Chapter 16: Awkward

Once I came back to my senses, I spot Maxine in front of me grinning. You could say she also had an orgasm, even if she didn't. She is for sure very satisfied with her task.

"I'll keep this," she said showing me the vibrator.

"It is, in fact, really useful."

I start to feel self-conscious again, I'm on a bed, naked, in front of Maxine, who just gave me my first orgasm. Hope she doesn't realize it was my first.

"Have you done this before?"

I shift quickly to gaze at her, how does she know? Has she heard my thoughts?

"Ah, of course," I replied, the hesitancy in my voice is detectable.

"Oh", I sense the disappointment in her voice. Really?

"So, has someone else already used the vibrator on you?"

"Oh that, no, not that. That's pretty new," I react clumsily. She seems to be very pleased now with my statement.

"Good, it was a first for me as well." She said getting up and directing to the bathroom.

"I really enjoyed the challenge, though", she completes winking at me before getting inside the bathroom.

I watch her disappear. What should I do now, should I sneak out? I have never done this before. I don't even know how to look at her.

She is the first woman I have any sexual relations with after Remy. However, Remy was my boyfriend, it was pretty clear the procedure: Sex, cuddle, and sleep. What should I do when I do it with a stranger?

Fuck, she used my vibrator on me!

She watched me during every move. That's so embarrassing.

No Quinn, don't forget how she has manipulated you to obtain the response she wanted. She got everything from it!

Ok, I'm taking too much time overthinking, she will soon come out of the bathroom and I will have to face I chose the sneak out alternative, not that I felt I had another.

I quickly caught my clothes from the floor and in record time I was wearing them again. And just as I was leading to the door, ready to leave, Maxine comes from the bathroom.

"I didn't think you would be the type who sneaks out Quinn," she pronounced, tilting her head. For some weird reason, her accent is stronger.

I turn to her, probably as red as her hair.

"May kailangan lang akong pountahan."

"Yeah, I'm sure you do. You for sure need to be there really fast. There is no other reason why you would be wearing your shirt on the wrong side."

Shux, I was not expecting I would get caught.

"Maybe you could wait at least five minutes before running away? I was hoping we could talk; you know after what we have done."

She said sitting on the bed, she is now wearing her boxer and a sports bra.

"Ok," I reply sitting on the bed but not too close to her. What is there to discuss?

"As you remember well, you had agreed on having Thursday at 8 pm."

"Yeah, a fling with me." She states.

"Did I?" Really, I couldn't be more uncomfortable.

"Yeah, at the same time you were screaming your lungs out of pleasure. Do I need to remind you how it was?"

"No, it is ok, naaalala ko na" I replied scratching the back of my neck.

Yeah, it could be more uncomfortable.

"Good, so how do you want to do this?"

"I'm not sure, hindi ko pa nagagawa to dati. Wala akong alam sa mga fling fling na yan"

"When can we see each other? I'm living with your sibling, so it makes things kind of difficult."

"Uhm", I reasoned about what she has asked before responding, "well Mils has classes Thursday nights. So, it is a possibility."

"Perfect, I will be there Thursday at 8 pm. Do you like Chinese food?"

"Yeah, I love it."

"Good I will bring it then."

"Ok, it is a dat- oh, I didn't mean that way, it is a schedule then," yep I still can make it more awkward. I get up preparing myself to leave.

She laughs at my misused words.

"Perfect, I hope you will be prepared, Quinn. Cause what I showed you today is not even close to what I would do to you."

I breathe heavily with her words and leave my old room heading directly back home after our talk.

I'm feeling a bit lost.

I would never believe if someone had told me one day a woman would make me cum using my vibrator. It is so embarrassing.

It is a thin tiny line between being sexy and weird. That was the creepiest and most exciting experience I have ever had.

I haven't realized I stood in the entrance of the apartment while I was pondering, awakening when Mils speaks:

"Uy naka balik k-", she looks at me deeply.

"Ohhh you had sex!" She completed clapping her hands.

Does she have a crystal ball? Or do I smell like sex?

"Kind of, puta pano mo nalaman?"

She chuckles, "Baligtad t-shirt mo quinn."

"Oh." That again.

"So, tell me, that woman finally shows what she is capable of?"

"Yeah, she showed me alright."

She has her mouth open now; her eyes are shining.

"Come on," she tells me pushing me to the couch, "tell me everything."

"Let's say we kill two birds with one stone."

