66. Will Break!

Arthur's POV

Emotions! It can either make you a human or fool. In Arabella's case, I am still deciding what it should be. She believes that she doesn't have emotions but very impulsively she took the bullet for her best friend.

The sudden adrenaline makes us do things, Arabella could have saved her friend without getting hurt but looks like emotions took over and she didn't think before reacting.

Now she is unconscious in my arms, bullet has just scratched her belly but the blood loss was heavy. I placed her down and let doctor treat her wound, he attached her hand with the bottle of blood. I watched her as blood dropped and travelled towards her vein.

I unbuttoned my shirt and exchanged it with fresh one as it was drenched in her blood.

"Go to your room, I'll stay here."

I sat beside her on the bed while talking to my brother who is acting lost recently.

He haven't leave her side since she has gotten injured, he didn't say anything but worry was prominent in his eyes.

Oliver was more active and fun loving than me, looks like Arabella's mission really shattered him.

It was actually a shock for both of us, but we reacted differently. I want to hurt her the same way she hurt us and he wants to just isolate himself form the suffering. I didn't know that Oliver would chose this way of dealing with his pain.

"You are not my Chief, don't tell me what to do."

Replied in his grumpy voice, still not taking his eyes off from her face.

I stared at her too. Can't deny, she still have that innocence on her face. Looks pure like an angel and divine like golden sunshine, until she starts fighting and slaughters people like she is cutting fruits. My heart still feels the shudder whenever she turns into monster from my innocent Dove.

The main reason of falling for her was the innocence she had, her face had serenity and that's what grabbed my attention.

It was escape from our dark world which was filled with ugly things and blood. I am sure that Oliver felt the same and that's why he was fascinated by her.

But only if we knew that she is not innocent bird but the Knight of the dark world. That hurts the most.

Also, the thought of whatever happened between us was fake, it was just an act for her is still igniting the flames inside me. I agree that she didn't kill us. For some reason she dropped her mission, may be she actually got attached to us and caught feelings but she didn't try to stay back either.

She chose to run away from everything, must have though that we would forget and move on after some days but she was never so wrong.

It's hard to read her, except the time where she looks at April with hate. That's the only hint she gives about being interested in us.

It's not easy to hate her, my stupid heart melts whenever I look at her face. It clenches in pain when she looks at me with those blank eyes.

But I can't forget the agony she has put me through. I have mourned for five years, each second was feeling like a death sentence. Each and every second I prayed for her presence and when she finally came, she shattered my world.

Now what do I do with her? I purchased her with the intention of hurting her but I don't have that much courage. She is the woman I loved and still love, no matter what she has done to me. How do I hurt her?

I tried to be a jerk and attempted to humiliate her by taking her virginity but there too she pulled my vulnerable side out. I just couldn't hurt her.

Tried to show her that she is not important by leaving her alone in the bed but my stupid heart didn't agree. It started eating me from inside until I came back and stayed by her side while she was in deep sleep, kept caressing her until it soothed her head and my pain. I know she is a strong woman now but for my heart, she is still that delicate dove and I couldn't leave her alone that night.

I don't want to show her that I care for her, yet leaving her bed before she wakes up was extremely hard. Stupid girl was making it difficult by coming for the practice. I know she didn't bleed but that doesn't mean she was fit for the intense workout.

Does she thinks that she is unbreakable? I want to break her, make her cry out emotions like I did, make her desperate for me the way I was for her, the way I cried for her existence. I want to see through her, want to watch her confessing her unfiltered feelings, want to see her vulnerable side which is not an act. And I will do it, I am going to rip off that facade from her face.

"As much as I know, you are getting married to someone else. Why are you even here?"

I mocked Oliver still watching my little brave slave who is unconscious.

Oliver stretched his feet on the bed and back on the chair.

"As much as I know, you already fucked her and got your revenge. Why are you here?"

Yes, I wanted him to think like that but now when he is saying it, why it's feeling offending?

"That was not my revenge. It was your loss."

"I'll feed you your own dick if you try to flex this thing again in front of me."

I smirked at his reply. As I assumed, he is jealous.

But have we really build that understanding among us, we are no longer fighting like dogs to have her. In fact, that night I wanted him to do what I was doing. It didn't feel like any competition.

Whatever the fuck it is, it's better that he gets married to April and then Arabella would be mine to deal with. I am a jerk, I know!

April knocked on the door and entered.

"How's she now?"

Her eyes inspected Arabella like she is worried for her. She isn't, it's obvious that Arabella's presence is red alert for her marriage.

"I am not a doctor."

Oliver replied still looking at Arabella's face, like he is painting her in his mind.

April cleared her throat awkwardly.

"I wanted to talk to you, regarding engagement! Dad will be here in the morning. We have to welcome him."

"It's 3am, you couldn't wait till sunrise?"

Oliver looked at her annoyed. Poor girl!

"I think, this is the most important thing for me rather than staring at a worker who is merely injured."

She snapped back and earned his glare in return.

"I don't give a fuck about engagement, do as per convenience and watch your tongue when you talk to me next time. Without your tongue you would be useless."

He threatened and she stormed out of the room.

He leaned back with closed eyes, taking a deep breath like he is stopping himself from sharing any information. I wonder what is he trying to do with all this. It's obvious that he doesn't want to marry April.

"If you don't want to marry her then why are you ruining her life?"

"Your presence is bearable when you keep your mouth shut, Arthur."

He mumbled, probably refraining himself from punching me.

"Blood is over."

I talked despite the fact he just asked me not to.

He opened his eyes and inspected the bottle, he threw his legs off the bed and got up to detach it from her arm.

We heard low groan and looked at her, she opened her eyes and blinked like a sleepy child and was lost for a minute.

Her eyes looked at me and Oliver like old times, that purity felt real.

"Arthur!"

She grabbed Oliver's hand while calling my name and he sat beside her so she doesn't hurt herself while moving.

"Yes, Dove?"

May be she didn't notice me and was asking him about me.

she blinked at me in sleepily and smiled softly.

"Oliver!"

Oliver looked at me and shook his head. It was now clear that she is under influence of drugs and that's why she is calling us like that. Even in her weakest, her hold was strong on our hands. Oliver tried but couldn't free himself from her, not because she was strong but because he was weak.

I smiled teasingly at him and slept beside her, he glared at me for a second and removed her hold from his hand. Arabella turned toward me to seek warmth by snuggling in me, her hand wrapped around my bicep as she made herself comfortable.

Don't worry, little lion. He will tag along soon and you will break before that.