Chapter 37
Alpha Lucias’ Banished Luna
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âAsk the f u c k i n g doctors to come! Do they f u c k i n g think that they can leave their Luna like this? Iâm gonna f u c k i n g kill everyone!â I growled at the nurse.
She gasped and jumped back away from me as she immediately nodded her head. Why the f u c k do they think that they can leave her like this? I donât want anything to happen to her so those f u c k i n g doctors should work for it! I looked at Emilina. and then looked at the baby in my hands.
A girl⦠I had the desire to have a daughter but I never thought about it much because Emilina told me that it would be a boy but it turned out to be a girl and Iâm happy but I couldnât celebrate or continue my happiness when the person who gave birth to this beautiful baby hasnât woken up yet.
âYou need to wake up, Lina. you canât leave me with two children⦠F u c k⦠Iâm not good at taking care of children âI whispered, placing the baby near Emilina. Please wake up and have a look at your daughter. The baby girl that you gave birth to. My mind begged looking at her. My wolf has already gone insane. He was crying from fear. I stroked her hair without stopping. I was completely terrified and I felt utterly helpless.
No.. I donât want to lose her after all these things Iâve done for her. Most importantly, I donât want to lose her while sheâs giving birth to a child for me. What kind of unlucky bas t a r d would I be if something like this happened? The doctors came into the room again. As soon as they came, I grabbed one of them from the collar and growled. How could they leave her like this? Are they f u c k i n g dumb not to know that I would definitely kill them if they didnât try their best?
âDo you
dare
u want to die? Iâm killing all of you here if anything happens to her? How you leave her like that? Sheâs your Luna!â I pushed him towards the bed and glanced at others. Their heads were already bowed and trembling. They should be scared⦠all these people know how dangerous it would be if I get angry: More than that, when my wolf is angry everything is murderous.
âWe⦠we couldnât stop her from bleeding alphaâ¦. We canât save her⦠she lost too much blood. We have a limit for everything⦠We are sorryâ One brave b a s t a r d spoke as he glanced at Emilina.
Are they⦠are they f u c k i n g saying me that they canât save her? Whatâs the f u c k i n g meaning of this?
âDo something⦠I donât want to lose her⦠Do something! I donât f u c k i n g care⦠I donât want to lose her on the day my daughter was born! How can I ever celebrate
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her birthday if I lose their mom on that day? Are you f u c k i n g kidding me? Do something!â I roared.
As soon as I stopped, I heard my daughter beginning to cry. My voice must have terrified her. I picked her up and helplessly looked at her. I donât even know how to make her stop crying. I already missed this period of Luanâs life and Iâm still inexperienced as this is my first time holding a newborn little baby.
âDo something, I will wait outsideâ I said to the doctor, turning to leave the room after glancing at Emilina. Sheâs pale and her look was stabbing right into my heart brutally. I didnât want this to happen. We had our second child together and I wanted to be a good father to them and a good husband to her. I married her again. and I gave everything I couldnât give her during the last one and half months but that ainât enough. I have more to give her. I have to fix our relationship to a better one and fix our past.
As I came out, Luan jogged towards me with a smile. He jumped trying to look at the baby in my hands. He was waiting for Emilina to give birth so he could be a big brother soon. I felt the emotions surging into me. I controlled my emotions so hard and didnât let tears appear in my eyes. I slowly bent down showing Luan his little sister.
âIâm a big brotherâ¦. Yayâ¦â Luan S**posed how happy he was as he began to jump up and down while his beautiful eyes were completely on his sister.
âYes, you have a sister to take care of you. You should be a loving and caring brother for herâ I donât know if Luan completely understood what I said but he nodded at me obediently as he moved his hand and touched the babyâs cheek.
