|21| heart attack

Even in the chaos,

Don't forget to kiss.

~Tess Guinery

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"Sweetheart breathe" Aaron whispers every so gently as his hand moves up to squeeze the back of my neck,

"I can't" I choke out gasping for any air I can manage to find

Aarons says its been thirty minutes, but I swear its been hours since they took henry, it's felt like hours of not knowing what's going on, and hours since my heart has continually been skipping multiple beats too scared to function normally,

Everything's been a blur since Henry was taken, I lightly remember the memory of walking inside my apartment and breaking down the moment I sat next to Aaron on the couch, his concern was evident on his face as he watched me break down not being able to give him answers to his questions,

He held me as close as he could without putting pressure on his stitchings, he began whispering sweet words to me, his hands roamed my back, arms, and neck area as he massaged and tried comforting me to the best of his ability,

And when I finally caught my breath and told him what happened in between heavy sobs, he watched me with sadness in his eyes, knowing nothing he could do would fully help me calm down until I heard that Henry was alive and well, so he just lets me cry on his shirt, soaking up the fabric with my fears and worries, he held me close assuring me I'm not alone,

His body trembles against mine and I'm hit with the biggest amount of pain as I realize he must think his kidney was rejected, I want to be the person there for him who assures him and tells him it will be okay, but I'm barely able to breathe let alone utter a singular word at the moment,

"Vanessa you're shaking, please stop shaking" he whispers with a crack in his voice

"What if he dies" I clutch his sweatshirt with my hands, fisting it closer to me, as I lift my head to look at him,

I feel like I'm choking on my tears at this point

A tear slides down his cheek and I wipe it away without realizing it

"He won't die" he whispers, shaking his head

"H-how do you know that" I manage to get out

"Because I just do" he whispers tears following down his cheeks, making his previous statement seem like a disguised lie

"You're crying Aaron, you don't even believe yourself" I whisper trying to keep the tears at bay

He rests his forehead against mine

"he can't die he's my only family apart from you, I can't lose any more people I care about," I say starting to hyperventilate

"Hey, hey Vanessa look at me," he says sternly taking my chin and moving it upward so I meet his gaze

"He won't die, if my kidney failed him they will find him a new one, you hear me?" He says with a stern voice, the voice he uses at work

I nod and let my face fall on his shoulder, crying has exhausted my mind and body

"It will be okay" I hear Aaron whisper but it sounds like he's talking more to himself than me

I feel like I'm about to die of a heart attack.

Is it possible to cry so hard you get a heart attack?

It feels very possible at this moment

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The next two hours go by at a slow torture like pace, with shaky hands I called the doctor and found out he was being rushed into surgery and they'd call me back when they were done,

Two hours go by and my tears have dried up, my body feels numb and as if it's not my own, my head lays on Aarons's shoulder and his hand runs gently through my hair

His big rough hands against my scalp feel like a gift wrapped in a pretty red bow, every now and then he kisses the top of my head, whispering if I need him to do anything

Each Time id shake my head and tell him to just hold me, truthfully I could use a damn cupcake or something since I'm a stress eater, but I'm not having Aaron stand up since he's still sore from the procedure,

My thoughts get interrupted my Aarons's phone ringing by his side

"It's my mom, she probably wants to know how I am" he whispers gently into my ear sending bolts of electricity to run throughout my body,

"Wait does she know about you donating your kidney?" I ask my face forming into a frown

He nods against my head "yes, I haven't talked to her since, after my surgery, I called her once to tell her it went well and that I am staying with you"

"You idiot your mom is probably worried sick wanting to see you," I lift my head my face most likely forming into shock

"Why don't you invite your parents here so they can spend time with you a little and see you," I tell him grabbing my phone to see if there are any new calls

"Your sure?" He asks hesitantly

"Of course there you're parents Aaron" I laugh

He talks with his mom for about 15 minutes

"Yeah, alright, okay, I love you too, okay bye," he says before ending the call

"Well looks like my parents are coming here in two days" he smiles

"Oh shit" I mumble with wide eyes

"What?" He questions

"I totally didn't realize that I'm going to meet your damn parents..." I groan letting my head fall back against his shoulder

"Oh God what if they hate me" I put a pillow to my face

"It's impossible to hate you sunshine, trust me I tried, that shit didn't work" he chuckles

He removes the pillow off my face and cups my cheeks "they will love you, trust me"

"I do trust you" I whisper, connecting my lips with his because it's almost impossible not to when there so close, I sigh in contentment the minute I feel his lips on mine

We get so lost in this kiss that I almost...

Almost.

Don't hear my phone ringing

I immediately pull away, and look in fear at my phone seeing the words "doctor man"

"Amazing contact name sunshine," Aaron says kissing the side of my face

"Throw the phone...oh God" I groan closing my eyes too scared to pick it up

"We're not throwing it away" he teases

"Can you please answer it?" I whisper, my fears are strong, the possibility that the doctor will say bad news makes me sick to my stomach

"Okay," he says quietly against my ear, slowly picking up my phone, taking a deep breath, and putting the phone up to his ear

I hear Aaron answer with 'yes' 'okay' 'right' 'I understand' 'thank you' 'so was it my kidney?'

My heart beating faster and faster, I feel too scared to breathe or blink as Aarons on the phone

He slowly ends the call and takes a deep breath

Oh no

No no no no

Please no.

