Revisit and Revelations

BECCA

I fell asleep with my mom in my bed. She listened to me very carefully. She asked for details from time to time, but mostly she allowed me to talk things through. To talk about it aloud.

I needed to voice all of my fears and doubts, to explain my concerns about my inevitable meeting with Logan Jones and Drew Milton.

The next morning, I woke up because I realized that my mom was staring at me. I opened my eyes and smiled at her. She pushed the strand of hair from my eyes and gently placed her palm on my cheek.

“Honey, you know, I was thinking…”

“Did you sleep at least a little?”

“Of course, but I was awake for some time already and... Rebecca, I want you to be honest with me.

“The fact that you know almost every little detail about Logan’s life concerns me... It has been four years. You were dating the owner of the coffee shop near your apartment in Miami, and Cody, the writer... And…”

“I just... I need answers, Mom. I honestly have no idea what was going on in his head when he threw my necklace into the lake. It’s worrying me too, that I can’t let go of this situation, but…”

“You need closure with Logan Jones. I get that. But honey, it’s been four years! He never tried to reach you. Not to mention that he is famous now with a lot of money, sports cars in his garage, and these girlfriends with stunning bodies.”

“Yeah, you saw him together with Drew in some photos from the paparazzi when they were hanging out together, but have you seen him in any other friend’s company? He changed. He changed his close circle of friends…”

“I know. But Lily says he is the same… He helped her find the dress and…”

“And?”

“Now, he is dating the model who was advertising the wedding dress… She said her name is Teresa.”

“See? I think you don’t know this, but Logan isn’t close with Tim anymore. It’s all because of Kate.”

“What?! How do you know that?!” I was shocked. I didn’t expect to hear something like that.

“Well, your dad and Kate’s dad were watching football one day, and Logan was on the field. Henry asked when the last time Kate and Tim visited Logan…”

“Jim was reluctant to answer, feeling uncomfortable, but eventually, he said that Tim and Logan had a huge argument because of something Kate had said or done…”

“Well, I can’t blame him… I argued with her, as well… Mom, she changed so much! She’s like a totally different person, indifferent to the feelings of other people, selfish, childish…”

“They’re struggling to start a family, baby girl…”

“Kate and Tim?”

“Uh huh… She is worried about it and nervous… Their relationship is under a lot of pressure, Rebecca… And you know your friend. She was always bad when she was nervous and had struggles.”

“I had no idea… When she was with Lily in Miami, she didn’t say a word, even when we were talking very openly… Fuck!” I hid my face in my palms. This situation could influence Kate’s mood and her relationship with other people.

“It’s okay. With this unexpected vacation, you will have the opportunity to talk with her.”

“I hope so.” I took my blanket off and climbed out of bed. I need to collect my things before I leave.

“Honey, you didn’t let me finish. Do you still have feelings for Drew? For Logan?”

“I am interested in their lives, but feelings…”

“Be careful, Rebecca... One of these men might hurt you very much…”

“Drew did a good job of that.”

“This time, it might not be him. Don’t get too close to Logan. He is a celebrity, a professional football player. Don’t let him play you or with your feelings.”

“Mom! I only wanted to be friends with him!”

“You have Chase as a friend. While I am a hundred percent sure that you’re lying to yourself, and that is what scares me the most.”

“Lydia? Rebecca?” Dad’s voice stopped our conversation short. He knocked on the door, and only after he heard my voice, dad walked inside. “I guess your talk last night lasted longer than I thought.”

“Definitely, Henry. But we’ve made good progress.” Mother stood up from my bed and walked to the door. “I will go change and then will take care of breakfast. What time are you going to leave?”

“I promised Lily to be at her place around 2 pm.”

“Okay. We still have time.”

Mom left my room while Dad stepped further inside and sat on my bed. I was collecting the clothes I was going to take with me. I knew that he was watching me, but I acted nonchalant. Talking about everything with Mom helped me, but her assumptions just now made me crack a little.

“So, how did it go? Did you talk to your mother?”

“Yeah. She lent me her ear, and well, I guess I feel better now.”

“Glad to hear that.” Dad fell silent; he saw that I wasn’t going to tell him more. He sighed and stood up, walking toward the door. “I will meet you downstairs then.”

“Okay.”

