Chapter 19

I threw my backpack in my car and hauled it out of the parking lot. Tears were flowing down my face and my nose and lip hurt like hell because of it. I didn't want to go home, but my mom was already pissed so I did what she asked and went straight home. I sat in the drive way for a good fifteen minutes before I opened the garage door and went inside. My mom was waiting for me at the kitchen table.

"Come here." My mom said. She said it almost kindly. I did as she said and sat down the table next to her. I scooted my chair closer to her and waited for her to yell or to get mad at me like everyone else tonight. I was already starting to tear up before she said anything.

"Are you okay my love?" She said as she put her hand on my chin and examined my face.

"No." I said bursting into tears. My mom just nodded and brought me to her. I sat there crying for twenty minutes. My mom just let me cry and rubbed my head. When I finished crying I wiped my eyes and looked at my mom.

"Me and Kris aren't friends anymore." I sniffled and my mom just nodded.

"Her girlfriend hates me and its so hard to put her in the middle of us. For a while I couldn't even talk to her or see her, and it hurt so much because I love her mom." I was crying again. In one sentence i had come out to my mom and broke my own heart just by saying the words out loud.

"I know sweetie. And it's okay. Have you told her how you feel?" She asked while grabbing my hand.

"I guess I did tonight. She got really mad at me for getting into a fight with Mack. That was her girlfriend. She said that mack said she had to choose. I told her I couldn't do it anymore because it just hurt too much to watch her get hurt because I love her. But when Mack ran into Sara I just lost it." There was too much going through my mind.

"Avery I love you. And I'm sorry you've been going through this by yourself. I don't have all the answers. I'll admit it. But will always be here for you. Just remember that you have to do whats best for you. Not for anyone else but for you. And sometimes we lose the people we love the most, but that's okay. Because sometimes when you feel like you will never love anyone again someone else comes along and proves you wrong." She gave me a sympathetic smile and kissed my forehead. Moms always knew how to make things better. I gave her a small smile and wiped the rest of my tears.

"Now go take some Advil for you face and put some ice on your lip. Also take a shower, you smell." She laughed, and so did I. I did as I was told and got into the shower. I let the hot water wash away everything that happened tonight. As I thought about the past couple of hours. I did get a good couple of hits in. I might have broken her nose. I laughed at myself. I really can't believe I got into a fight with her. I'm kind of proud of myself. Especially because I didn't get my ass kicked like I thought.

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I was about to get into bed when I remembered my phone that was still in my backpack. I walked blindly to the living room and stumbled around until I found my backpack. I dug through my bag until I found my phone. I clicked the home button a couple times but it was long since dead. I limped back to my room and crawled into bed. My whole body hurt, and I honestly didn't want to have to lean over the bed to get my charger but I did it any ways. Within a couple of minutes of plugging it in my phone started buzzing and buzzing. I had a lot of messages from Kris. I didn't really read them I just kind of scrolled through them. I scrolled through and saw a number I didn't recognize. The message said

Stay the hell away from my girlfriend you psycho.

I wanted to text her back and start a fight but I had already put Kris through enough tonight. And how the hell was I the psycho, she was the one who rammed down an innocent girl just to spite me. Whatever. I kept scrolling until I saw a text from Sara. It said

I'm sorry about everything that happened tonight. I hope you're okay. Thank you for what you did. It really meant a lot to me.

I really did care about Sara. It was different than what I felt with Kris. With Kris I felt like she was the only person who would ever understand me. But with Sara it was different. I don't know how I feel about her. All I know is that I care about her a lot. And I don't want to ever see anyone hurt her. I decided to text her back

Can we talk tomorrow?

She text back within a couple of seconds.

Uh yea for sure. I'll come over around 11 that good?

Yes.

That was all I replied. I put my phone down and closed my eyes.

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I woke up to the sound of my phone buzzing. I reached for my phone and flinched at the light. It was 12:41. I had only been asleep for two hours. Who the hell was calling me. It was Kris calling. I didn't want to answer. I wanted to put the phone down and go back to sleep, but I couldn't do that, so I answered it.

"Hello?" I asked still asleep.

"Avery you haven't answered any of my texts." She said

"What do you want me to say Kris?"

"Avery we need to talk about this."

"Theres nothing to talk about. You were always going to pick her so I might as well make It easier on you."

"No. You cannot just tell me you love me and then tell me you're done with this, with me."

"It doesn't matter Kris. Now hang up before Mack finds out you called me."

"Avery wait," I didn't. I hung up the phone and turned it off. This was for her own good. And my sanity. I closed my eyes and tried to think about something good. I thought about Sara. I closed my eyes and went back to sleep

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