Chapter 28

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Tony’s POV

I had fallen asleep sitting in the chair with my head resting on the bed by Dawn's arm.

I woke up sore. I stretched feeling the pull of my muscles and the hearing the pop of my joints. "That is not a good way to fall asleep," I mumbled to myself.

Then I stop moving because in the deafening silence that one moment seemed to bounce off my bedroom walls. It was terrifying.

I sighed and looked to Dawn.

I was surprised to see that some of the shallower bruises were already fading.

I smiled and leaned in, pressing my lips to her forehead. I stood straight and walked to the bathroom to get her some water. I set the glass on the bed side table and sat down again.

At that point the door opened behind me.

"Anthony . . ."

"No," I growled calmly.

"But . . ."

"No! I am here looking after my mate," I growled turning and standing up to f ace Lupa. "Like I was supposed to be last night. I didn't because you were there. You distracted me from my focus on her and because of that she could have died last night."

"Could have but didn't," she smiled

"Thank the goddess for that, you little bitch, because if she had you would of too," I snapped harshly.

"Don't threaten me like that!" She snapped back. "If this is proof of anything it is proof that she is human and weak. Not fit for being the mate of a true Alpha. If anyone is going to kill her it will be you!" She growled annoyed and then turned and stomped out slamming the door behind her.

Instantly I turned to Dawn, but nothing she didn't even move.

I sighed and moved back to sit in the chair and rest my head against Dawn’s hand like a lost puppy. I played with her figures and thought for a little while.

“I love you,” I whispered. “Did I not say it enough? Did you not realize what you meant to me? Why did this happen? I don’t understand. You are my everything. You are my life,” I sat up at looked at her sleeping face. Yes, sleeping, nothing in the world was wrong with her. She was just sleeping. “I don’t know how I would go on if I lost you now. I know it is all my fault. There is no getting around that fact. If I had told you sooner. If I had taken care of Ian sooner. Four little worlds earlier and we wouldn’t be here right now. And so simple now, it seems for me to say, but when your beautiful eyes were staring into mine I got scared. I couldn’t stand your rejection, but truth is I would live with a thousand of your rejections before I would live one day without you. I guess it doesn’t matter now. You can’t reply anyways,” I looked down at her hand still in mine and sighed. “Dawn, You are my mate.”

“Tony?”

My head snapped up shocked, “Dawn?”

No she was still complete unconscious. It was not her.

“No, sweetie,” A gentle hand rested on my shoulder.

“Oh, mom,” I turned and looked at her.

She looked worse than ever. The bags under her eyes made her eyes look like they were sunken into her head. Her skin was pale and thin, but somehow she looked like she had gained weight. I knew she had not been eating these last couple of days.

“What’s wrong?” I demanded.

“I . . . I’m fine,” She planted a smile on her thin lips.

I stood tall. I didn’t care if she was my mother. The Alpha in me was done being pushed around and treated like a child. I mean looked were that got Dawn. No more son of Alpha. I was done.

“Stop lying to me,” I growled and she slightly cowered. I felt bad but I did not want her to hurt herself. She need to tell someone what was wrong.

“Stop fooling yourself. Tell me what is going on? Now!” I demanded.

Her eyes widened and then she sighed. “Not even your father had the guts to use his Alpha command on me to get it out.”

I just glared.

“I’m pregnant. I have been for almost a month now,” She sighed as tears came to her eyes.

“What?”  I deflated. No Alpha. No Son of Alpha. I was just a son of a very caring woman who looked like she had the weight of the world on her shoulders. “Mom, why are you crying? This is happy!” I smiled at her and brought her into a hug.

“Oh, Anthony, you just won’t understand,” She breathed and pulled out of my hug. “It is an extremely happy thing, but it’s not right. At least it doesn’t feel right to me,” She explained.

“Try me. What’s on your mind?” I sat her done in the seat and sat at the edge of Dawn’s bed very carefully.

“When I was pregnant with you and Felix, I was pregnant with two different men’s children. I thought that was my only purpose. To have you and Felix. So I didn’t think this was possible.”

“Again . . . that makes this a good thing,” I looked at her confused.

“Yes, Anthony, you don’t understand,” she sighed.

“Just tell me,” I demanded softly.

“Fine,” She looked slightly annoyed. “I never thought I would be able to have another child without having one with both your father and Marcus . . . Felix’s father,” She finally admitted. “Having a single child with just your father feels wrong . . . so wrong,” She shook her head covering her face with her hands.

I rested my hand on her shoulder and just slightly froze. I didn’t know what to say. I did not understand these things. I was a child myself. Why would I know how it feels to parent one? Even though I have lost many people I did not know what it was like to completely lose Dawn . . . or any mate for that matter. So where the next words that left my mouth came from . . . I had no idea.

“Listen to me, Kendra,” I spoke. I had never not called her mother before. “You went through what you went through for our goddess and for our people. You served your time and finished what you were meant to. You raised Felix and I to be great men and that was your destiny. It now your time to live your life and be happy. The loss you experienced with Marcus was horrible. You should not allow that to ruin your happiness with Derek. This child,” I lifted her chin to make her look me in the eye, “My sibling, is no curse . . . it is a blessing. It is a gift from Luna and Nyx alike . . . even from Marcus. I gift to say thank you, if you will, for all of your hard work. You have done what you meant to . . . now is time to celebrate.” I smiled at her.

“How can you say such things when you meant is lying beside to barely breathing? It’s her fault this happened! It’s always Luna’s fault!” She cried.

“No, I am soon to Alpha of a pack. I take responsibility for my actions. I will never blame anyone for my mistakes,” I shook my head and sat up straight.

“How can you be this way?” She asked looking at me shocked.

“I don’t know. Seeing Dawn like this changed me. I can’t ignore my responsibilities for my own good. Not claiming her put her in this position. If I had I would have been able to protect her . . . care for her . . .” I looked to Dawn, hating myself more and more.

“You can’t blame yourself . . .”

“But I do. This is not about me though,” I sighed and looked back to her. “Smile, be happy. Tell your mate that you have a great gift for him and take care of yourself and the baby.” I nodded to the door as I helped her stand.

“Thank you, Anthony,” She smiled at me and then walked out of the room.

I turned back to Dawn.

“I wish you could see this. I wish you could understand . . . You don’t even know anything about me. You don’t even know my world exists. I don’t know how to tell you . . .” I sighed and shook my head. “Just wake up, Dawn,” I sat in the chair and pressed her had to my cheek. “Please wake up,” I begged as a tear fell from my eye, “Wake up . . .”