Chapter 14
Ex-Husband’s Regret
My head is throbbing. Actually scratch that. My entire b*dy is in pain. I try opening my eyes but I canât. It felt like they were weighed down by stones I try calling out to Noah, to anyone, but no sound leaves my mouth.
I am moving. Or someone is moving me. Every movement jolts me and just makes the pain all the more excruciating. I wish they would go slowly. Or just stop all together.
âWe need a doctor!â someone shouts.
I didnât understand what they were talking about or why they needed a doctor. Or what was going on. I tried staying conscious but darkness embraced me once more and I fell into it willingly.
When I came back to myself again, Iâm not in pain but I still canât open my eyes. Nor can I move my b*dy. I feel like my limbs were laden with cement. Like I was trapped inside my own b*dy.
I can hear people talking but it all sounds so far away. As their words are submerged under water or something. Nothing made sense and I didnât understand why this was happening to me.
I was desperate to see Noah, to hear him. He must be so worried that I hadnât called him. Yet there was nothing I could do.
I fall back to the nothingness, unable to keep up with what was happening around me. My last thought is Noah and how sad he would be that I havenât called
I wake up and the room is shrouded in light. The brightness of it makes me wince.
âYouâre awakeâ an unfamiliar female voice says,
I try opening my eyes again but with the lights accosting them itâs nearly impossible.
âIâm so sorry about thisâ she pauses and I hear movements. âYou can now open your eyes, the light wonât be a problemâ
True to her words, when I open my eyes, curtains are closed and the light are turned low. I turn to the woman who seems to be in her late thirties. Sheâs wearing a nurse uniform and a quick survey of the room makes me conclude that Iâm in a hospital.
âThank youâ I croak out, my voice feeling hoarse
âHere, have this while I go call you doctor. Your family will be relieved to know youâre okayâ she hands me a glass of water before leaving.
I sip the water slowly, reveling in the cold water as it cooled my throat. I stare at the room I was in. Itâs full of flowers, balloons and teddy bears. There was also a bunch of cards on the table next to me.
I was about to pick one and open it when the door opens and Rowan walks in.
âYou look like hellâ I tell him, my voice almost back to its normal pitch.
His hair was disheveled, clothes were wrinkled and he looked tired. I have never seen Rowan like this. He is always impeccable and neat. His eyes are tortured and he seems he had been to hell and back.
âHow are you feeling?â he asks sitting down next to my bed.
âLike Iâve been hit by a trainâ¦what are you doing here?â
He surprises me when he takes my hand in his large one. I go to pull it away but he tightens his.
âPlease donâtâ he pleads in a small voice. âI need this, I need to remind myself that youâre alive, that Iâm not dreamingâ
My brows pull together in confusion. Did I wake up in an alternate universe or something? Because things were just not adding up.
âAre you okay, Rowan, you didnât hit your head or something, right?â I ask, feeling his forehead with my other hand.
He doesnât get to answer because the door opens and a doctor walks in. He looked at my chart. before his eyes find me.
âMiss Sharp, so glad that youâre upâ¦we were worried for a minute thereâ he begins with a smile. Now, do you know where you are and what happened to you?â
I nod my head. âThe hospital⦠something forceful pushed me back when I unlocked my car. I hit my head from the impact.â
Iâve tried blocking out what happened to me since I woke up. Afraid of accepting the fact that I almost died.
âYes, your car was bombed and the force of it blowing is what threw you back âhe pauses. âAnd what year is it?â
I tell him and he notes it down. Rowan squeezes my hand and I look at him briefly. Something passes in his eyes but it gone before I can interpret it.
I was in shock. Never would I have thought that my car would be bombed. With the stress of everything, I feel a headache coming on and pain sipping in
âThe fact that you know the year, you recognize your own name and you know who Mr. Wood is, is a good sign. We will have to perform more tests though, just to make sure you arenât suffering from any type of amnesiaâ
âOkayâ I whisper.
âNow on to your injuries, you dislocated your shoulder so we had to set it right. You have three broken ribs, a ruptured spleen, traumatic brain injury which caused a buildup of fluid in your brain which we had to drain and also some swelling. The stitch from your shoulder wound reopened and we had to reâstitch it. Our main concern right now is you head injury, any questions?â
My other hand goes to my head since Rowan has refused to let go of my right. The bandage I feel there just makes everything that happened more real.
âHow long have I been here?â I ask him.
âThis is your fourth day. We had to induce a coma because of the swellingâ¦.Some complications might arise with your type of head injury so we will keep you here for a few more days and rule them out. Okay?â
I nod my head. I felt drained and I just wanted to go back to sleep. He writes something before looking up at me again.
âIâll let you and your husband have a private moment. Iâll be back laterâ with that he walks out, closing the door softly behind him.
âHusband?â I ask Rowan with a raised eyebrow.
He looks at me sheepishly and I almost laugh. He looks cute.
âThey wouldnât let me see you otherwiseâ
âHowâs Noah? Please tell me no one has told him what happened, I donât want him worryingâ
His name brings tears to my eyes. I canât believe how close I had been to never seeing him again. It breaks my heart to know that the last memory he would have had of me if things had been worse, was me saying goodbye to him.
âHey, itâs okayâ¦youâre okay and so is Noah, he misses you a lot though.â Rowan comforts me, while wiping away my tears..
âYouâre acting really weirdâ I cryâlaugh, making him chuckle.
This is the Rowan I wish I had back when we were married. I know heâs only behaving like this because of what happened. Once Iâm better heâll probably go back to hating me. That thought weighs down on my heart, making me really sad.
I sigh when my eyes began to droop. I try to stay awake but my b*dy refuses to obey, instead demanding sleep.
âSleep, Avaâ¦I promise not to leave youâ I hear Rowan telling me right before I feel soft l*ps on my forehead.
I really must have woken up in an alternate universe because there is no way Rowan would be so soft towards me, right?