chapter 45

"Wo acha h toh behtar h wo bura h toh bhi qubool h

Miraj-e-ishq mein Aib-e-yaar nahi dekhe jaate"

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Chandni pov

Does he knows......no...he must be said like this....... nothing else.............,

I thought and tried to stop myself from overthinking and after some time we all went to our respective room' to sleep.

I closed the door of my room and taking the night suit from the wardrobe and after changing into that i went towards my bed.

I sat on my bed and touched the place where he has been sleeping from a week.

I left that place and lay down the same place where i sleep when we share a bed even thinking about all this mine heart felt heavy.

I tried my best to get some sleep but it was far away me like him.

I dropped the idea of ​​sleeping and got up from the bed, went to balcony and started looking at the stars.

Happy birthday Mr Rathore........and may you get whatever you asked today..............,

I muttered while looking at the star's and after spending some time there.

I went inside the room as it's was very cold outside because of the month of December and lay back on my bed.

I thought that after spending some time outside, maybe I would fall asleep, but it didn't happen still sleep was far away from me.

Am i not able to sleep because he is not with me?................

I thought and sat on the bed but a few seconds later i shooked my head and started to make understand my heart that it's nothing like this.

No......this is not the reason....... and even if it is......then i should get used to it..............

I muttered and started making bun of my long hairs and then from the drawer of night stand take out the novel which i had read only half.

I don't know when I fall asleep while reading that novel.

Author

Morning -

Chandni wakes up from the sleep and without opening her eyes she spread her arm's to relieve the tiredness then opened her eyes.

As usual after opening her eyes, she looked at the other side of the bed to see abeer but find that place empty.

Where he is?............., she thought and immediately sat on the bed but after few seconds she remembered.

He is not at home.......... and yesterday i told him to stay away from me.........

She thought and closed her eyes but after few seconds she got up from the bed.

She takes a orange ankarali suit from the wardrobe and went to bathroom to fresh up and after freshing up she came out from the bathroom.

After getting ready she starts going to downstairs.

When chandni went downstairs and saw that the entire house is getting decorated and people are running here and there doing work.

What is all this happening ?...............

Chandni walks towards the dining room thinking this and meets ahana in the way.

Aditi....what is all this happening ?............,

Chandni asks Aditi while looking at her.

Preparation for bhai birthday celebration............., aditi said while both of them kept still walking towards the dining room.

Uhmm...he .. didn't came back yet?.......... , Chandni asked while trying hard not to look nervous.

Bhai will come back by evening............,

Aditi said while chandni just hummed in response.

They both reached the dining room and sat on the dining chair.

After having breakfast and spending time with everyone she makes an excuse of online classes and went back to her room.

She closes the door behind and went towards the night stand and takes the phone from there.

She checks her phone and found out that the train timings is 1 o'clock.

I have to leave before he came back............ and in preparation of his birthday no one even know when I left.............,

Chandni thought and takes a small hand bag in which she puts her diary, her grandmother photo frame and her mother ankelts and only that much money in which she can able to go back her home.

Chandni reached downstairs with that' hand bag and went near the gate of the villa from the back door.

She thought like always no one will stop her from going outside but a member of Abeer security team who's always with him stops her from going outside while chandni looked at him in confusion.

Mam......i am sorry........ Sir ordered us to not let you out from the house...... and also said that to give you this to you when you come here ............,

He said and hands a letter to chandni and she took that letter from his hand.

She opened it and started to read it in her mind.

Red,

Feel free to go anywhere you want but on one condition all the bodyguards those were standing there will follow you..............,

Chandni reads it and looked at her right direction and found that group of bodyguards are standing there and then again she continued reading that letter.

And by the evening you have to come back here ..in your house.... where you belong .

And until i come back behave like a good girl not like a stubborn kid little wife.

Your husband

After reading the last line she immediately closed that letter in shock and felt a warmth on her cheeks.

Mam.....do you want to go somewhere?..........., the same person asks who give her that letter.

As if your sir will let me go anywhere.............,

Chandni murmured under her breath while looking at that letter.

I don't want now'............, chandni said and immediately left from there.

Chandni goes straight to the garden from there and sits on the bench.

Why he can't understand........ whatever I am doing for his good....for him.......,

Chandni muttered while looking at that letter and then closed her eyes in frustration.

After few seconds later she heard a voice and opened her eyes.

Chandni..........., dadi called her and sit on the bench beside her while chandni immediately covered that letter with her dupatta.

Uhm..ha ...ji ...dadi?........, Chandni said while talking to her she put that letter in her bag without getting noticed.

Where are you going?.........., dadi asked looking at Chandni.

I was going but not now..........., chandni said looking at her and after few seconds of silence dadi spoke again.

Are you worried about something ?..........., dadi asked her while chandni put that bag on her lap.

Nahi....i just having a headache............,

Chandni said without making eye contact with her and shifted a little on the bench.

Then let me give you head massage..........., dadi said while chandni shooked her head in no.

No dadi..... it's not needed.....it will be fine in some time........, Chandni said while trying to put a smile on her face.

