I was ready to let her go after our three-day deal. But not until I find out

the truth about our son. Lucas may be right, but I know Blaire. While

she may appear vulnerable in defending herself, she'll fiercely protect

those she loves with all her might. She'll not back down with just

chocolates and flowers.

I'l need to come up with something so I won't lose her and my son for

good. It may not be the best solution, but I'm going to make sure this

will work

As soon as i reached my car, I grabbed my phone and dialled a

number. He answered after a few rings I need you to do something for

me.