In Your Dreams, Holden Rhodes: Chapter 60

“ARE you sure you want to do this?” the bank employee asked two days later, glancing between the paper I had handed him and my face with concern. “That’s a lot of money.”

When I returned home this morning after crashing at Emmett’s for two nights, the empty house didn’t surprise me. I had walked through my house, forcing myself to check each room, showing myself it was over. That I was back at square one, like before I met her. My chest had ached with emptiness at the bare countertops in the bathroom.

She had forgotten some paperwork in the kitchen, though, so I had fished out an old bank loan statement of hers and brought it to the bank.

The money didn’t matter. I didn’t even want the extra ownership of the inn we had agreed on. Transferring part of her ownership meant lawyers and meetings, and I wanted this done.

I wanted Sadie Waters out of my life.

Pain ripped through my chest at the memory of the disgusted, horrified expression on her face when I mentioned us getting married. Like she couldn’t imagine anything worse.

She had agreed to marry a guy who gave her a fake name, but the idea of marrying me was off the table?

My gut rolled with nausea and I fought the urge to shake my head at myself. I should have fucking known. I wasn’t even angry at her. She had told me how she felt, I just didn’t listen. She swept me away with her pretty smiles and laughter and weekend adventures.

I couldn’t believe I actually thought she’d want me.

Everything my brothers had that I wanted so badly had been within reach, but it wasn’t real. Like I suspected all those months ago, I would never have those things.

No one would ever choose me.

My chest ached again but I nodded at the bank employee. “I’m sure. I want to pay the full amount.”

Now I could forget Sadie Waters.