Sit here quietly chandni ..............., she ordered and having no other option chandni sits down and she she started

Massaging her head.

After few seconds of long silence she calls chandni.

Jii dadi...........,

Chandni says and closes her eyes, feeling relaxed because of the head massage.

I have been noticing from few day's that you are always lost somewhere and don't even to anyone at home ........ and since yesterday i noticed that you became more lost and sad......what has happened?.........,

Dadi asked while chandni opened her eyes hearing this.

I am fine nothing happened...........,

Chandni said and started fisting end of her dupatta.

Don't lie..........i know something is bothering you .......tell me bacche?..........,

She asked while still massaging her head but chandni doesn't said anything and remained silent.

I am also like your grandmother.......tell me what is bothering you ?.............., dadi again asked and after few seconds of silence chandni couldn't help just starts expressing her feelings which are troubling her.

Dadi......my mind is saying whatever I am doing is right, but my heart is not ready to accept that ..............., Chandni said and placed her head on her lap.

If that thing were right ....then the question wouldn't have arisen ........., dadi said and started caressing her hairs.

Listen to your heart Chandni what your heart desires...........you know very few people get what there heart wants.............., dadi said and tried to make her understand this.

But I am not lucky, dadi ....... whoever i love.....i mean whatever thing i love more than myself....... they go far away from me for forever ......what if something happened to hi....... that thing because of my bad luck,?.................,

Chandni said while still putting her head on dadi lap and tracing her own bangles.

There is no such thing like bad luck we get only what is written in our Destiny............and tell me?......

Aren't you feeling pain being away from that thing ?........are you happy?..........is that person is happy being away from you?..................,

Dadi said understanding that she's self conscious and insecure about herself.

I feel sacred even thinking about going away from him...........,

Chandni said but after registrating the word's she said few seconds ago she closed her eyes.

Dil ka mamla h ?...............

Dadi asked but remained silent and felt frozen her place hearing this.

Do you love my elder grandson...........do you in love with Abeer?...............,

Dadi asked again while carresing her hairs and at the same time chandni removed her head from her lap and looked at her.

How do you know?..............,

Chandni blabbered looking at her and again closed her eyes in frustration.

Matlab Karti ho?................., dadi asked while chandni immediately shooked her head in no.

Nahi.........., chandni said.

Don't lie.......... you're eye's says everything......... that how much you are in love............, dadi said with slight smile on her face.

No .....i am n_ot........, chandni said while fumbling with words and averted her gaze.

Does Abeer Knows?.............., she asked and chandni looked at her in confusion.

That you're love with him?..........., she asked while chandni again felt silent for second.

Noth_ing.... is like that dadi........, chandni said and tried her best to make her understand.

Don't lie bacche...... it's not wrong to love someone....., she said and patted chandni head while chandni closed her eyes and nodded.

Does he also love you?........., she asked.

I don't know............, Chandni said while tracing her bangles in nervousness.

He does.....i always noticed that he eye's are always looking and searching for you............, dadi said with smile in her face.

He is not looking at me anymore........he is angry with me ....i hurted him......., chandni said in slow voice t

to herself remembering the yesterday morning how Abeer didn't even saw her once in the dining table but her luck was not with her that' was heard by dadi.

So he's not looking at you?........ and that's the reason if your sadness?.........., dadi asked while chandni felt strange warmth on her cheeks.

Convince him..........if he is angry with you......., dadi said.

How?............, chandni said looking at her fingers which was placed on her lap.

Ye to aapko pata hona chahiye......... and by the ways who ask their future grandmother in law to how to convince her future husband?...........,

Dadi asked in teasing tone and smiled.

You're already my grandmother in law and he is my husband........

Chandni thought but at the same time she remembered that aunty and her aunt word's.

Dadi......uhm... don't you have any problem?........ you know everything about me..........you know i belong to middle class family.......i am just girl' with lot off flaws..........., chandni said looking at her.

I feel like beating up that person who filled this useless thing in your mind........ Chandni Stop thinking this nonsense things....... you're perfect for my grandson..........., dadi said.

And answer of your question is that .....i don't have any problem because you're perfect for becoming Abeer wife.......... and tell me first do you have any problem in loving my grandson?................, dadi asked while chandni smiled hearing the last word.

He doesn't get angry anymore............ Chandni said in slow voice.

I don't know that there's secret love story is going in our house........

Chandni said while chandni lowered her eyelashes and blushes.

Dadi.... aapko ko kaise pata chala?........., Chandni asked.

(How did you know)

I was suspicious of you both since then when I saw Abeer keeping a dupatta on your head during Diwali puja........,

dadi said and just nodded and remembered yesterday morning.

Dadi ....i request... please don't tell anyone anything ....i want to make everything right with him first.......,

Chandni said looking at her.

What you're talking about come on..... help me.... take me to my room l, it's time for my medicine.......,

Dadi said while getting up from the bench while chandni looked at her in shock.

What help me..... and why you're looking at me in shock?..............dadi said while chandni also stood.

Dadi you are just like adi......, chandni said and hugged her tightly.

