Theo- the talk

The sound of a locker slamming made everyone stop laughing and cheering at my response, I stared at Alex's back as he left the locker room pissed.

"what's his problem?" one of my team mates Brian, he wasn't great, but he was consistent.

"who knows" I said ignoring them and quickly pulling my shirt over my head just wanting to go home.

"he's weird he hangs out with the whole cheer team and gets nothing" said max, one of my closest friends, not Alex close. He was the only I could talk to after my mom died, he lost his mother when he was twelve. He was always good at talking about that kind of stuff but he never pushed any further than you wanted. I think that's why I like him so much.

"maybe he's gay" my grip on my locker faltered as I tried not freak out, how do you stay calm when someone accidentally guesses something right. How do you hide a secret like that.

"I'm his best friend and I can tell you he's not gay. He's just waiting for the right one is all" it was a lie, it seemed that I couldn't stop lying. Was this who I was now . . . a liar.

"you coming to my house" max asked as he watched me grab my duffle bag from the floor throwing it over my shoulder.

"nah I'm going home" I responded before going to him and grabbing his hand, he smiled and yelled after me-

"see ya loser"

I was so happy to finally leave school and go home, I wanted a break from everything. I breathed deep until I was grabbed by the arm.

"HEY! you can't just grab people and shove them in a closest that's kidnapping" I whispered trying not to shout at him. I came to the realization about the small space our bodies were occupying. His breath fanning my face, our chest centimeters apart, just one step forward and we'd be touching. My reeled my wolf back as he got restless with Alex being so close.

"Quit being dramatic " Alex rolled his eyes, he must not have felt my change in domineer.

"Whatever I'm leaving" I had to get away being this close to him, the sent that clouded my thoughts making the only thing on my mind . . . Alex.

"no we need to talk" he grabbed the handle and used the other hand to press the door close stopping me and forcing me to turn back and face him.

"Why now ?" I asked looking anything in the small broom closet beside him. I stared at the bottles of bleach and the messy rags cover the shelves, this place is disgusting.

"We can't keep avoiding this " I knew he was right we had to set boundaries. We had to be on the same page.

"Fine you have five minutes I have to go to class " I moved under his arm hoping to create distance between us.

"Since when you care – you know what never mind. So, what going on with us?" he asked as he moved closer wanting to be closer to me, I felt it in my gut. The bond made us want to be near each other nothing else.

"What are you talking about" I tried to play dumb hoping to get out of the enclosed space and away from him.

"US BEING MAT-" I jumped forward and covered his mouth with my hand, shives ran down my back as I felt his felt pressed to fingers, the warmth of his mouth making want to do things that is way dirtier that this closet.

"Shhhh - shhh don't yell it, gosh" I tried to play it cool not wanting to relay my actual thoughts to him. I removed my hands and pushed them in my pockets to hopefully stop the shaking.

"Are you embarrassed" he looked embarrassed

"What no, yes, I don't know okay . I like women, and so do you and I didn't know why she picked us to be mates. Maybe it was a mistake" I couldn't seem to control my mouth everything I was think started pouring out and I was frustrated.

"She doesn't make mistakes. Don't act like were the first men she made mates" he looked anger at me, was he mad that I did want to tell people? Or that I did want a mate?

"I know but it was never an alpha and beta its changing the rules" I said waving me arms, us being mates complicated everything, alphas only mate with alphas and they need heirs. Us being mates wont work.

"Then what do we do?" he crossed his arms and I was mad that he was putting this on me, he dragged me in here. He should eb the one with the plan.

"How am I supposed to know you're the alpha " replayed not wanting to deal with back and forth game.

"Ugh ' he said dropping his head in his hands.

"How about rejection ?" I asked the realization came to me, I didn't know much about it since it was such a rare occasion.

"No no we can't it'll kill our wolves" well I guess that's why people don't do it often.

"Maybe we just stay away from each other" I suggested as I was trying to solve our problem, why isn't he helping me.

"We are alpha and beta I don't think that will work since we work together and even if we could we can't stay away from each other it will make us weak and we have a pack to run" he said his voice rough as he said no to everything I was saying. No matter what I say the answer is always no.

"What do you expect sex and nothing else" I asked, it was really a rhetorical question because who wants to do that. I mean I do that with girls but its more than one it's not the same girl and she was never my mate.

"Yes, it's our job" he was always about the rules like all alphas before him and it made me sick.

"Christ you and your bloody duty" I looked at the ground not wanting to look at him.

"Theo –" his voice soften and pierced my heart I couldn't let my emotions get in the way. We are alpha and beta, were meant to be fiends nothing more, I know he wont be able to it so I will. I as always the stronger one.

"Fine . . . fine but when one of us moves on the other must move on too deal?" I looked up at him through my hair and looked like he was going to break. We have never been on the same page.

"Moving on . . . Theo this is- " this was the only way, if were going to do what is asked of us then we have to move on at some point. We have to.

"Deal ?!" I held me hand out not letting him try and change anything on my terms.

"Is that what you want?" it was a plead, begging me to take it back and jump into his arms calling him mine. But I can't do that, we can't. the pack wouldn't let us, why make it harder than it has to be.

"Yes " I ignored my head as it screamed in me hears what I really was thinking, what I really was wanting. But I wouldn't let it show . . . not to him. He can't know it was a –

Lie.

"Fine deal' he took my hand and I ignored the pull to be closer, I moved away and left the closet with Alex by my side.

Did you say you have a class" he asked his face completely in shock.

"yep and its 4 in the afternoon" I said chuckling at my own words and happy that it worked.

"I can't believe I fell for that" he said making me laugh, and Alex himself joined in and for that moment it felt like everything was going to be okay .

Maybe this won't be that bad.

authors note: two again, im on a roll.