Chapter 14

I woke up to kisses being placed on my head, then my cheeks, slowly making it down to my lips. I grimaced and moved around as I tried to wake up slowly opening my eyes.I was smiling now - couldn't help but. Tae hyung pulled me into his arms now and cuddled me so tight that I couldn't move or breathe for that matter. It was great! I giggled softly as I felt another kiss on the top of my head!

"Happy one month anniversary!" He whispered

One week passed by so quickly, and I couldn't even recall what happened. We didn't miss a day of class and didn't get caught by the hyung's, we still managed to sleep in each others room and didn't get caught by the hyung's, Tae hyung managed to kiss me every single time we had the room to ourselves and we still didn't get caught by the hyungs.

That sounds like a pretty good week to me.

I can't believe comfortable we are with each other. I mean not that we were uncomfortable as friends but its just shocking how fast we got comfortable with each other as boyfriends.

"Happy anniversary Hyung!"

"About that!" he asked stopping his kisses, "Are you still gonna call me hyung?"

"Mhm?"

"You know, I don't know about you calling me 'big brother' anymore.... it's just... we are so far away from being even friends."

"I could call you Taehyung!" I looked up smirking

"That's straight up rude! I am older than you!"

"But we are in the same year of college!"

"Kooks, don't throw that in my face when you know I chose to work over school!" he whined cutely

"Alright hyung!" I changed the subject distracting him from talking about his tough past because today was supposed to be a happy day.  "What do you want me to call you? Babe?"

"Babe? That's fast right?" he asked shyly

"Okay so hyung?"

"Ugh!" he groaned, "I guess!" he rested his chin against my head, "but like I am not your big brother! That's gross!"

"Okay when I call you hyung, it doesn't mean big brother!"

"Hmm?" he asked confused looking down at me

I met my eyes with his, "Just imagine when I call you hyung, especially in front of everyone, I am calling you like... mine or boyfriend or... or.... I don't know! I am not calling you my big brother I am calling you boyfriend!"

"Aw! I love that actually!" he giggled slightly

"You are easy to please hyung!" I smirked up at him again

"Hyung? Stop! My face is getting hot now!" he exclaimed trying to get away from me

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We had lunch plans with hyung's that we sadly couldn't get out of. I did have something cute planned for hyung though for dinner and I am excited for him to see it.

"So then I told him me being gay has nothing to do with why I am always with Hobi, were friends! Why are straight men freaks? Like us gay people can be strictly friends with someone! Like no feelings! Just friendship!" Yoongi hyung's pale face was slightly turning pink as he was ranting about some dude in one of their classes

Hobi hyung was eating quietly, then he stopped eating and had this mischievous smile - you know the kind he has when he was thinking of something to say to piss Yoongi hyung off. "So like if I told you I was gay for you, you would tell me you only see me as a friend, hyung?"

"You can't be gay for someone! You're just gay period! And Hobes, you aren't my type jerk-wad! Don't try it with me boy!"

"But you're my type hyung! Let's date? Please?

Yoongi hyung stopped mid chew and decided to look down at an attempt to hide the shyness that suddenly came upon his face.

"Oh shit! Hyung I was just kidding!" Hobi hyung said smugly

"Shut up! I knew that! Wipe that grin off your face you look so ugly!"

Hobi hyung made an o shape with his mouth surprised at what his hyung said causing everyone to laugh.

"No, you can't be ugly - you have the most structured face of everyone here you pretty bitch." Yoongi hyung said stuffing another piece of meat in his mouth

"What about me hyung?" Jimin hyung whined

"Hyung! You told me I was handsome before too! But I am not the prettiest one? Kinda rude!" It was Tae hyungs turn

"What about me Yoongi! I am prettier than all these boys!" Jin hyung exclaimed stopping to grill the meat now

"This is true! He is!" Joon hyung agreed causing me to side eye him. I know Joon hyung is the straightest man I know but he's kinda confused when it comes to Jin hyung I must say.

