Chat stop being mean to me :( ð¹
TW: just read at your own risk, no promises.
YONGBOK'S POV:
Currently 3am and yet my eyes are still open. It seems that everyday becomes worse, but luckily for Jisung and Yujun, i'm still holding on.
I went with Seungmin earlier, had a few drinks but then Bangchan showed up. He's so annoying i swear, he's so stuck up, its embarrassing, but hey at least Seungmin found another interest. I left after the first drink, i honestly didn't want to be there and drinking doesn't take anything off my mind, it just makes it worse.
I sighed looking down towards Yujun who slept on my chest, smiling. It's honestly shocking how light he is for his size, and he eats everything. He took fast metabolism a little too serious.
Fuck i miss him.... I'm trying to act like i'm not about to ball my eyes out right about now.
I gently set Yujun off of me and onto the bed, making my way to the bathroom. Just then i felt my face becoming damp. I seriously can't be distant any longer it's hurting me more than anyone could possible think.
That's it, i'm calling him.
Should i...?
I don't care i am.
I quickly picked up my phone, hands trembling, breathe hitched. I couldn't quite see yet, the tears took over me fully. My phone dropped to the floor, and so did i. This is too much for me to handle. Too many 'what If's' roaming in my mind. Too many thoughts taking over. I grabbed a few paper towels and dried up my emotions.
Man, i'm a mess.
Finally, the phone rang, im so nervous...I'd 100% understand if he doesn't picking up, it's very late for one...and for two....he might not want anything to do with me anymore.
But he answered.
"Yongbak-ah...? Is everything okay?" I could tell he was asleep from his voice.
"Hyunjin...you answered..?"
"Mm, i wouldn't... decline *yawn* or ignore your calls. So what's up?"
Guilty...
I could hear him waking up more, walking around his room.
I couldn't speak much, he'd know i was crying if i said anything, not like i could anyway, i have no words...Fuck Felix get it out.
"Felix-ya? Why are you crying?"
Damn, he's good.
"Can i.....can i come to you, please. I need to talk to you."
It was silence over the phone. The walking has stopped and his breathes was the only thing that was heard.
"This early?"
"If i wait any longer....i don't know what will happen to me."
There was another awkward silence over the phone, i can't stand this much longer, i'm becoming impatient.
"I'll be waiting."
I sighed in relief quickly grabbing my crocs and kissed Yujun goodnight. Sneaking downstairs, i turned off the voice controlled door that will sound once being opened. I honestly didn't want to wake my nosy mother up, i'll answer any questions she may have tomorrow.
It was some time before i finally made it to his house, the only light that was on was the one that was in his room, must've been the only one home. For the amount of time i've known Changbin, he's always the last one up and leaves on every light in the house.
It took me a minute to gather the courage to knock on the door but i did anyway. Not even 1 minute later before the door opened and i was welcomed inside, following him up to his room, and shutting his door behind me.
He sat down on the bed and look at me in confusion. I honestly couldn't look him in the eyes, i knew i'd burst into tears immediately, and i've had enough of crying. He gently grabbed my arm, pulling me beside him.
"By the way, i'm so sorry for pushing you earlier, i've been feeling guilty since then y'know? Did i hurt you in any way?"
I shook my head, yes it did hurt when he pushed me...but only mentally.
"That's good to know...Yongbok, talk to me. What's going on right now?"
That's when it all came out of me.
"I.....I...I miss you. I miss you so fucking much, Hyunjin. I've never fell for someone this hard.... or fast, it honestly scared me.... I'm just scared of being hurt again and again....Im scared i'm being used again and taken advantage of ...I'm sorry for everything, i really am. I'm sorry for overreacting, for being petty, for rejecting you so many times. I'm so sorry for not communicating with you properly. I just want......to see you again. To speak with you more. I want you only, Hyunjin.....No one else."
There it goes again, that trembling voice i can't control. I hate to admit something like that but why lie. I want him so much so that's the best option now, is to communicate with him. Yes, i was being a bit emotionally and yes, i am EXTREMELY embarrassed, but at this point so what. I'll do whatever it takes....
He slowly took my hands, pulling my chin up towards him. I sniffed a bit, and tried to blink the tears away, causing a single to flow. He softly smiled and gently wiped it with his thumb. I could feel my cheeks heating, i know it's not the time but he looks so sexy right now i'm about to pour kids into my pj's.
Finally, as i was locked into thought, i felt something warm touching my lips, when i finally realized it was his own. He pulled away, still caressing my face. I swear i'm going to explode.
"Lee Yongbok, you mean more to me than you think, you aren't just a body, you are a person, a beautiful soul, and not just any ray, but my ray of sunshine. I forgive anything you do, i'm just waiting on you to forgive me...Although it seems like you already have." He joked, i scoffed and pushed him making us both chuckle afterwards.
"So childish."
"I'm not going anywhere, Yongbok."
"Better not be."
He smirked before grabbing onto my waist and pulling me on top of him, acting like he was going back to sleep. I laughed at his childishness, i'm glad everything was back to normal, MUCH quicker than i thought it would be, and hopefully it will be this way for now on.
"Ah, Hyunjin-ah! I have to get going now, let me go!"
HYUNJINS POV:
"Why are you leaving? It's so late, stay with me." I cling into his waist not wanting to let go, almost ever. I've missed these days, where i could hold him in the middle of the night, speak to him without arguing, and most of all his scent...
