CHAPTER 186

Lewis POV It had been a week, a whole week and dylem still wasn’t going to the dining hall, I did managed to get food to her new and again but she needed more th almost looked sickly, she also needed to internet with the people here, it was crucial if she was going to be the one to unite the world against the kingg The girl that had arrived a week ago, just wasn’t the Dylan that I had grown to know, fiot that I blamed her for anything, she just needed to be reminded o Even so I was worried about her, and so there i was stood outside her PV and waiting to hear something, I knew she wasn’t keeping one on purpose, sh just before I could reach for the door, it shot open and Dylan all but scrambled out, her hand rested on her chest as she panted and collapsed on the gra “I knew it! E spoke to her only to have her head turn to me quickly, she jumped out of her skin at the sight of me and stared at me wide eyed. I stepped c I had been watching her for days, and she seemed to be getting more and more pale, her eyes were so sunken and bloodshot that it was almost difficult I couldn’t sleep, so I thought I’d get some fresh air. I need to build my stamina back up anyway” She shrugged her shoulders and wiped her cheeks clean You are having nightmares? That’s why you aren’t sleeping!.. Her silence confirmed everything and I sighed. I was beyond angry at myself for not seeing andsar I’m sleeping fine. I just want to go for a walk. She wasn’t sleeping fine, but if I pressed her she would just get mad, so I played along for a minute, “Dyl, you are exhausted. I know you wait to get stronger, but there’s no point doing any of this if you’re going to collapse from exhaustion. Aren’t you taki I don’t like how the pills make me feel. It was a simple answer that really didn’t sit well with me. She was going to make herself really sick if she kept refu “Can’t you just try them again? You need sleep!” She shook her head frustration and anger evident on her beautiful features.

“I’ve tried them… I didn’t like them. End of discussion!” Well that was final… Still I knew I had to push her.

“And what about food?” I took a step towards her and watched as she wobbled slightly, clearly unsteady on her legs, she really must have such low stam “I know, but I’m just not hungry like I used to be. I don’t want to over cat and make myself sick.” Excuses! That’s all she was doing, she was making excuses about why she wasn’t caring for herself.

“So don’t over eat, finish what you can even and wait an hour before eating more, It’s really simple if you just…” She cut me off, her words slicing through my own, while the expression that took over her face caused a stab to hit me in my chest. I knew she was struggling maybe she actually did enjoy food, it was always Josh who didn’t feed her correctly, he feared her getting too strong.

“Nothing about this is simple!”

“So, let me help you. Tell me what is going on in that head of yours.” She shook her head, and looked away from me at the ground beside her.

“I don’t need help, I’m ok.” That phrase again… ‘I’m Ok‘ she was not ok, anyone could tell that she was far from ok, and I was honestly sick and tired of h “It’s two in the morning, you are not ‘fine‘, you are not ‘ok‘.” I was angry at her for burying down her feelings so much, it really wasn’t healthy to surprise w yourself?! Just tell me exactly you’re feeling, because I can’t stand by any longer and watch you die before my eyes.” Her orbs widened drastically at my If Dylan didn’t start taking care of herself, then she would die. “Stop saying you’re ok and tell me the truth.”

“I…” she swallowed thickly and her eyes began to fill up, her brows scrunched together screaming nothing but desperation.

“Say it, Dylan! Please just say it, just admit it so that I can help you. Please… Please let me help you!” My hand went to cup her cheek which she instant my palm and with it my angered heartbeat began to sound and feel less erratic.

“I’m…” why was it so difficult for her to vocalize it. “I’m not… ok!”

Finally! She acknowledged her feelings/Finally she spoke her truth instead of forcing herself to feel nothing.

Now she’s accepted her feelings it was more than time to help her deal with her mind.