Yoongi hyung knew he did wrong judging from the face he was making now. "Man! Well ... I- You guys are all so beautiful! It's so hard man... to chose... and stuff!"

"You always chose me first hyung!" Hobi hyung said blowing a kiss at him

He smiled shyly at that again. Okay so Yoongi hyung gets a little confused when it comes to Hobi hyung.. I must say!

"Don't worry hyung you're the prettiest to me!" I whispered to Tae hyung and earned the cutest most endearing smile from him.

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"Where are you taking me Jungkookie?" he whined as he walked along side me

"We're almost there! You're so impatient hyung!"

We walked here! It was the small coffee house that was our favorite - the one next to our dorms. I bought the entire thing out for the evening so it would just be us. This is what I was doing after our lunch - Jimin hyung helped.

I opened the door with the biggest smile on my face with Tae hyung following me. I heard a gasp coming from him as he shut the door behind him.

"Oh my god!" He exclaimed

"What do you think?"

"When? When did you do all this?"

We decorated the entire place so Christmas lights would be all over the walls. The place was relatively dim now except for the light from the Christmas lights and the faint light the candles gave off- it was big enough for us. We cleared out the tables and chairs except the one in the center for us to sit, candles on top with our dinner awaiting us. I had a projector put in and a big white screen ready to play our favorite movie with a push of a button. We moved the small couch in the coffee house in front of the projector and I added comfy pillows and a big blanket so we can sit there comfortably as we watched the movie.

I went to lock the door and shut the blinds so no one else could see inside. The lights were dim and pretty. It really was nothing but I wanted to do something special for us - for him.

"Oh my god Kook! I didn't even know we were doing anything special! I didn't even get you anything special!"

"Hyung this is nothing! I wanted to do this for you!" I went in to give him a hug but I was greeted by a kiss instead. He took a big peck, taking in all of me, smiling while doing so. It made me feel happy that this made him happy! "Let's eat! Jimin hyung said this has been here for like fifteen minutes now so it's probably cold!"

"That's okay! Taehyung said smiling, "this is so cute Jungkookie, so special!"

"Hyung! You're special! Now come on let's eat!"

"What's for dinner?" I asked opening the covered food that was there for us. "Fried Chicken? Oh God I told hyung date night food! He got us chicken and beer? That's not date night food! I told him date night" I was livid.

He told me he'll be in charge of getting food there as it was my job to get hyung and I ready and down there on time.  It was fried chicken two kinds: regular and spicy! The table also had pickled radishes, beer, coke, and champagne glasses - I am guessing for the drinks. I guess that's one way to make beer and coke fancy... Oh Jimin hyung! What am I gonna do with you?

"No! Kookie this is perfect! I love fried chicken! And look he got the spicy and non spicy so he definitely knows what we both like!" he carefully took off his backpack as he sat down ready to eat with no complaints. I guess I shouldn't be the mad one here, especially because Jimin hyung did so much to help me today

"Is this why Yoongi hyung wouldn't let me leave his side since after lunch? Man he was annoying me about listening to his songs and he usually don't care about my opinions!"

"Yeah!" I smiled, "I needed you to be surprised so I gave him the choice of helping me distract you or helping me decorate... he said 'whichever one that lets me sit down without doing any hard labor' so distracting it was!"

"He was just sitting in his chair going; 'what do you think of this song?' 'is it better than this song?' 'out of the three songs which ones the best?' 'let me play all three again!'"

"Hyung! I am so sorry!" I laughed, "He could've watched a movie with you or something, I didn't ask him to torture you!"

"Oh don't get me wrong! I just love his songs so I definitely enjoyed it, plus I thought he wanted an excuse to spend time with me, finally! Guess I was wrong!"

