Chapter 19

"Oh there you are! Good morning baby!" Tae hyung beamed behind the towel he was drying his hair with

I didn't say much but stare at him. I was still in shock, and I could not believe what I had done. I wanted to tell him, I wanted to scream and shout that I screwed up. I could not find the words. I don't know how my legs worked enough for me to run over here. All I wanted was to see him, and all I needed was for him to tell me I didn't mess up.

"I was wondering how you got up earlier than me being so drunk yesterday! Do you remember how cute you were being? You know what you sa... Babe? What's wrong?"

"I-..." I couldn't finish my thought as I broke down crying, "I didn't mean to!"

He ran to me to hold me, having a concerned yet confused look on his face. He moved the hair out of my eyes with one hand as the other held onto my waist, "You didn't mean to what love?"

I snuggled myself up against the crook of his neck holding onto him tightly

"To tell her! I know we said we would wait but I told her! She made me mad constantly telling me to date women. She was showing me pictures now and I don't think I fully sobered up cause I became a jerk that couldn't control his mouth. I swear I kept telling myself to shut up but my mouth.... it didn't listen to me hyung."

"Are you talking about your Mom? You told her about us?" he was still holding onto to me, keeping his voice calm. If he didn't I probably would have lost my shit even more.

"Not us hyung! Me! I said I don't like girls. I didnt wanna drag you in it just yet! Guess my mouth knew that much."

A big sigh left his lips. "I should have talked to you about how she was trying to get you to date and all... I noticed how visibly upset you were but I chose not to say anything about it. I am sorry love!"

"Hyung! Did you not hear me when I said I told her? I should be the one saying sorry to you! I screwed up so freaking badly!"

"No, you didnt wanna hide anymore. I shouldn't have forced you to!" he hugged me back tighter

"I made her cry hyung! She was so disappointed in me. I have never purposefully made her cry before!" I bawled harder in his arms as he held onto me tighter

"I know babe!"

"Kookie! I thought I heard you... why are you crying? WHAT DID YOU DO TAE?" Jin hyung came running frantically into the room, followed by Joon hyung

"Jungkook? What's wrong? You're making us worry!" Joon hyung said slowly trying to hold Jin hyung back

I lifted myself off Tae hyung, who nodded at me slowly giving me the okay to tell them.

"I may have told my mom that I liked men... she was just pissing me off with the whole girlfriend thing and... and I couldn't control my mouth!"

"You what? Were you planning on doing that?" Joon hyung asked

"No hyung, of course not! We talked about it and Tae hyung and I both agreed we were gonna graduate before telling our parents."

"Then why...?" Joon hyung asked again

"I don't know hyung! I am literally asking myself that! I swear you guys should have seen me back there! I lost complete control over my freaking mouth! It's so embarrassing! Do you guys think we should leave now?"

"No we shouldn't leave!" Tae hyung sai; "Jin hyung, Namjoon hyung, do me a favor and watch over Kook for me, okay? I am gonna go check on Aunty to see if she's okay."

"No hyung! Don't! I think I made it bad, I don't want it to get worse!"

"Kook! I'll take care of it okay? Aren't you hungry? Maybe Jin hyung can get you a snack, mhm?"

Jin hyung nodded and smiled softly at Tae hyung as he made his way to grab me. He put his arm around me, "It'll be okay, we're gonna fix this okay? Let's go! I saw banana milk in the fridge."

"I'm not a kid Hyung, banana milk!" I mocked him as he he lead me out of the room

"Oh fine you can watch me drink it!" he mocked back

"No I'll fight you! That's my banana milk!" I took a look back at Tae hyung as he smiled at me. I sighed out, wondering what the heck he could possibly do to fix this mess.

I didn't hear what Joon hyung and he talked about after I left - I couldn't help but be nosy.

The me whose always down to inhale any food couldn't eat anything this morning. Not the snacks Jin Hyung got for me, not the ramen he offered to make, none of it.

Jin hyung pulled up the chair next to me at the dining table and I could feel his eyes watch over me. "At least drink the banana milk Kookie. I know your mom stocked the crap out of the fridge with that thinking of only you."

I hate when hyungs worry about me but this time I couldnt pull myself out and pretend to be happy. I kept telling myself to force a smile at Jin Hyung for being so concerned but my body just wasn't cooperating with me today.

Just then Joon hyung came down with the rest of the hyungs who already looked like they got caught up on what was going on. Oh great.

"Where's Tae hyung?" I asked them

"Don't worry Kook! He wanted to talk to your mother! It'll be okay!" Hobi hyung assured back hugging me

"I told him not to!" I sulked

"You're just gonna have to get used to your man taking care of you like that! It's what he's here for Kook!" Jimin hyung said

"Besides, your mom's different than most moms Kook! I wouldn't worry too much!" Yoongi hyung assured

He was right. My mom's always been sweet and supportive of hyung, especially after finding out he was gay and knowing he didn't keep in touch with his parents. I am different right? Parents aren't as understanding when it's their own kids.

"We might have to leave early, and it's all my fault! I am sorry guys!"

