Chapter 20

It was night time now. I ate my breakfast during lunch time, my lunch as an evening snack and my dinner with the hyungs. It was all so messed up but this whole day was messed up. The fact that mom still sent food for me with the hyungs made me feel better.

She hasn't disowned me just yet. Maybe she didn't understand exactly what I meant. I think the disowning thing will come naturally when she figures out I'm dating Tae hyung.

We had the tv on to Jin hyungs drama, as he explained everything that we missed. Why did we agree on his drama and not a movie or something - I'll never understand. He thought this was episode where the main leads were about to kiss. How does it take 12 episodes for them to kiss, that should happen very fast I feel like.

Again, I was so confused watching in the middle of the drama but what was even more annoying was him being narrator. He was telling us about the past 11 episodes that we missed. It just didn't make sense when you haven't seen it yourself. Or so I thought - I was just surprised at how interested the rest of hyungs were, even though they were as confused as me as to what was going on.

There was a knock on the door and we all turned around in unison, wondering who that could be at this time.

"I'll get it Kook!" Tae hyung said getting up

I was wondering who it could be.

Is it mom?

Is she gonna be the one that's gonna come to me first or will she be the stubborn one who won't speak to me until I apologize?

I wouldn't know. Mom and I never argued like this before so I don't know what kind of mom she was.

"Yeah I will let him know. Okay!" I could hear him say. I kept my head turned towards the door wondering who that could be.

I could hear his footsteps getting closer as he came into view. "Hey! It's your Mom. She uh wanted to talk to you."

"Oh." Was all that came out. I turned back around to look at all the hyungs. They not only looked worried for me but also a little anxious.

"It'll be okay Kook! Talk to her!" Yoongi Hyung finally spoke up

"Unless you're not ready. You don't have to do anything you're not ready for!" Joon Hyung added

"Baby!" Tae hyung sat down next to me again, "if you don't want to, we can do this another time."

"I want to. I do!"

"Then go. She said she'll be waiting for you on the swing out there. You got this! I know you do!" He planted a kiss on my forehead. That was probably the only time he has openly shown affection to me in front of the hyungs. I wanted to see their reactions but at this moment in time it wasn't important.

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"Hey!" I finally said slowly approaching her

I saw her from the back. Her head barely peeking out as she leaned far back on the patio swing, exhaustion peeking through her whole being. I did this to her - didn't I?

She was probably so restless, worrying about me all day. I was thankful the hyungs took care of her for me. I knew better that nothing could distract her from what happened with us today.

"Hi son, come sit!" she patted the spot next to her

I wasn't looking forward to this. I could feel how sweaty my palms were now. I didn't realize I was someone that sweated from being nervous. Maybe today exhausted me too.

I didn't question her and made my way next to her on the swing. I sat down letting out a big sigh as my mind couldn't quite make up what to say.

"Mom, I am sor-"

"No son! I am sorry!" She cut me off

This wasn't what was supposed to happen. I expected some yelling or at least her telling me she was disappointed in me. Not even a 'you're not my son anymore get out' kinda thing? Was my mom the type of parent to apologize to their child? Asian parents don't do that.

"Mom please don't apologize!"

"No, I am sorry honey! Here my son was wanting to be honest with me about who he was and I didn't let him. I was a baby about it. I only ever cared about myself Jungkook, I am sorry for being a selfish mother. I am sorry for forcing you to do business in college and for forcing you to take over Dads business, and for making you grow up too quickly, and for dumping you in a college far away so you'll learn independence, and for" I could see the frustration in her eyes. She was mad... not at me this time.

"Mom please! It's okay!"

"When taehyung and I talked today, he seemed really like a grown up, more of a grown up than me. He reminded me that, that you wanted to hide this from everyone more than anything, but you're used to telling me everything since I am your best friend. This part of you that probably scared you, I wasn't there to shield you. I had forgotten how we told each other everything. I miss that Son, I want that again. So tell me again. I am ready to listen now."