"Oh hyung! He most definitely enjoys spending time with you! He hates admitting stuff like that!" I assured him. "Okay hyung, here move the regular one close to you! Here I'll open the coke since you don't like beer!" I said pouring it into the glass only to have a Tae hyung smile fondly watching me

"You know you always do that!" he finally said still not breaking his smile

"Do what?"

"Push stuff I like closer to me and make sure spicy foods don't come near me since I can't stand them! You always take care of me like that"

I smiled

"Its -uh!" he continued looking a little shy,

"It's what hyung?" I asked moving the glass with coke closer to him

"It's uh" he giggled, "one of the reasons why I couldn't help but like you!" he confessed

I sat there awestruck, "You never told me why you started liking me and stuff, its cute to hear hyung!"

"Is it cute? It's pretty cringe to me!" he said making a grossed out face, taking a bite of his chicken after, "Mhm its still warm!" he said happily munching - making that pouty face he makes every time he chews. You know I thought this was a phase from when he was younger, but I hope he never stops making this face now.

"Is it good hyung?" I asked not realizing my hand was resting on my cheeks as I watched him in awe.

He stopped chewing and stared at me mid pout, "Don't look at me like that Kook!" he said whining shyly looking away from me

I giggled as I stopped staring and stared to take a bite of my chicken. Can he be any cuter?

We were done with food now as Tae hyung was already on the couch getting ready to play the movie. It was called Love 911. It's one of our favorites when we were not watching cartoons. I guess were adults tonight

"Before we play the movie Kook I got something for you! It's not special as what you did but I wanted you to have it!"

"Aw hyung you didn't have to get me anything!" I said sitting on the couch next to him

He got up from the couch smiling as my eyes followed him. I couldn't help but smile either as I watched him fetch something out of his backpack. He took out a diary and smiled brightly as he was walking towards me again. He sat down in next to me still holding that smile - I didn't realize how much I was smiling either.

"What's this?" I asked excited

"I - uh! This is corny and so gay, but I don't want you to judge me!"

"I don't judge you hyung!"

"No say you promise!"

I rolled my eyes, "Yes hyung! I promise!" I said smiling

"So back when I first started liking you, it was so hard for me to suppress it all in, you know? Cause I wasn't telling anyone, and it was killing me cause I couldn't even tell you when I told you everything!"

I nodded, still smiling, I couldn't help myself. I waited for him to go on

"I heard writing your feelings out on a diary was really good for you, you know on Facebook! So I decided to try it out! Write out things I couldn't say out loud so I wouldn't suppress all my emotions in.. it's basically all about how I felt about you!"

"What?" I gasped. I have never heard of anyone doing anything like that. I must have still had a shocked looked on my face because he giggled now a little nervously

"Yeah. I kept thinking it was stupid to do something like that but I got this diary just for that purpose, and I wasn't using it. I decided to try it out one day and it really worked! So I kept it going"

"Hyung! This is so sweet!"

"Yeah, I wanted you to have it so you can read it..."

"Hyung this is the sweetest most thoughtful gift ever! Hyung - may I?" I asked holding my hand out for the diary, not being able to hold in my excitement in as I was subtly jumping in my seat

"It's uh embarrassing for me to see you read it!" he whined

"Noo please hyung!" I pleaded, "Please just one page!"

"Fine!" he handed it to me and automatically turned his body the other way so he doesn't have to make eye contact with me.

I opened the diary without hesitation as I was impatient

May 20th, 2015

I was lying on my pillow, getting ready to sleep - but I couldn't. I thought I was tired and that is true as my body is exhausted from the long day I had - but I can't get myself to sleep. Not tonight anyways. See, I get distracted by everything you do now. It's not that I am confused anymore, it's that I know for sure now! That is somehow scarier. How was I supposed to know that I would wake up one day feeling more for you. We were supposed to be just normal friends and I feel like I ruined it all. I feel like I started off just swimming in these waters but as the days go by I'm struggling to keep my head above the waters - I can't even breathe because I am drowning now. I don't want to lose you but I don't want to be just your friend anymore. Are we friends? How long can I be just friends with you? I wish I can just stop drowning and pull myself up on this ship and sail away with you back to the shore. Can't we just get on this ship together now?