Not Henry, he can't die, he was just getting a second chance at a new better life

"He's alive" Aaron breathes out putting his head in his hands

I immediately cry "oh thank God"

The relief is big inside my chest, most likely in both of us because we don't utter a single word

"Was it your kidney?" I barely manage to say after sitting in silence for a while

He shakes his head "no they said my kidney is doing perfect, it was his other kidney, they left it alone because it wasn't failing, they said they'd keep a close eye on it at his scans, but it ended up falling very fast and unexpectedly, so they took him to surgery and took it out"

"Okay, so he's alright then?" I whisper as I nod

"Yes, they have to keep him at the hospital for over a week to make sure, but they said he should be okay" he grabs my hand in his

I take a shaky deep breath in and out

"Okay, that's good" I nod trying to control my breathing

"You should go see him" he whispers squeezing my hand

"But I don't want to leave you, what if I come back and then you're on the floor dead or something" I start hyperventilating

"The doctor said there's no chance for something that major...maybe an infection but not death, stop worrying" he whispers cupping my face gently

"Go see henry," he says kissing my forehead

"But-" I start talking but then he cuts me off with his mouth...on mine

My body relaxes the minute he gently starts kissing me, my breathing evens out yet accelerates, all I feel and think is his touch, his lips, his woody vanilla scent

"Go to him Vanessa, I will be fine, I'll take a nap or some shit" he squeezes my hips

"Go make sure he's okay, or I'll get up and drive to work" he raises a brow challenging me

"You wouldn't...your stitches might open up" I shake my head

He smirks "well then you clearly don't know me" he starts standing up

"OKAY!" I say shooting up from my seat

He grins in victory

"You are an idiot" I whisper

"Who's idiot?" He raises a brow

"My idiot" I whisper kissing his lips

"Damn right I'm yours" he mumbles against my lips

"Okay my idiot, I'll be back soon" I kiss the tip of his nose

"Bye my sunshine" he yells out as I head for the door

I laugh "bye my moon" I yell back

"Oh and don't do any stupid shit while I'm gone" I yell out

I hear him laugh "like I ever do stupid shit"

I'm guessing I shouldn't answer that...

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"Oh thank God you're alright, you had us so worried henry," I say as I see henry laying in the hospital bed

"I'm fine kiddo, all good, guess I have just Aarons's kidney now" he laughs slightly

"I almost had a heart attack when I saw you laying on your bedroom floor" I whisper

"I'm okay, no need to worry about little old me" he smiles sadly

"How are you feeling?" I ask sitting at the edge of the bed trying to contain my tears

"Sore...very sore but I'll be alright" he nods

"As long as your okay" I sigh closing my eyes and briefly reminding myself that he's alive

He smiles "where's Aaron?" He asks

"He's back at my place, he pretty much pushed me out of the apartment to come here since I was scared something would happen to him" I laugh

"Someone's in love" he grins

"What? Who" I laugh nervously

He gives me a look "both of you, I see the way he looks at you and you look at him, it's impossible for you to not love each other" he shakes his head

"Plus the kid gave me his kidney because he knew how much I meant to you" he smiles big and wide

"If that's not love I'm not sure what is" he shrugs

"Maybe" I whisper smiling down at my lap

We talk for about an hour until henry starts getting tired

"Well I'll visit you tomorrow" I smile standing up

"I will see you tomorrow then, say hi to Aaron for me" he smiles

"Will do" I whisper

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When I get back to my place I see Aaron sound asleep on the couch clutching the stuffed animal frog that I brought him from his place to his chest,

Before I brought him over to my place, I drove to his after the hospital and grabbed some of his clothing and I of course grabbed his frog stuffed animal,

I smile as I look at him snuggling it, I quietly take a picture of him

My cute man.

I walk up to him after taking my shoes off, giving him a gentle kiss on his forehead

I gently wake him up "Aaron" I whisper kissing his ear

He hums in response "come on let me help you up, you need to brush your teeth and go to sleep" I whisper

"I'm fine over here" he mumbles

"so you don't want to sleep next to me, well ok then, sleep with the stuffed animal with my voice in it I guess that's better than me" I sigh as I shrug

I start walking away until his hand pulls me back over to him "don't be a brat" he huffs

I laugh "mhm looks who's wide awake now"

"Shush and help me up," he tells me

"Please" he adds after a couple of seconds

"Okay" I laugh kissing his cheek and helping him up

He hisses a little "you okay?" I whisper

"Yeah, it's just a little sore" he breaths deeply

"I'll give you another pain... I mean water before you go to bed" I smile gently

He hums "yeah water" he teases

"Yes water" I smile up at him as I walk him to the bathroom

"You need help brushing your teeth?" I tease

"Shush sunshine and get me my stupid water" he kisses my forehead and nudges me out of the bathroom

I laugh as I walk out to the kitchen

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After talking him through taking his pain meds, he kisses me Goodnight and then lays his head on my chest

"Goodnight my idiot " I whisper grinning

I feel him laughing against me

"Goodnight my beautiful brat," he says in a teasing tone while chuckling

I fall asleep with a big smile on my face

----notes----

Hope you enjoyed this chapter, I'm really sorry that it's super short but I've been busy 😭

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Also I didn't bother rereading it (oops) before posting it to make sure there wasn't huge mistakes because I'm HELLA tired, so I'm a just go take a nap😭

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