"Agh, back to the clingy days i see, i'm not complaining. But i have to go back to Yujun, make sure he's okay."
"He's probably sleeping~. He's at your mothers house he'll be okay."
YONGBOK'S POV:
"Fine, i'll stay, but i'm going to him first thing in the morning."
He smiled and held onto me tighter.
I feel 100% better already. This was a huge need at the moment. I never knew somebody i barely met could impact my life this much. I looked back towards Hyunjin to see him smiling at me, both of us warm to each others touch.
"What are you smiling at?"
"You're gorgeous, Felix."
I smiled and placed a small peck on his rose lips. His face flushed after which made me giggle and roll my eyes, acting like that was the first kiss we ever shared. Suddenly his eyes dropped back to my lips, i could tell he wanted more, so i gave him more, connecting our lips in a manner of time. I swear this boy is a freak, his hands dropped down to my ass in less than a second.
I pulled away quickly and hit him on the chest.
"That's enough sir, you need to sleep you, look drunk as hell."
"I don't want to sleep now, i'm wide awake." He pouted before kissing me around my neck. I swear if he doesn't stop....
"Jin-ah!" I say pulling away. He smirked.
"You're teasing me now? You know what that name does to me." I hit him again, he shrugged it off and began kissing more around my neck. I couldn't help but to close my eyes in pleasure, neck kisses is most definitely on the 'what i missed the most' list.
I sat up on him, sitting on his stomach and looking down at him. He swears i'm so gorgeous, maybe he needs to look at himself, doesn't even look real right now.
"Stop running away from my love, that's not very nice." He folded his arms like a child and turned his head away from me.
"Am i finally yours again, Hyunjin...?"
"You've never stopped being mine, Yongbok. Don't you remember...."
He softly smiled and thrusted his hips up. I was caught off guard by the sudden action, falling on top of him but quickly catching myself with my elbows.
We were so close at the time, i breathes pushed together, eye contact being held like never before. I looked at him in confusion waiting for an answer. Hyunjin gently grabbed onto my neck, bringing me down to where he was now whispering into my ear.
"Once i'm inside of you,
you belong to me. The word only applies to you."
He moved away from my ear, and pulled me by the neck to where i was back hovering over him. I'm seconds away from giving up.
Seconds away...
Okay i give up.
Without hesitation, i connected our lips with long and want, he affects me in so many ways it's quite unbelievable. I heard a small grunt come from him, a bit of air leaving his lungs. He slowly began to give into the kiss, his hands guilefully moving down towards my ass, which he can't seem to get enough of grabbing. If i'm not mistaken, his hand print still might be there from a month ago.
Suddenly, his grip upon me tightened, rolling over to where he were hovering above me. He kicked my legs apart and shoved himself between them, then intertwined our hands together, pinning mine both to the bed.
"Mm, Jin-ah.." I whimpered as his lips and tongue spread through the surface of my neck.
(By the way if it's slanted it's most likely a moan, grunt, whimper, etc. Just think with you own mind.)
"I'm listening."
"I may have forgotten you 'word'.... Care to remind me?" He smirked, placing another aggressive kiss onto my lips.
"I could always teach you." His hand slowly gliding from mine and under my shirt. I sat up, helping him take it off of me and taking off his own. He pushed me back down, slowly going towards the lace of my pyjamas, pulling them untied with his teeth, and back up towards me. Such a tease.
Hyunjin suddenly grabbed his phone off the nightstand, opening it and seemed to start swiping through something. I looked up at him in confusion once he started pointing the camera down towards our clothed crotches touching and snapping a picture. I scoffed and chuckled.
"You're so disgusting." He chuckled before going down to my waistline, where he began to suck and nibble at my tattoo. I closed my eyes in pleasure and ran my fingers through his hair. "Fuck..."
Once he pulled away, i looked down at the now damp spot seeing a light purple mark by it, how does he do it so perfectly. I want to try but i don't want to embarrass myself, i've never gave someone a hickey before but i've had multiple....mostly from him, he's a damn vampire i swear. As long as he's around there will always be a mark on me somewhere.
I sat up to where i was now sitting in his lap, and he grabbed my waist for support. He was left confused when i suddenly pushed him back and slowly sliding my hand up his chest. I began to play with his nipples and his neck is where i sucked. He skin was soft around the area so it was kind of hard getting a grip but eventually i did.
"Ngh..." He whimpered and was that just hot as fuck. He hand instantaneously clung onto my waist, squeezing it a bit.
"Ugh, Lix..."
Let's just say mission success, maybe a little overboard on 'success'. Once i pulled away, i looked down to see three new, fresh, light-purple marks around his neck. I giggled at my work and was caught off guard guard by him picking me up and laying me back down into the position we were in before. He placed his hand on my hips for support as he slowly slid off my pants and underwear.
He started admiring my shape for a bit, tracing the outlines of my body with his fingertips.
"So beautiful. So perfect."
I smiled, pulling him closer to me, kissing him, but this time more passionately than before. I missed this so much, where he would compliment no matter the occasion, admire me, and just make me feel good in general.
I used my free hand to untie his joggers that he were still wearing, and he used his to slide them off. Finally, he deliberately opened his drawer, pulling out a bottle of lube and a condom from under his vase. I grabbed the condom from him and put it back.
"I want you this time, Hyunjin.
All of you....."
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