Chapter 12
0°Celsius: To thaw a frozen heart
Cash had just dunked his head under the shower spray when the curtain was ripped open and Jen appeared like an apparition.
âHurry up,â she ordered. âWeâre going out.â
He wiggled his eyebrows. âWhy donât you join me instead?â
âWeâre going out,â she repeated.
Then she disappeared, leaving a cloud of steam in her wake.
Bewildered, Cash rinsed the shampoo from his hair and shut off the faucet. Water slid down his naked body and dripped onto the fluffy blue bath mat as he grabbed a towel. He quickly dried off, wrapped the towel around his waist, and wiped the foggy mirror so he could see his reflection while he shaved.
Since his electric razor was busted, he was using disposables until he got around to buying a new one, but heâd run out of those too, so for the past couple of days heâd been stealing Jenâs lady razors, which drove her nuts. When he opened the medicine cabinet and reached for her stash of pink razors, he found a yellow Post-it note taped to the package.
The words âNO MEANS NOâ glared accusingly at him.
Grinning, he ignored the permanent-marker warning and swiped a razor. He shaved in a hurry, knowing that Jen was probably pacing the bedroom while she waited for him. Probably biting on her bottom lip the way she did whenever she was upset.
And he knew she was upset, because sheâd been nibbling on that sexy lip ever since theyâd come back from Del Mar yesterday. Heâd tried assuring her there was no way Carson would cheat on his wife, but Jen remained unconvinced. Sheâd stewed about it all night.
Though if Cash were being honest, he was less upset over what was no doubt a misunderstanding with Carson, and more upset about the way Jenâs parents had behaved. Theyâd treated her like she was a huge disappointment to them, a total failure because she hadnât found her career path yet.
And the admiralâs barbed remark about Jenâs âsillyâ pictures had seriously grated. After seeing her photographs, Cash knew there was nothing silly about them. He still couldnât believe she wasnât doing it professionally, and now that heâd seen firsthand how talented she was, he planned on encouraging her to look into photography opportunities. Someone needed to offer some encouragement, seeing as how she didnât get any from her folks.
It bothered him that she let them undermine her confidence and make light of her skills. But when heâd asked her last night why she didnât stand up to her family, sheâd shrugged and said something about âpicking her battles.â
Yup, she was indeed pacing when Cash entered the bedroom a couple minutes later. She fired an impatient look in his direction and said, âI picked out an outfit for you.â
He glanced at the bedâshit, sheâd actually laid out some clothesâand raised his eyebrows. âUm. Okay.â
âTo save time,â she added hastily. âIâm not making some controlling statement about your fashion sense.â
Speaking of fashion sense, he suddenly noticed what she was wearing, and his brows rose even higher. Rather than the tight-fitting jeans, cute tops, and sexy shoes heâd become accustomed to, she wore black yoga pants, black Adidas, and a snug hooded sweatshirt in a dark shade of blue. And a baseball cap.
An alarm went off in his head. âWhere exactly are we going?â
âThe Gaslamp. I wanted to drop off a few resumes.â
âThen why are you dressed like Sporty Spice?â
She huffed out a breath. âIâm applying to a sporting goods store. I figured Iâd dress the part, show them that, ah, Iâm into sports.â
Suspicion swarmed his gut. His gaze shifted to the clothes sheâd picked out for himâjeans, black hoodie, and yup, a baseball cap. Okay, this was weird.
Deciding he didnât like the WTF nature of the situation, Cash dropped his towel and flashed a grin. âWhy donât we do the resume thing tomorrow and spend the day in bed instead?â
Jen didnât bat an eyelash, not even when he gave his hardening dick a long, firm stroke. Huh. No reaction at the sight of his goods. She was definitely a woman on a mission today.
âOrâ¦we can hand out resumes,â she said before turning to the door.
Sighing, he reached for a clean pair of boxers from the laundry basket on the floor, then dressed in the clothes Jen had left on the bed. He even put on the damn hat, mostly because he was curious to find out where Jen was taking him that would require them to wear matching hoodies and caps. Sporting goods store, his ass.
His unease grew once they left the apartment and got into his car. Jen seemed even more agitated nowâavoiding his eyes, biting her lip, tapping her short fingernails on the stack of resumes in her lap.
âOkay,â he grumbled. âWhy are you acting like a crazy person?â
âWhat are you talking about?â she said in an overly cheerful voice. âIâm acting normal.â
He shook his head, deciding to give up. Might as well let this insanity unfold naturally.
Ten minutes later, they reached the Gaslamp District. Cash lucked out and found an empty parking space in front of a meter, but not even his impressive, borderline-superhuman parallel parking job inspired a reaction from Jen.
After he fed the meter and locked the SUV, he glanced at the small coffee shop theyâd parked in front of. âWant to grab a coffee?â
She looked so thrilled that he grew even more suspicious. âYes! I would love a coffee.â
Cash made a move toward the café, but she quickly grabbed his arm. âNot from here. Iâm in the mood for Starbucks.â
He shot her a strange look. âOkay.â
They took off down the sidewalk, dodging pedestrians as Jen set a brisk pace more suited for running the Boston Marathon.
