30. Heartless

I blink and I stare at her in disbelief. She has to be joking. This can't be happening.

"Why?"

"Because of you! You did something! We just got his phone. Why else did he call you so many times! Why did he text you?! What did you do to him?!" She screams.

I hold onto the wall of the building for support.

He called me so many times, he texted me. And I ignored it. I did this.

"Is he.."

"They're pumping his stomach.." She cries.

She looks into my eyes with the most anger I've ever seen.

"If he's dead, it's your fault." She turns around and goes into the hospital.

My knees go weak and I fall to the ground. I curl up into myself.

"Shit, shit, shit.."

"You know it's not true right? You can't make someone kill themselves. She's just upset." Aron says calmly.

I look up at him.

He doesn't give a fuck about Chase.

"Of course you would say that."

"And what does that mean?" He's annoyed. It's like this is all just a huge inconvenience to him.

"You don't give a fuck about Chase! In fact, you'd probably be happy if he's dead!" I scream.

"Please." He says irritated.

I think about when Chase called me all those times. And Aron spoke to him. He called him a nuisance, he made him feel like shit.

"This is your fault." I say, anger rising inside me.

"What?!"

I rise to my feet.

"You called him! You made him feel worthless, if you hadn't done that none of this would be happening!" I scream.

"You don't know what you're saying.."

It feels like all the anger I've kept inside during the car ride is exploding now.

"I'm saying the truth! It's your fault! You did this!" I yell.

He sighs and looks away.

"You know what? Why don't you just go? You're the nuisance here." I say coldly.

He takes a step back. He looks tired and hurt.

"Is that what you want?" He asks quietly.

"Yes."

We share a long look.

"I'll call you later." He turns around.

"Don't."

I turn around and walk into the hospital.

I ask for Chase at the reception and they point me to his room.

When I reach it, I stand outside and look through the window.

My heart beats fast as I see him with his eyes open.

Loren and the rest of his family are all talking to him looking happy.

I sigh of relief because he's still alive.

He lays very still and he's looking at Loren as she talks. But he doesn't seem to be listening.

Then his eyes move to the window. To me.

I gasp a little and look at my feet.

I shouldn't be here.

I can go now that I know he's alive.

I walk away.

When I'm near the exit someone stops me.

"He wants to see you." Loren says. Her eyes filled with hate.

"If it was up to me I wouldn't let him anywhere near you but he asked for you. God knows why."

I gulp. "Okay." I almost whisper.

I follow Loren back to Chase's room.

I take a deep breath before opening the door. The rest of the family is all gone.

"Hey, Chase." I smile.

He smiles back and his eyes gleam. He seems genuinely happy to see me.

Loren comes in after me.

"Can you leave us alone for a while?" Chase asks.

She falters. Then she gives me a look.

"Of course." She smiles to Chase before heading for the exit.

I watch her close the door behind her.

And then it's completely quiet.

I stay still, looking at the door, wishing she wouldn't have left me alone with him. I'm not good at this.

"Sky?" His voice is soft.

I turn around slowly and sit next to the bed.

He smiles at me like I'm the center of the universe and he's finally in balance again now that I'm here.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" I speak before thinking.

His smile fades.

"Why the hell did you do this?!" I demand.

Suddenly he looks sad and downcast.

"I'm sorry." I say quickly, trying to calm down.

"I heard you talk to Aron." He says quietly. I look at him.

"You know, after he found us kissing in the classroom. I followed you guys and heard you say that you only kissed me out of pity. You were almost offended at the idea that you could possibly like me." He says darkly.

I look down at my lap. Why am I so heartless?

"My mom and sister care more about their hair than me. My dad's always working. I have no friends.. And you don't like me. At all." Tears fill his eyes.

"I've liked you ever since I first saw you.." He says.

This is new information to me I look at him in disbelief.

"When Loren brought you home." He sniffs. "I'd never met someone with such a genuine disinterest in everything." He chuckles.

"I thought you were so cool.." He smiles.

That's called depression. But anyway.

"And then you picked me. We spent that night together and it was the best night of my life."

Oh God.

I cover my face with my hands.

He runs his fingers through my hair.

"Your hair is so soft.." He muses.

I look at him.

"Why are you being so nice to me? I ruined your life."

"You can't ruin what isn't there." He jokes.

"Stop saying that. Loren loves you. You didn't see her just now."

"She thinks she owns me. To her I'm just like a Chanel purse."

How could he say that?

"You're delusional." I shake my head.

He laughs.

"I'm happy you're here, Sky.. Pathetic, I know."

"Very." I say. "There's nothing to like about me."

"Now you're delusional. I like everything about you." He smiles.

He looks so happy. He looks.. like he's in love.

That's really awkward.

I look at my hands again.

"Aww, you're blushing!" He teases.

"Shut up?!"

He laughs harder.

I'm happy he's laughing.

Glad my discomfort could do him some good.

"You know, if you try this shit again, I'll kill you." I look at the wall as I say this.

He grabs my hand gently.

I look at him again.

"I won't." He smiles wide.