Chapter 230
I Am The Luna
Chapter 0230
SEBASTIAN.
The sound of the shower running fills the room and I sit on the bed, running my fingers through my hair
for the hundredth time.
How do I do this?
Thereâs no time leftâ¦
I have to leave herâ¦
Standing up, I leave the room silently and walk down the hall to the childrenâs room. The light to Jaiâs
room is on and I can hear quiet talking.
I hope for what itâs worth that his injury at least helped Valerie forgive him a little. To this day, I donât
think Jai was in his right mind when he ended up sleeping with Cara back then.
He had been so distraught I donât think he even knew who it was in that bed, simply rambling about
how he needed to find Valerie.
I make sure Iâm not making any sound as I slip into the childrenâs room and look at the two little angels
in bed. Theyâre fast asleep and I realise Iâm leaving them again.
Iâm always leaving them. I sit down on the bed and look down at Zion, running my fingers through his
dark hair.
Take care of your mom and this pack, son. Be the Alpha I never could be.
Why did she have to love me? Why did she have to be fated to a fool like me? All I do is hurt her even
when I donât want toâ¦
I look over at Sia, her pale cheeks are flushed with a pink hue, and her breathing is shallow.
He poisoned her⦠my little princessâ¦
I brush a few strands of her hair off her face. Itâs so similar to Zaiaâs⦠Sheâs going to grow up and look
just like her mother and she will grow up.
She will live a healthy and happy life.
I will get that antidote. Even if itâs the last thing I do, she will survive this and she will heal.
My heart clenches, the pain in my chest is almost crippling. Leaning down, I kiss
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her forehead softly, inhaling her scent.
Iâm sorry I wonât get to see you grow. I kiss her hand gently before I kiss Zion, knowing heâll grow up
strong.
Take care of your sister for me, son.
I close my eyes, trying to calm the storm that is bubbling inside of me. Casting a final glance at the
children, I stand up, not wanting Zaia to realise Iâm missing from the bedroom.
I get up, turning away and then stop. Turning back, I look down at them once more, questioning myself.
What kind of father is never there?
One you donât need.
I gaze at their faces, knowing Iâll never forget this moment.
I love you both so fucking much and I donât deserve you.
My eyes are stinging, but I take a deep breath, turning away for the final time and striding to the door. If
I look back, I donât know if Iâll be able to walk away with the strength I need.
Returning to the bedroom, I can still hear the sound of water. The shower is still running, and I silently
lock the door.
Pulling my top off, I get into bed, place my arms behind my head and close my
eyes.
I hear the shower switch off and after a few moments I hear her enter the bedroom, her scent mixed
with the smell of her bath productsâ¦.
Iâm going to miss thisâ¦
I keep my breathing steady as I sense her watching me before thereâs a rustle as she gets dressed.
There are a few moments of silence before I feel the bed dip and she slowly gets in between the
sheets, trying not to disturb me.
âHm,â she murmurs, and I feel her fingers gently comb through my hair. â Goodnight, handsome.â
My heart clenches as she leans in and gently kisses my forehead. The thudding of her heart already
making my resolve break.
I canât do this. Fuck, I canât leave her.
My eyes snap open, and sheâs watching me with concern. âHey, are you okay?â
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she asks, caressing my jaw. She must have picked up on the change in my heart
rate.
âYeah,â I say, unable to look directly into those amethyst orbs. Instead, I tug her close, wrapping my
arms around her tightly.
Her heart is thudding in rhythm to my own.
âBastienâ¦â she murmurs, and I pull her head to my chest.
I donât respond- I canât.
Not without giving myself away.
âBastien⦠talk to me,â she pleads through the mind link.
âItâs been a long day, Iâm just glad you are ok.â I reply quietly.
She makes the mistake of looking up at me, concern clear in her eyes