âWhatâs the rush?â he asked in annoyance.
âCraving an iced mocha, thatâs all,â she said cheerfully.
The Starbucks was five blocks away, but at the breakneck speed they were going, they reached it in three minutes flat. Cash headed for the door, but Jen yet again intercepted him. Her eyes were glued to the storefront, scanning the glass like a hawk focusing on its prey. All of a sudden, a cross between a squeak and a hiss flew out of her mouth, and then she tugged on his hand and dragged him toward the side of the building.
Just like that, Cash had officially had enough.
âWhat the fuck is going on?â
Shamefaced, she met his frazzled gaze. âOkay, so⦠Donât be mad.â
He groaned. Someone starting a sentence with âdonât be madâ was never a good sign.
âWhy are we here, Jen?â
âLook in the window.â
Frowning, Cash peered around the corner. Every table in the coffee shop was occupied and he scanned the patrons with military precision. Three older women laughing over iced coffees, a lone student reading a thick textbook, a group of businessmen chatting.
Son of a bitch.
He rapidly moved out of sight and glared at Jen. âAre you fucking kidding me? Weâre spying on Carson?â
âDonât think of it as spying. Weâreâ¦discreetly monitoring his movements. You know, doing some recon.â
Cash raised his hand to run it through his hair, only to collide with the brim of his baseball cap. Make that his disguise. And he noticed that Jen wasnât carrying her resumes. Sheâd left them in the car, which confirmed sheâd had an ulterior motive this entire time.
âThis is ridiculous. Letâs go. Iâm not spying on your brother.â
Her lips tightened in an angry line. âDid you happen to notice that heâs not alone?â
âHe was sitting alone at the table.â
She crept along the brick wall and peeked around the building again, then beckoned him. âLook again,â she said flatly.
Cash stole another glance and cursed under his breath. She was right. Carsonâs back was to the window, but Cash had a clear view of the auburn-haired woman now occupying the small table. She must have stepped away when heâd looked over the first time.
From his vantage point, he noted that Carsonâs companion was average looking, but those long auburn tresses and the remarkable rack beneath her V-neck top definitely upped her hotness factor.
Jen sidled up to him and made a dismayed noise. âWhat the hell is he doing with that woman?â
âMaybe theyâre just friends.â
No sooner did he finish that sentence than the redhead reached across the table and gripped Carsonâs hand. Her face took on an intense expression as she said something to the blond SEAL.
Cash caught Jenâs look of outrage. âFriends hold hands sometimes,â he said feebly.
She ducked back into the alley, a cloud darkening her face. âIâve seen enough. Letâs go.â
He didnât argue. He also didnât sing what was becoming his new favorite tune: there has to be an explanation. So what if the cute redhead had taken Carsonâs hand? That didnât mean a damn thing.
Still, he couldnât shake the uneasiness in his gut as they walked back to the car.
After he settled in the driverâs seat, he glanced over and sighed when he noticed the stiffness of Jenâs shoulders. âThis doesnât mean anything, sweetheart. Iâm sure if you ask Carson about it, heâll have an explanation.â
âAnd what if the explanation is that heâs cheating on Holly?â
Cash had no answer for that. Damn it. What the hell was Carson doing? All this sneaking around wasnât painting the guy in a positive light.
âPoor Holly. Do you think I should tell her?â
âNo,â he said immediately. âTalk to your brother first. If this is all a misunderstanding, you donât want to cause any more problems by getting Holly riled up.â
âYeah, youâre right.â She went quiet again. âSeeing that sucked, Cash.â
He swallowed. âI know.â
âButâ¦but at least it kind of reaffirms my decision, you know?â
âWhat decision?â
âNot to be a military wife. I mean, look at what Holly and Carson are dealing with. Fighting, unable to connect or communicate.â She rubbed her temples as if warding off a headache. âMy parentsâ marriage was the same. My dad was always gone, and Mom had to do everything on her own. It got better once he retired, but his being home now doesnât make up for all the times he wasnât. And yeah, I get that relationships require work and compromise, but relationships should also be a partnership. How can that happen when one partner is gone half the time?â
He didnât have an answer for that, either.
âAt least we wonât ever get to that point.â
His mouth went dry. âWhat do you mean?â
âBecause weâre just having a fling. We donât have to worry about ending up in a Carson-and-Holly situation.â She reached for the stack of resumes sheâd left on the dash. âAnyway, thereâs no point in going home just yet. Since weâre already here, I may as well hand out some resumes, right?â
With that, she hopped out of the car, leaving Cash feeling unsettled. He knew her words shouldnât bother him. It was just a fling, exactly like Jen said.
So he got out of the car and followed Jen down the sidewalk, trying not to dwell on the confusing emotions spiraling through him, or the way his chest constricted when he thought about having to say goodbye to this girl.