Chandni.......,dadi called while chandni hummed in response.

Today is his birthday .......wear a saree of his favourite colour at night ..........., dadi said.

Red?.............., chandni muttered immediately and then crushed herself in mind for blabbereing this.

Does my grandson like Red?.............. Dadi teased her.

No......no I just said like this............, chandni muttered while couldn't help just blushed.

I AM Just teasing you chandni........,

Dadi said with smile on her face.

After this chandni takes grandmother to her and spending little more time with her she went back to her room.

Chandni closed the door of her then put that bag on bed and sat on the bed.

How will I face him?.........yesterday i hurted him................, chandni thought but at the same time chandni remembered something.

I didn't bought any gift for him.......i am stupid............, chandni thought and stood up from the bed and starts walking here and there in the room while fisting with her fingers.

What should I do.......I have already him yesterday............, chandni thought while still walking to and fro in the room.

What should I gift him....i don't even have something special that i can gift him...................,

Chandni thought and sat on the bed and start tapping her fingers on her forehead.

And after thinking for a long time she gets the Idea of what to gift him and she start to prepare his birthday gift.

As chandni put that gift on the night stand at the same time she heard the knock on the door.

Chandni opens the door and finds the lady standing there who work there.

Jiiiii?..........., Chandni asked and saw a Red colour thing in her hand.

Dadi said to give you...............,she said and forwarded the packet towards the chandni.

Chandni takes that packet from her hand and gives a smile to say thank you to her and that' lady leave from there.

Chandni closes the door of her room and opened that packet and found a beautiful red saree.

It's beautiful..............., chandni said while taking that saree she stand infront of the mirror.

Chandni placed that saree on her shoulder and smiled.

Thank you dadi............, chandni said smiling looking at beautiful saree.

At the same time chandni attention went to on the wall clock and saw the time.

It's already evening ........ i should get ready..............., chandni muttered and went to bathroom to fresh up.

Chandni comes out from the bathroom after freshing up and wearing that red saree and then stood infront of the mirror.

Chandni pov

Standing in front of the mirror, i pinned the pallu perfectly on my one shoulder and then started combing my long hair after that I left them open.

I did light make up and hided those marks which was a little bit still visible on my neck with concealer.

I applied khol in my eyes and then applied light lipstick on mine lips.

I opened the one drawer of venity and take out the bangles and anklets from it that he had made me wear that day which i removed the other day itself and changed it with another pair.

Now I can wear them..........as His Wife..............,

I muttered and started wearing them one' by one.

After wearing them I looked at myself in the mirror properly.

Am i looking good?...........will he like me in this saree.............., i muttered while looking at myself in the mirror.

I closed my eyes in nervousness and started fisting my wedding chain.

At the very moment I felt a cold hand touching my waist then sliding down to my belly and placed it there.

I just stand there frozen with racing heartbeats and did not dare to open my eyes.

I bit my lips and my breathing qucikned when i felt the air blowing on my nape and then heard a whisper in my ear.

You're looking exactly like mine......... like you belong to Abeer Singh Rathore..............,

He whispered in my ear then sucked my earlobe.

i clutched the side of the my saree in my fist and slowly opened my eyes.

Aap..... wapas...aa gaye?........,

I said and felt him taking a deep breath and tickling sensation on my neck.

(You came back)

Why .......didn't you want?....... should I go back?.............., he said and moved his face away from my neck and placed his chin on shoulder.

Noo...... please.... don't......., i said and immediately placed my hand on his which was on my belly to stop to him going away from me.

Relex Biwi......na ab Khud dur jaunga ....na aapko khud se dur jaane dunga............,

He said and kissed back of my head while listening this i smiled.

(Relax biwi....Now i will neither go....nor will I let you go away from me)

For a second we both kept looking each other without breaking eye contact in mirror and standing like that.

Mr Rathore............, I called him in slow voice and racing heartbeats.

Hmmm..........., he hummed in response and raised his one eyebrow.

Happy Birthday..........., i said without breaking eye contact with him in the mirror and took my hand near his face which was currently placed on shoulder and touched his cheek.

And again for few seconds of silence I turned to face him.

Nahi reh paaye...........mei aur mera dil aapke bina............, i said looking at him.

"Teri aankhon se hoker teri rooh mei basna chahenge

Aye Sanam

Hum har Janam bas Tere hons chahenge"

AN

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Spoiler

O khada rakhda h ae tu ohla

(Why you have kept standing away from me?)

Dil kehnda mei tainu bola

(My heart desire that I say to you)

Tu ajj mainu khud cha sama lein de

(Let me embrace me into you today)

Tu ajj mainu nede nede aa Lein de

(Let me get little closer to you today )

(I AM not sure whether this song will be in the next chapter or not but it feels like this song was made for Abeer and Chandni ◉⁠‿⁠◉

And even if this song gets added in the next chapter then guess who will sing it for whom?

Will Abeer going to sing this song for chandni ?

Or our shy chandni going to sing this song for Abeer?)

Bye byeee ❤️

Your writer

AN