"Oh Quinn, just tell me everything without using your analogies please!"

I give her an annoyed glance.

"Fine, she gives me an orgasm using my vibrator."

"YESS!" She screams excitedly, and if I had heard it from another room, I would think she is having sex.

"Ops sorry, so you had your first orgasm Quinn, we have to celebrate this, you have passed the ritual to the womanhood!"

We decided to go out and have some drinks. The night is pretty, it is getting warmer each day.

The bar is full of young and happy people, I could also say, drunk people.

We succeed to pick a table and Mils orders us some shots.

"Ok so tell me more about it. How was it?"

"It was good and kinda" I said ruminating.

"I honestly thought you would be more excited after having your first orgasm. I guess it has different effects on different people," she said seeming disappointed.

"No, I mean it was very good, amazing. But she is such a jerk, I don't know why I'm doing this."

"Uhm for pleasure?"

"Yeah, you are right."

"Do you regret it?"

"No, I don't, it was amazing," I respond honestly, how could I regret it? If it wasn't for her, I still wouldn't know what an orgasm is.

"Well so continue enjoying while you are appreciating it." She said taking one shot.

"It is just she is so smug; It is unbelievable. I was afraid I could maybe fall in love having a fling with her, but no. Now I'm afraid I will be repulsed by her."

She laughs

"You know how Cols likes to experience with food, and I like to experience with psychology?"

"Yes?"

"Well, you can do the same with Maxine, or with sex," she said winking.

I think I will see how it goes this Thursday. I can't believe she has manipulated me to continue this. Should I laugh or be angry? I don't even know.

We continued our celebration; it is true that after an orgasm I felt so relaxed. Once I forgot how awkward it was of course.

"Uhm, ok don't turn around to look right now, but I see Remy is here with some friends."

"he is?"

"Yeah, kamusta ba ang sitwasyon niyong da lawa? ok lang ba kayo? or enemies na"

"There is no situation, we haven't spoken since we have broken up, we barely saw each other."

I succeed in avoiding him each time during classes with the same strategy, arriving almost late to my class and sitting in front, usually with Liam.

"Do you think she saw us?" I'm starting to be nervous.

Ok, I'm a chicken, I don't know how to face Maxine after my orgasm, and I don't know how to face Jeremy after we have broken up. Chicken Trophy for me.

"No, she has a focus on whatever they are talking about, don't worry."

We continued our conversation until we decide to leave.

"Quinn, Remy is close to the entrance, there is no way to avoid her leaving."

"So, maybe we can wait for them to leave?" As I said before: Chicken!

"Seriously? Quinn, you have to take control of the situation."

I take a deep breath and we leave our table, as I turn, I spot Remy directly, he is laughing about something his friend said.

I have again two options here: I ignore him, as I intend to do with Maxine today and I failed 'graciously', or I can greet him.

I decide to be the big girl, taking control of the situation, and acknowledging him. When he turns herself to me, I say 'Hi' smiling.

he doesn't reply, she keeps his mouth open staring at me as she is seeing a ghost. Ok, not what I was expecting. Maybe she started to be used to my 'ignoring her' behavior.

We leave the bar and head home.

The equation: Orgasm + alcohol + meeting your ex = exhaustion, with no other viable solution.

I fall asleep seconds after I have laid on my bed.

Sunday

My head keeps spinning between Maxine and Remy, how did I jump from one relationship to another so alike? Or is it spinning because of alcohol?

Monday

One of my teachers decided to do a surprise test.

Let me tell you, it was indeed a surprise.

Tuesday

I decide to continue with the big girl's behavior through Remy greeting her from afar.

I still sit with Steve though. Come on, I'm not a bigger girl than that.

Wednesday

The apices of my day were knowing Mils will have a date tonight. A date.

I had dinner with Charles, in his apartment. Maxine was not there. It seems she was working until late.

Was she? I couldn't stop considering she could be avoiding me.

I would if I were her.

Thursday

I feel so much at ease now knowing I will see Remy in my class, stop avoiding her was the best decision for sure.

I haven't heard a thing about Maxine though, during this entire week. I don't even know if we will still meet tonight.

I kept myself busy after class but decide to take a shower and prepare myself just in case.

At 20h sharp my doorbell rings.

I'm greeted by a smiling breath-taking Maxine, holding bags containing food in her hands.

"Hey, I brought Chinese as I promised. Kahit na hindi ’yun ang gusto kong kainin ngayong gabi.."

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