Chapter 62
I Am The Luna
HUGH. I look across at her. My head is bursting with incessant throbbing. I have drunk far too much,
but even then; it was not enough to drown out the suffering within my mind.
The turmoil of the past and present mix into one bubbling stew that is ready to explode. What exactly
did I do for the world and the Goddess if she is up there to work against me time and time again?
âDadâ¦â
She brings me from my train of thought, and I suck in a slow breath as I look at her. She is nothing like
her mother. I am truly proud of her.
âThereâs far too much to share, Zaia.â âIâm ready to hear it. You have been here for me father, let me be
here for you.â
I sigh heavily. Never have I felt so tired of carrying these secrets. âThe beginning,â I say as I tug free
from her hold and stand up. âThe beginningâ¦â
I walk towards the window and stare out at the moon. Do I tell her? There is so much that this might
changeâ¦
âZaia⦠there is no turning back from here. If I tell you the truth, then-â
âIâm ready for it,â I say quietly. Am I wrong to tell her? But if something happens to me⦠she should
know the reality.
âVery well then, I swear that everything I say is nothing but the truth. But I want you to remember that
regardless of what I tell you, it should not affect the way you see things and⦠it remains between us.â
âOkâ¦â She sounds worried and I look up at the moon. Itâs glowing brightly, almost soothing
Itâs time to share the burden that has been on my mind for years. The mistakes Iâve made, the betrayal
I was dealt, the sins Iâve committed⦠it is all becoming too much.
âI will go back to when it all began when everything was perfectly fine. When I was happy and content
with my mother. I didnât expect things to change overnight, but thatâs just how life deals its blowsâ¦
When you least expect it.â I begin, memories of the past begin to cloud my mind⦠Will it change things
between us?
âYou probably donât know this, since Iâm certain you would have mentioned it if your mother had told
you⦠but⦠I had a brother, he was a few years older than meâ¦â
She gasps, and I try to remain emotionless. âNo, Momâs never mentioned that.â She murmurs. âSo, she
didnât.â I canât help but smile bitterly.
Why does it still hurt? I nod slowly. âWell⦠his name was Adam, and he was all set to become the
future Alpha.â
(FLASHBACK TWENTY-FIVE YEARS AGO)
Where are they? I walk through the silent house, itâs too quiet.
Didnât Melanie say she was going to be spending the evening with friends? I was away on a business
trip and was not set to return until Friday, but after sealing the deal early; I was able to catch a flight
home two days earlier than planned.
I couldnât wait to spend the evening with her and surprise her, sheâll be happy to see me.
Itâs not even 10 pm yet. Where is she?
I pause in the archway to the lounge, spotting the two glasses of wine on the table and the half-empty
bottle.
I wouldnât call that a party. I sniff the air. I can only pick up Melanieâs and Adamâs scents.
Adam? Was he back in town? Maybe she changed her plans because he showed up. I take off my
jacket and put my small suitcase down, loosening my tie.
It sure was a long flight, but I wanted to get back quickly. I head upstairs to find her. Iâm halfway down
the hall to our bedroom when I stop outside the guest room, which Adam usually uses when he stops
by.
Despite being the firstborn, he hasnât found his mate, nor had he taken a Luna of choice, preferring his
bachelor lifestyle.
The door to the guestroom is open, and I pop my head inside but itâs empty.
I continue down the hall to my own bedroom when the sound of moans reaches my ears. My heart
thuds as I slowly step closer, fear clawing at me as a heavy weight settles in the pit of my stomach.
Maybe Adamâs brought someone back with himâ¦
I inch close to my room; the moans getting louder and sickening. I recognise that voice. Iâve heard it far
too many timesâ¦
Turn away Hugh, what you donât see, you donât knowâ¦
It wonât hurt Leave. But no, I have to know. The lamp is on, bathing the master bedroom in a warm
glow, and the door stands slightly ajar.
The sight before me is one that I will never forget. Melanie is on all fours on our bed as none other than
Adam, my brother, is pounding into her from behind.
Iâm frozen for a moment as she begs him to fuck her harder like âlast timeâ. I turn away as my entire
world crashes down around me.
My mate is cheating on me. My brother betrayed me. Silently I make my way back downstairs, I grab
my jacket and briefcase exiting the house silentlyâ¦.
(END OF FLASHBACK)
I spare her the details, telling her I saw her mother cheat on me with my brother. I was always the one
doing the workload⦠the boring one⦠of course, theyâd all prefer him. She gasps, but now that Iâve
begun, I canât stop.
âI returned the following day, and they both looked me in the eye as if nothing was wrong. I couldnât
bring myself to tell them I knew⦠and so I didnât. I kept it in. I went through grief, regret, pain,
betrayal⦠alone⦠As Melani pretended to love me, each day that passed only made the pain inside of
me fester.â
I stop when she places a hand on my back, but I canât look at her.
Sheâs my daughter⦠regardlessâ¦
âShe told me she was pregnant⦠I wasnât expecting that and after what happened I wanted to know if
the child was even mine⦠and so with the help of a doctor, at one of her check-ups I had a small
amount of amniotic fluid drawn from her without her knowing and then I had it tested against both mine
and Adamâs DNA.â
âNoâ¦â Zaia whispers, sounding horrified.
