Chatper 314
His Nanny Mate
Chapter 314 Respite
Ella
The door to the bathroom swung shut behind me with a quiet click, muffling the ambient sounds of the
courthouseâs busy hallway.
For a moment, the silence was overpowering, offering a brief respite from the chaotic world outside.
Cold tiles met my stiletto heels, and I leaned over the sink, staring at my reflection. My usually vibrant
eyes looked dull, and trails of tears had smeared my makeup slightly. Taking a deep breath, I let the
weight of my emotions wash over me.
I turned on the tap, letting the cold water rush over my hands before splashing some onto my face.
Each droplet felt like a tiny balm against my heated skin, a fleeting relief from the oppressive weight of
guilt that threatened to crush me.
âWhy did I ever think this was a good idea?â I whispered, the weight of my decisions bearing down on
me. My wolf stirred, a familiar presence at the back of my mind.
âWe wanted to make a difference, remember?â she murmured, her voice as gentle as a summer
breeze.
âBut like this?â I shot back, frustration evident in my tone. âWorking with the mafia? Aligning ourselves
with people like Logan Barrett for what? Career opportunities? A shot at a successful career as a
lawyer?â
The heaviness in my chest intensified, a sour taste lingering in my mouth. I felt sickened by the path I
had chosen, regret gnawing at the edges of my consciousness.
âYour intentions were pure,â my wolf argued, her tone soothing. âBut lately it feels like Logan tricked us.
We believed he wanted to be better. Maybe he just wanted us by his side, to have us as a lawyer, to
use our expertise.â
I scoffed bitterly, gripping the sinkâs cool edges. âHeâs a master manipulator, thatâs for sure. I wish I
never met him. I⦠I hate him.â
âI hate him too right now. But unfortunately, he is our fated mate,â my wolf reminded me gently, a touch
of sadness in the tone of her voice.
I shook my head vehemently, a few damp strands of hair sticking to my cheeks from where I splashed
water on my face. Or maybe it was from my tears.
âIâll never mate with that jerk,â I murmured. âHeâs not worthy of being our mate. Not now, not ever. And I
donât think heâs even capable of changing.â
As if on cue, the door to the bathroom opened, letting in a sliver of light and the muffled hum of voices
from outside. The woman who had given the heart-wrenching testimony earlier stepped in, her face a
portrait of anguish.
Her gaze locked onto mine in the mirror, and for a moment, the world seemed to stand still. With tears
shimmering in her eyes, her voice trembled with a mix of sorrow and rage. âHow can you?â she asked. I
raised my eyebrows slightly, taken aback. âPardon?â
Miss Smithâs eyes narrowed. âHow can a fellow woman bring herself to side with a⦠a⦠sicko like
Logan Barrett?â
The weight of Miss Smithâs words hung heavy in the cold air of the bathroom. Her gaze, once teary and
anguished, now bore into mine with a potent mixture of fury and disbelief.
âWhy?â she whispered, the single word cutting through the silence like a knife. âHow can you defend
him? Do you not have a conscience?â
My throat constricted, and for a moment, I felt as though I was being strangled by the weight of my own
guilt. âMiss Smith,â I began, my voice shaking. âItâs⦠itâs complicated.â
She took a step closer, her brown eyes searching mine. âComplicated? My sonâs life is on the line.
Thereâs nothing âcomplicatedâ about that.â
My heart ached, and the walls of the bathroom
seemed to close in on me. âI wish I could help,â I whispered, my voice barely audible. âBut youâre not.
Youâre standing beside him,â she spat, her voice dripping with contempt.
âYouâre part of the very system thatâs tearing my family apart.â
I looked down, unable to meet her accusing gaze. âI understand your pain,â I murmured, trying to find
the right words. âI never wanted things to turn out like this.â
Miss Smith scoffed again. âDo you think your regrets will save my son? Do you think theyâll make up for
the hell you two are putting us through?â Her voice quivered with emotion, each word stabbing at my
conscience.
âI⦠I went into law to help people like you,â I admitted, my voice choked with emotion. âI never
imagined Iâd be on this side of the fight.â
Miss Smith paused, her fierce gaze softening slightly as she studied my face. âThen why are you?â
The question hung in the air, its weight pressing down on me. My mind raced, searching for an answer,
but the truth was too convoluted, too entangled in the web of decisions and circumstances that had led
me to this point. And lawyer-client confidentiality kept me from saying more.
âI wish I had a simple answer,â I confessed, my eyes misting with tears. âBut I donât. Iâm truly sorry for
the pain Iâm causing you.â
She took a deep breath, attempting to compose herself. âYour apologies wonât change the situation.
But maybe your actions can. If you truly regret this, then something about it.â
âIâm bound by my professional obligations,â I whispered, regret evident in my voice. âBut I promise, I will
try to do whatâs right.â
Miss Smithâs gaze remained fixed on me, her eyes searching for any hint of insincerity. âFor my sonâs
sake, I hope youâre telling the truth.â
A heavy silence settled between us, the weight of our conversation lingering in the air. Slowly, Miss
Smith turned towards the exit, her steps faltering slightly as she walked towards the door.
âI pray you find your conscience, Miss Morgan,â she said, pausing for a moment before leaving. âBefore
itâs too late.â
My throat tightened, words failing me. I simply stood there, staring at her, my heart aching with the
weight of her condemnation. The air between us thickened with tension, and she shook her head, her
expression a mix of disappointment and fury.
Without another word, she turned and made her way out of the bathroom, leaving me alone with the
echo of her words.
In the newfound silence, I leaned back against the wall, feeling the cool tiles pressing against my back.
She was right. How had I let myself get caught up in this mess?
Outside, I heard the unmistakable sound of the brief recess being called to its end. A wry chuckle
almost escaped my lips; fifteen minutes of intermission, and I had spent all of it crying and trying to
convince my horrible client to at least try to be a good person for five minutes, when my body really just
craved another cup of coffee more than anything.
Taking another steadying breath, I adjusted my blazer and pushed open the door. The bustling hallway
outside greeted me, but my attention was immediately drawn to Logan, who stood a few feet away. His
tall frame was unmistakable, even amidst the crowd.
But what caught my attention was his expression-pensive, contemplative, as if lost in deep thought.
The stoniness in his eyes from before had now faded, and when he turned toward me, I saw something
new in his face. Something softer.
âElla,â he said, sounding almost remorseful, âIâd like to talk to you.â