She has already stopped crying and now her beautiful glowing eyes are staring at Luan. Soon she giggled, making my heart tighten. I couldnât just watch her without feeling the pain. Emilina would be alright⦠nothing will happen to her. Sheâs fineâ¦. sheâs fine⦠I repeated. I have no one but her⦠and she also has no one but me. We created these two children and I donât want her to leave us behind. I donât know what to do now. She had lost so much blood and my entire head is filled in that sight and it is so f u c k i n g painful to see her like that. I looked at Derek. He was already looking at me with a pair of confused and shocked eyes. At the same time Lisa also came. I clenched my jaws and walked towards Lisa giving the baby to her.
âTake care of them for a moment⦠I need to be aloneâ I really needed to be alone. I know that I shouldnât be leaving my newborn baby girl while her mommy is still inside but I felt Iâm going to lose myself anytime soon so before that happens, I should be alone and calm myself down.
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âAlpha, whatâs wrong?â Derekâs voice followed me as I walked out of the hospital. Why did I forget that this guy would never leave me alone or let me be alone? He always follows me and I know it was all because heâs worried and concerned about me. I turned to Derek and took a deep breath. What should I do now? What the f u c k should I do now? The fear in me didnât even let me think properly.
âSheâs bleedingâ¦. They are saying that they canât do anything about it⦠I donât want to lose her. You know how hard I endured all the things in order to get her back to me. So now⦠I donât want to lose her⦠not after she gave birth to another child⦠What should I do now? What the hell should I do? I donât understandâ¦â
I felt the tears were not under my control anymore. My vision blurred and I felt hot tears streaming down through my face. The helplessness in me is something that I am unable to ignore. I wasnât even helpless this much when Kaleb asked me to reject Emilina but nowâ¦. Iâm both scared and helpless. I donât want to lose my Emilinaâ¦. F u c kâ¦
âI canât.. I canât even think about raising two children without her.. I canât even think about spending a day in my life without her anymore. What would happen to me if they couldnât save her? I need to find a way⦠What should I do?â
I know that Derek also had no answer for me but I just want to release all the pain in me but still I know that nothing will make me feel better. If I want to feel better, I want to see Emilina waking up and smiling at me. Only she can fix me at this point. I canât even be happy seeing my daughter wholeheartedly because of this. I just feel like killing myself.
No⦠how can I do it? I should be there for my children. She made me a father and I shouldnât leave my children. will be fineâ¦â she will be fine? How can she be fine? She had lost too much blood and I canât even imagine her losing that much blood. Sheâs somewhat physically weak and I personally know it. Her eating habits are not good at all. She always chooses food before eating.
nha, calm down.. you are thinking too much. She
Although she eats fruits without any bother, sheâs just always having a hard time when it comes to eating meat. So knowing all those facts about her, how can I make up my mind to believe that she will be fine and nothing will happen to her? I might be thinking too much but I canât help it. Losing that much blood? F u c k⦠I donât even want to think about it⦠I covered my face with my hands and walked away from Derek.
âWill she be okay?â I couldnât help but ask my wolf. However I didnât get any reply from him. Heâs silent which means heâs so hurt. I didnât bother him much. I just stared at the sky for a moment begging the moon goddess not to take away the
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woman she blessed me with. I shouldnât go through something like this⦠It shouldnât endure this kind of pain but maybe this is the real punishment for hurting her years ago.
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âAlpha, would you mind donating blood? Both your blood types are the same.â I turned to the doctor who hurried to me. Is this even a f u c k i n g question.
âYesâ¦â¦â I nodded as I followed him. I will give my blood as much as she needs to recover. I donât f u c k i n g mind even if I die losing all my blood if I can see her waking up and getting rid that pale look on her face.
âWhy did you take time to say this? You couldâve asked me earlier⦠get as much as blood she needsâ I said walking into the blood donating room in the hospital. Then the doctor began to get blood from me. I can give as much as for her⦠if sheâs becoming well, I would do anything.
âAlpha, I hope she will be fine after this but I canât promise that she will wake up soon. Her b*dy is so exhausted and needs to be healed slowlyâ I nodded. Thatâs fine⦠thatâs totally fine as long as she wakes up. It doesnât matter about the time.
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