"What all did he say Mom?"

"Oh it was all so long, I don't remember it all. It wasn't just him! All your hyungs were on your side. Not in a way that hurt me or anything. You know they're all my kids!"

I smiled.

"He said to imagine how scared you were to tell me that. He said that you loved me so much that you're always scared of disappointing me. That this time, you didn't wanna keep hearing about potential girlfriends because you knew how disappointed I'd be when I found out you wanted nothing to do with girls. He said you're the type of son to put your own happiness ahead of mine so you would probably live in hiding for the rest of your life instead of telling me - he asked me if I would have wanted that. The answer is no I would not. I didn't raise you to live a miserable life, I wanted you to have the best one. I'm ready to listen now like I said, so tell me again." She smiled moving closer to me so she can grab my hands in hers

"Mom I don't know where to start." I could feel the tears forming in my eyes. I don't know if it's from Mom being so understanding, Tae hyung understanding every bit of my being without me having to say a word, or the fact that all my hyungs had my back throughout all of this. It had to be all of that.

"How did you know you liked men? Who made you find out?" She asked smiling now

"Mom... that's a bit...."

"Oh come on! I'm fine! Tell me!" she was smiling now, a natural one. It wasn't forced at all

"I won't disclose a name or anything. I guess feeling nervous and stuff like you do around a crush. I never felt that way with anyone at any point, it was scary cause I didn't even realize that I had a crush on this person. I could tell you there way no way I was gay but now that I think about it I hundred percent watched Tangled for Flynn Rider not Rapunzel."

"Ah so Flynn Rider is your type?" Mom asked chuckling

"Oh stop I don't have a type. I think I mainly liked this guy cause... cause he was nice and understanding to me. Or something like that. He gave me butterflies through every interaction we had."

She smiled

"And mom! This part never scared me like you said because I loved this person so much I forgot to care about what others may or may not think of me. Until now that is."

"Oh honey! This is great! So you are dating him?"

"Huh?"

"Oh son, just tell me! Are you dating him?"

I swallowed at the question. I could feel my mouth getting drier as I didn't want to answer that question.

"Maybe?"

"That's a yes!" She gleamed holding my hands tighter

"I guess! Somewhat? I don't know, I am not ready yet mom!" I said shyly looking down

"I am embarrassed at showing you pictures of potential daughter in laws for me. I should have been looking for guys that looked like Flynn rider!"

"Mom pleaseee!" I whined. Mom and I hadn't had a conversation like this in so long. The teasing, I missed how much she teased me.

"I missed this sweetie!"

"Me too Mom! I missed you!" I put extra emphasis on the you part

She rested her head against my neck, "I am sorry if I hurt you! Your moms cool but she's still a bit old fashioned."

"It's okay mom, I just- didn't expect you to be so understanding. I appreciate it. I hope you're not forcing it cause I wouldn't want you to."

"No! Let's keep this from Dad for now though okay? It'll be our secret. I don't know if he will take it as well as me. So, for my sake, just please for now we will keep it from him."

"I am okay with that mom!" I was kind of relieved to hear that

"So you won't show me a picture of this guy that you like so much?"

"Mom! I said I'm not ready!" I whined trying not to meet her eyes

"Fine! But I expect you back to cook breakfast with me tomorrow morning, and lunch! You owe me both now!"

"Of course mom!"

"I love you son! I am so proud of you! I hope you are happy!" She said slowly scooting up on the swing getting ready to get up

"I have the best mom ever! I hope you know how much I love and appreciate you!"

"Anything for my baby! You make me the best you know that?" She said planting a kiss on my head, fully getting up now. "And you know" she said as she begin to walk, "now that I think about it, Taehyung really does look kinda like Flynn Rider."

"No he doesn't.... What?"

I was in absolute shock, I could not believe it. I couldn't believe what she was saying. It was as if she was speaking a language I didn't understand. Why did she bring him up all of the sudden?

