Chapter 13
Ex-Husband’s Regret
Ava
âSo Rowan?â Ethan asks me as we drive back home!
After the incident in the bathroom, I didnât want to be anywhere near Rowan so I had asked Ethan to take me home thirty minutes later.
âHeâs my exâhusbandâ I reply toneless and we fall into silence
I still couldnât believe the nerve Rowan had to corner me in the bathroom. As if that wasnât bad enough, he almost k*ssed. Me! He has never initiated a k*ss with me before so to say I was shocked would be an understatement.
I almost gave in. This was what Iâve always wanted but then I remembered that he was with Emma. That he had most likely k*ssed her and done some other things with her. Thatâs what gave me the strength I needed to push him away from me. I just couldnât let him use me like that. Not anymore. He had Emma and I was nothing to him except the mother of his son.
Rowan has never been jealous or possessive when it comes to me. He used to do that when it came to Emma back when they were teenagers and I found it hot. I imagined how great it would feel if he did the same when it came to me. He never did, never bothered until now.
He was jealous. You could tell by the way he behaved the entire time. I know he thought I didnât notice but I did. I noticed him glaring at Ethan and me with a locked jaw and tightly fisted hands.
He confused me and I didnât understand why he would behave like this. Sure I lied and made it seem like Ethan and I were sleeping together but that was to get him off my back. I honestly didnât think it would push him over the edge like it did. Part of me wanted to celebrate that he was actually showing emotion when it came to me, but I also knew I couldnât count on that.
Ethan didnât love me, pure and simple. I wasnât going to fool myself into believing there was something more to his behavior. 1
âI thought he was with Emma who by the reports is your sister?â Ethan asked confused.
âHe isâ
âThen whatâs the deal? He just jumps from one sister to the other?â
I wince at that. Ethan was new in town so he didnât know what went down nine years ago. Even if I like being around him, I wasnât comfortable telling him how my st* pid actions ruined three lives years ago.
âItâs complicated and I donât want to talk about itâ
In all honesty, I didnât want to even think about it. Iâve paid enough for my mistake and thinking about it brings nothing but pain.
âOkay I wonât push it, but just know that I am here for you if you need to talkâ my whole b*dy softens at his words.
No one has ever said that to me. If I had a problem, I dealt with it myself because no one was there to catch me when I fall. Or to offer to listen to me. I was always alone.
âThank you, Ethanâ I murmur, my throat clogged with emotion.
Soon enough we are pulling into my street and seconds later we are outside my house. Like the gentleman he is, Ethan helps me out of his car and walks me to my house.
It was late evening and I could see my nosy neighbor peeping through the curtain.
âI had a wonderful time even though it was cut shortâ¦next time I promise to take you out for a biteâ he grins at me.
His grin is so infectious that I find myself smiling back at him. He and Rowan were similar in some ways. Their confidence was on another level.
âYouâre awfully too sure about yourselfâ I tease, thoughts of Rowan completely gone.
âNot sure, just hopefulâ¦so is that a yes?â
I nod my head already feeling excited. I mean this time he is direct. There is no way he would say those words if he didnât mean them, right?
âOkay, Iâll see you soon, beautiful⦠have a wonderful eveningâ he takes a step towards me and then places a k*ss on my cheek.
The heat that spreads to my cheek is probably noticeable. This makes me blush more.
âYou too Ethanâ
âOkay get in, I want to hear you lock the door before I leaveâ
He pushes me towards my door. I unlock it, get in then lock it behind me. Leaning on the door, I hear his footsteps receding. Then seconds later, his car starts and he drives off.
I had nothing to do so I decide to just go to bed. My mind on my conflicting feelings concerning
Rowan and Ethan
The continuous ringing of my doorbell wakes me up from my not very peaceful sleep. I groan when I check the alarm clock only to find it reading seven twenty in the morning.
I wasnât supposed to be up. Not until nine oâclock. Today was Sunday and I usually go to church. Donât get me wrong, Iâm not a staunch believer but church was a must when we were younger and I just adopted it as part of my routine.
Getting up in annoyance, I put my bathrobe on and storm down stairs. Whoever it was that disturbed me was going to get an earful.
I wrench my door open, ready to curse the person but I stop dead in my tracks. The last person I expected to see was currently standing on my doorstep.
âWhat do you want Emma?â I snap.
I wasnât awake enough to deal with her.
âIâm just here to warm you to stay away from Rowah. He is mine, I wonât let you steal him from me againâ she all but growls.
Her brows are pinched and there is fire burning behind her eyes.
I laugh tonelessly. âYou came to my home at seven in the morning to warm me to stay away from Rowan? Youâre barking up the wrong tree Emmaâ
I wasnât the naïve, st* pid girl she left behind and Iâll be damned if I let her walk all over me
âRowan is mine, Ava! Heâs always been mine. I lost nine F***ing years with the love of my life because of you and I wonât let you have your away againâ
âIâm not having any way with him! You can keep him for all I care. Just leave me the F*** aloneâ
I canât believe that I was standing outside my house arguing about a man that didnât want me in the first place. Hasnât she noticed that the only tie Rowan and I have is Noah?
âI saw him looking at you yesterday, I also saw him following you to the bathroomâ she accuses
âAnd howâs that my fault?â
She looks like she wants nothing more than to hit me. Even when sheâs angry and looks like sheâs about to blow up, sheâs still beautiful. How can someone be this beautiful and perfect? Seriously what is her secret?
âYouâre trying to seduce him againâ
âWe were married Emmaâ Weâve F***ed more times than I can count, I donât need to seduce him. you have all my permission to keep my sloppy secondsâ
I regret the words the moment they leave my mouth. I shouldnât have said that and it was uncalled for
âAnd he would have been my husband if you had gotten over your obsession with him Now I have feel like the worst scum on earth
She has no idea how much I regret what happened years ago. I know though, that she would never believe me.
âEmma..â
âNo. Just stay away from him. I mean look at you and look at me. Iâm a lawyer and youâre just an under payed teacher. You have nothing Ava, no wealth or status of your own. I fit as the perfect wife of Rowan woods, a business mogul and you donât. You never have and never willâ
With that she turns and struts away before getting into her red Tesla and driving off
I sigh. To be honest, her words donât bother me. Iâm used to hearing people say that Rowan and I didnât fit just because he was a billionaire and I was a simple teacher. That was their opinion and it had nothing to do with me. I loved my job and that was enough.
I get back into my house and finish grading my studentâs reports. At nine I start getting ready and after eating breakfast I head to church. Since my shoulder felt okay. I decided to drive instead of taking an Uber
I couldnât concentrate on the service. I felt like my mind was fried to crisp. First with my encounter with Ethan and Rowan and then today with Emma.
The sermon ends in a blur and soon it was time to leave. I greet those church goers that I knew on my way out and head towards my car
My phone vibrating brings me out of my stupor. I take it out and put it in my ear as I dig into my bag for my car keys.
âWhat the F*** did you tell Emma?â Rowanâs cold and angry voice comes through the speaket
Why am I not surprised that Emma went crying to him? And Iâm sure she left out the part where she came to my house unannounced with uncalled for accusations.
I press the unlock button on my car keys but I donât get the chance to continue my sentence or get into my car
A booming sound is heard and a heat blast like no other hits me Iâm thrown back before landing hard. The last thing I hear, is the ringing of my ears and peoples screaming in feat