âDonât worry, you are my daughterâ¦â I say quietly. Her heart is thumping, and I grip the window ledge.
âKnowing I was the father, I decided to try to give it another chance, our fake relationship.â My voice
breaks and I stop.
âIâm so sorry,â she whispers, I turn to her, guilt filling me. Iâm causing her additional stress. As her
father, I should be the pillar of strength for her.
âYou are my daughter. Never apologise for something you had no hand in.â I say quietly, touching her
cheek. She looks down, and she reminds me of the child that was constantly pulled between us. I have
failed one child already.
âThen what happened? Where is he now?â she asks, her eyes glittering with tears. âAdam.â I sigh
before turning back to the moon.
âI thought the bond of fated mates would be beautiful, that sheâd soon see the er in her ways and return
to me. That this pregnancy would bring us closer. I made sure to give her attention and love. Yet⦠they
didnât stop their relationship. I kept an eye on them, and it continued.â
âHow could she⦠and then calling Annetteâ¦â She huffs and I can sense her disappointment.
âMelanie was in her last trimester when Adam was telling me about a woman who he is seeing but
luckily sheâs in a relationship so he doesnât need to worry about committing⦠How her mate is an idiot
who didnât notice what was right beneath his nose.
Thatâs when I lost it. In my rage, I killed him.â I say closing my eyes, remembering pulling out that gun
and shooting him square in the chest.
âOh, my goddessâ¦â Zaia murmurs, shocked. He died with that smirk on his faceâ¦
âAnd thatâs when Annette came into the picture.â My eyes glimmer with rage as I remember her words
from back then.
âWhat, so you two werenât together by then?â she asks, confused. âBut she was pregnant at the same
time as Mom.â
I turn and look at her sharply. âI donât think you understand, Zaia. I have never been with another
woman since I met your mother. I never cheated on her.â I say quietly. Her eyes widen as she stares at
me, and I frown.
âAnnette gave me an ultimatum, accept her and her child, make her Luna, and she will never tell
anyone what I did. I killed the future Alpha⦠that could have cost me life in prison or death. So, I
accepted. I was already angry at your mother and wanted to hurt her the way she hurt me; I fabricated
the story that I had an affair. I thought sheâd tell me the truth. Seeing her so devastated over Adamâs
death only strengthened my resolution that this was the perfect revenge.â
I walk to the chair and sit down again, feeling tired. Slumping forward in the seat, I stare at the
hardwood floor.
âIn my rage, I made more than one mistake and let her blackmail me. After that, anytime I didnât do
what Annette wanted, she would threaten me with exposing my truth. And so, I did as she asked â
every time, even
distancing myself from you. She never knew about what happened between Adam and Melanie, I kept
that a secret, wanting to take it to the grave⦠After Dad passed away, I was made Alpha and I
continued with my life, trying to let go of the past.â
There⦠itâs all on the table. She kneels on the floor in front of me, sitting with her legs tucked under
her, her hands in her lap. Tears stream down her cheek as she looks back at me.
I didnât tell her for fear sheâd deem me a weak father, but she was the strength that helped me carry on.
âYou⦠you were always in the right and all those hurtful things I said to youâ¦â she whispers.
I look at her. âThereâs no satisfaction in proving someone wrong or right⦠I committed a crime by killing
him too⦠I should have owned up to it but I didnât want to throw away my life,â
âAnd until this day, Mom doesnât know? Sheâs always acted like sheâs innocent after what she didâ¦â
she says. Thereâs confusion in her eyes as she looks up at me. I sit back, feeling the weight of carrying
that secret ease slightly.
âOf course, Adam was gone. She knew, or so she thought anyway, that no one else knew her dirty
secret. We were still fated, and she thought I cheated on her. Seeing her feel betrayed was satisfying.â
I scoff humourlessly.
âI was often tempted to ask her why⦠but with Adam dead, I didnât want anything pointing in my
direction. His death was written off as an accident and no proof was ever found. Something that
devastated our parents.â
There is still a part of me that is attached to her⦠a part that yearns for her, but that is just this
wretched bond. âIâm sorry, Dad,â Zaia whispers, looking up at me. âIâm so sorry.â
I donât respond, knowing if I did, it would only hurt more. We remain in silence and itâs comforting as
she rests her head on my knee.
âBut⦠Annalise⦠sheâs not your daughter then?â she asks after a few moments, raising her head. I
shake my head slowly in confirmation as she ponders over it.
âIâve never slept with Annette. That woman is with me only for the status and image of being a woman
in a position of power.â âBut Annalise does look a little like me ..â she says.
I smile bitterly; ah⦠the icing on the cake.
âOf course she does. She also looks like her mother. You can call it some form of twisted solace, but
when I learned of Annetteâs identity, I realised that it was indeed karma. After all, Melanie may not know
it, but Annette is her half-sister.â A/N: Please keep the comments on social media free from spoilers! To
my reader Melanie! Iâm so sorry that this chapter fell on your birthday! Forgive me for doing your name
dirty and happy birthday! XD