May 26th, 2015

Today I woke up in your arms on the couch. I don't know how many times we have fallen asleep on the couch before trying to like new movies, but being bored of them anyways - Kook why do we even watch newer movies when we know we get bored fast? I guess the good thing about it is I get to fall asleep next to you. How do you always make sure my head has your arm to fall asleep on? I know you want me comfortable but doesn't your arm hurt? Doesn't it fall asleep? I can't help but like you even more when you put my needs before yours like that!"

I smiled not being able to hold it in. This was the sweetest thing anyone has ever written about me or thought about me. I turned the page but I was quickly interrupted.

"Okay okay enough of that! Read everything else later! Just skip to the last page Kook!" he said looking at me and quickly looking away in shyness

"Okay hyung!" I smiled, flipping the diary to the last page

"April 30th 2016?" I read, "That's - That's today hyung!"

He hid his head on the couch still facing away from me. I couldn't help but giggle but quickly put my attention back to the diary.

April 30th, 2016

Jungookie! How have I been with you for a month already and how are you sleeping next to me right now? Also how was I not the one to confess to you first? That's not important! I feel like I have been preparing myself to confess to you but my anxiety would not let me, I really wish I had your courage. I am glad you did it though. I know I was in relationships before but I never felt a connection with anyone and I would quickly end it off. You! From day 1 of our relationship I felt so close to you. This closeness I haven't felt with anyone - it must be cause you were my friend first, someone so special to my heart. I was scared for the longest time that my feelings were not valid, that I shouldn't like someone that didn't like me back, that I shouldn't hurt over the fact that you weren't ever gonna like me back because having you as my friend was better - it was enough... that I should never confess because I would loss the best thing that's ever happened to me.... my friend. Today I realized its been one month since we started dating and I never lost my friend but I gained someone so much more special. Someone who not only takes care of me, someone who makes sure I sleep, someone who lets me cuddle them -cuddle the crap out of them, someone who is okay with my kiss attacks, someone who always lets me sleep on their arms, someone who never complains about my annoying habits, someone who constantly takes care of me, someone who eats the spicy food so I don't have to, someone who makes me tea so I don't have to drink coffee, someone who make sure I get coke since I don't like alcohol, someone that nags me to do homework and work harder in school, someone who constantly reminds me of my abilities, someone who rubs my neck after a long day at work, someone who hugs me, someone, someone, someone, someone that cannot be anyone else but you. I don't think there can ever be anyone for me but you so please be my someone forever, okay? I can only hope I am that someone to you.

Jungkook, I love you!

I could feel my tears clouding my vision - I couldn't help it. There was no one that cared for me or thought of me the way Tae hyung has, and I felt so special... so seen...so loved.

He quickly turned around at the sound of me sniffing.

"What's wrong?" he asked turning his whole body back to me

"I-" I sniffed again. My snot! Why does this always happen when I cry? No, why must more snot come out than tears? I must not look that presentable now

He wiped my tears with the pads of his thumb, "Jungkookie?" he called out to me in the most caring way

"Hyung, this is so sweet, I don't even know what to say!" I said as he wiped my tears away again

"Hey! You don't even have to say anything, okay? I just simply wanted you to know!" he was cupping my cheeks now. Holding me so gentle as if I was precious to him.

"Hyung!" I whined again, "Listen I want you to know something too!"

"What is it?" he asked kissing my cheek

"I love you too! I do! You are that someone to me hyung!"

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*Starts playing Sweet Night!* AH! I feel like a hopeless romantic its just sad now! Hope everyone loved this chapter and it got you in the feels. And the gif in the beginning when they say I promise and I love you is the cutest ever!