"It's him isn't it?" My face was blank or utter shock I could not tell. "Oh when he talked to me about you he may as well have said I love your son! It's okay you don't have to tell him I know." She said smiling beginning to walk away now, slowly letting out a giggle

I sat there with my mouth hanging open, unable to still process what was going on. Does she know? How the heck? And what the hell did he say to her?

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I got back to the house fully smiling. I finally managed to keep my cool as I opened the door, to six pairs of eyes staring at me, looking into my soul was more like it. I kept walking to sit down in my initial spot for all of them to still stare me down as I did so. I smiled at them because I knew the longer I didn't say anything the more they were gonna lose it.

"What the heck happened?" Taehyung asked

I giggled at him. He looked at the rest of the hyungs confused

"Okay bitch I am not playing! Speak now!" Jin Hyung yelled getting up from his spot

"Okay okay!" I gave up not being able to hold it in anymore, "Taehyungie Hyung I don't know what you said to her but she's okay with it all. Somehow! She's happy for me and said it'll be our little secret. We're good! We're making breakfast together and she loves me and isn't disappointed in me."

"Kook what did I tell you? This is amazing!" Tae hyung gleamed hugging onto me

"I know and it's all you! You gonna tell me what you said to her or no?"

"I don't even remember, honestly!" he hugged me even tighter. I snuggled into that hug

I looked at the rest of the hyungs staring at us as we hugged. They were smiling, gleaming even - completely happy for us both. I smiled at the fact that they were so happy for us. I was really here with everyone I loved and cared about.

We said goodnight to the hyungs, I knew they didn't leave because they were sleepy but because they wanted us to have our own time together. I will take it, for tonight I needed it - to be alone with him.

"I don't know what you told my mom, but I just wanted to say thank you!" I said to him moving closer now

"Why are you being so formal! You don't have to do that with me."

"I know! You don't have to do half of the things you do for me but you still do. It's why I love you Hyung!"

"Hyung? Am I not baby anymore?"

"You always are!" I smiled

He put his hand on my cheek as I leaned onto it. He smiled at me and I could see the love in his eyes. His eyes, they spoke volumes. Just the way he looked at me I knew he cared, that he cared way too much. I wondered how long he's looked at me like that only for me to not even notice it in the past.

"I love you!" I finally said

"I love you!" He replied back to me in a similar tone

"Come here!" I said almost coming out as whisper

He wasted no time as he leaned into me to take my lips in. I don't know how many times we have done this now but it feels like the first time every time. There's comfort in it, there's magic in it.

His lips moved against mine, and I took in his lips slowly biting it. I opened up my mouth more letting him in fully. I could feel his tongue gliding into mine, as I let him.I let out a slow chuckle and I could hear his quieter chuckle vibrating against my lips. I climbed up on top of him taking him by shock as I continued to kiss him as his head rested on the couch. The kiss deepened as I felt him moan into it. I moved away so he could breathe and I went in again not being able to get enough of him. I felt my hips slow grind against his and he moaned again.

He pulled away from me. I looked at him confused but went to for his lips again. He pulled my face slowly off him, smiling; "Not here Kook!"

I sighed trying to attack his lips again for him to move away. "No baby, the hyungs might see us! Let's go to our room!" he said slowly trying to push me off of him so he can get up off the couch.

"You're so old fashioned!" I whined getting off him.

"Yeah but you're gonna get hurt if we don't do it correctly baby!"

"Don't baby me!" I continued to whine as I walked to our room

"Oh I will! And you will put out."

"Stop that!" I chuckled, as he hugged me from that back as he lead me to our room.

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A/n: Ahhhh chapter 20??? I'm gonna act like I didn't add that last scene in there but I I had to give y'all a little spice, you know? Hope you liked Jungkooks mom cause I do! It's hard to be an Asian mom and be okay with things out of the norm. The last scene might as well be a y/n fiction! Hope you guys liked it! Also what do we think of Tae x Flynn Rider! No really it's my sleepy thoughts lol! The hair? No?