I turned away from him and looked at my cocktail dress. I had no idea what Lily planned for her bachelorette party, but she told me to wear something sexy and suitable for dancing. So, we would probably go to some club. But honestly, I would have preferred to know about the place beforehand.

When my suitcase was packed, I went downstairs and found both of my parents sitting at the table. Mom made an effortless breakfast with fried eggs and bacon, but it was very delicious.

She sliced tomatoes and cheese, and apparently, there was a dessert yesterday. Because now before me was a cheesecake and a steaming cup of coffee. I inhaled the deep aroma of coffee and smiled. It was exactly as I loved it.

“Rebecca, when are you planning to come back home?” Mom asked me, sipping on her coffee.

“I will probably be all yours on Wednesday. Lily and John leave for their honeymoon on Monday, and I was planning to stay one day longer to spend some time with Kate…”

“Take your time, honey. You will have time to be with us. So if you want to stay at their place a little longer, just tell us. Okay?” Dad said, looking at me with a serious expression. I only nodded at him.

“Henry, will she take my car or yours?”

“Mine, of course.” I glanced between both of them. I forgot that I don’t have my car anymore. Dad sold it a few months after I moved to Miami.

“Of course? My car is also in great shape.” Mom sounded offended; she loved her Volkswagen Polo.

“But I'm sure that our daughter would prefer to drive something bigger and more powerful.” Dad winked and smiled at me. My lips stretched into a satisfied grin, and Mom smirked.

“Yeah... She even picks her men like that. Big and powerful.” I closed my eyes for a second and shook my head. Mom is mom; she will never change. “Don’t mind me, actually... It is better this way. You will need to drive in my car, Henry. I know how much you don’t like to be seen in my red kitten.”

“God, I forgot about that... But you know, walking is also very good for people our age. I will be fine by taking strolls around town.”

“We will see,” Mom smirked at Dad, and I chuckled. My family wasn’t something extraordinary, but they gave me support and strength. Since I was a little girl, Mom and Dad were always there for me, ready to love and take care of me.

“I love you both so much. You know that, right?” I told them, and they nodded at me with huge smiles on their faces.

After breakfast, I went to the shower. I washed my hair and took care of my body, soaping and pampering myself.

Today I was going to see my dress for the wedding for the first time. Lily asked for my measurements some time ago, and I was happy that I hadn’t changed an inch. I was in perfect shape.

For the road, I changed into a summer dress. It was a navy maxi dress with a polka dot print. The dress had a bardot neckline and a slip leg design. The material was light and pleasant to the touch. I bought it right before my move to New York, and it was the first time I was going to wear it.

I braided my hair in a low-sided French braid; this way, all of my blond strands had a lovely view. It only highlighted the color of my hair, and I was satisfied with the outcome. I added some mascara and looked at myself in the mirror. I looked good, simple, yes, but damn good.

“Rebecca, you look lovely. And confident. I like it,” Dad said to me, kissing my cheek. I smiled at him.

“Thank you, Dad! Keep your fingers crossed that I will be the same when I am at Lily’s.”

“You want your dad to catch spasms? If he keeps his fingers crossed for you the whole time you are staying in that town, do you know what will happen to him?”

“Mom! I was joking! Oh my God!” I raised my voice a little, and Mom started laughing, amused by my reaction.

“I am not being serious, Rebecca. You should know me better.” She stepped to me and hugged me tightly. I closed my eyes, allowing myself to relax in our embrace.

“I know you, and I love you for that. Thank you!” I kissed her cheek and stepped back from my parents. They were sending me off like I was going on a mission. Maybe it will be a mission? I groaned.

“What?” Mom raised her eyebrows.

“Nothing. It’s just hot here.”

“My car has an air conditioner; everything will be okay, Rebecca,” Dad smiled at me and nodded his head to the car. He was right, I needed to start moving, or I would be late.

I sighed and walked to the black Range Rover Evoque, which my dad bought two years ago. It was a beast, not a car. I was used to a more compact, smaller car, and I wasn’t sure that it was a good idea for me to take him up on his offer.

But I loved speed, and this car was powerful. I waved at my parents, climbed inside the car, and started the engine. Damn, how fucking perfect it sounded!

I glanced at my wrist with my swallow tattoo, turned on my playlist with 21 Pilots songs, and drove off.

To hell with all these doubts and insecurities! I was a confident 26-year-old woman with a fit body and beautiful facial features. I was sure that I could do this! I was going to do everything in my power to do this right.