"Kook!" Joon said, "You don't know that! And if we do, we do! We can go back to the beach house! I am sure my parents won't mind!"

I didn't say anything.

"Wanna go for a walk Kook? How about swimming? Or we can see if the street vendors have opened up any of their stalls? It may be early but I am sure the aunty there won't mind giving us some tteokbukki?" Jimin hyung said pulling up his chair next to mine, "What do you think Kooks?" he asked putting an arm around me

"No it's okay hyung!"

"Tae said you didn't sleep much! Wanna sleep some more?" Joon hyung asked

"No I-..." a yawn escaped my lips before I could say anything else causing Joon hyung to snicker

"Come on Jungkookie! Let's go cuddle and you'll sleep right away!" Hobi hyung pulled me up off the chair and I let him

"Did someone say cuddle?" Jimin hyung asked following us as he hugged me from behind, guiding my walk.

We finally were all in my bed. I wasn't expecting to be in between two men being spooned to death.

"Kookie! I am so proud of you! I know you might not think so but you did a really brave thing! You spoke your truth! It's hard to do!" Jimin hyung said

"Thanks hyung!"

"And besides, your mom just needs to cool down a bit. She will understand." he added

"I didn't really realize how hard it would be to date him, I didn't think twice about it when I told him how I felt." I said sleepily

"Kook! You're dating someone you love though! Theres no need to think twice about it! The world is just shitty! It's not normal to them so they're gonna hate!" Hobi hyung added cuddling himself somehow closer to me

"Yeah he's right!" I lifted my head from the familiar voice coming from the doorway

"Yoongi hyung, stop being a creep and just come cuddle with us already!" Jimin hyung nagged him

"You guys are gross! I don't cuddle!"

"Okay hyung, can you please come cuddle even though you hate it? For Jungkookie?" Jimin hyung asked

"Well if you're gonna beg me like that!" he smirked making his way over to us. We all moved over in the already small bed as he laid down next to Jimin hyung turning himself to the side. Jimin Hyung reached over and grabbed his hand, forcing Yoongi hyung to spoon him.

"Kook! Hobi was right though!" he continued, "you shouldn't have to think about how hard it'll be when you're simply wanting to date the person you love. The world is just shitty!"

"You get how I feel hyung!" I said slowly closing my eyes

"Of course! And because I know let me tell you, I think you're the bravest!"

I smiled. It made me happy that the hyungs were proud of me over something I have been beating myself over. I felt myself drifting off and without thinking much I felt my eyes close.

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I felt my eyes slowly opening up again as I tried to adjust to the light shining in them. When my eyes opened fully I could feel someone next to me - holding me. I couldn't remember who was on the right of me, Hobi hyung right?

"Hobi hyung?"

"Excuse me? You can't tell what I feel like? Kinda offended!"

I smiled at the familiar voice that I knew all too well.

"Tae hyung! Of course! How could I forget?" I smiled into him

"Did you sleep good?"

"Mhm! My head feels heavy but I did sleep. What time is it?"

"It's a little past 12!"

"What happened to the other three that was cuddling with me?"

"I made them leave so I can cuddle you instead!" He giggled planting a kiss on my head

"That's fair! Hyung! Did you talk to my mom? What happened?" I asked lifting my head so I can meet his face

"She'll be okay! Don't worry about it! The hyungs and I already ate. She gave me food to give you, aren't you hungry?"

"She finished cooking for y'all? Wait!" I sat up in bed, "Does she not hate me?"

"Kook! Why would you think that?"

"No! Hyung! What the hell happened? Tell me from the start!"

"Kook! I took care of it. We talked about it calmly. She just needs to calm her mind that's all. Just take a break from her today okay? She will be okay!" he was so calm unlike me in our current situation

"Wait! What did you say though?" I asked again,  trying to be calmer now

"I don't even remember! I did take of it though!" he chuckled

"Hyung? I am sorry you had to clean up my mess!"

"It's not a mess! It was nothing! I shouldn't have made you hide! I wish we can be like Yoongi hyung, I just didn't think we could right now - which isn't saying that's gonna be us forever. We will get there one day."

"Mhm."

"Baby?"

"Mhm?"

"What are you thinking?"

"That I need to talk to her!"

"I know! Let's just let her breathe for now. Is there anywhere else you wanna take me after we eat? The hyungs are with your Mom, Jin hyung wanted to cook with her and the rest of them joined happily. They're making her happy so she's good. Let her be for a bit, okay? I know she wants to talk to you too."

"I need to think before I speak this time."

"And you will! But we are all alone in this house, you don't wanna do anything?" he wiggled his eyebrows making that face he always makes when he wants to do the dirty. This man has no shame sometimes.

"I do wanna eat!"

"Kook.... I swear!"

I giggled and got off the bed, and I could hear him following me.

"But I'm hungry too Kook!"

"No baby you can eat too! Where's the food?"

"Baby? Since when did you call me that Kook? Wait hold on at least let me have a mini heart attack cause I have never heard that one." he said running behind me

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A/n: I've been gone for a hot min. Just wanted to say hi to the new readers and thank you all for reading the story. I hopefully won't keep you waiting to update this long anymore. :)