"Juliaaaa!" Corey sang as Colby and I came into the room. "Hi, Corey." I said then gave him a hug.
"You guys are acting like she wasn't at your house like three days ago." Colby said as Corey shrugged.
"You guys left really fast." He said as I sat on the couch, pulling my legs to my chest.
"Yeah, you didn't even say goodbye brother." Jake said as Colby chuckled.
"We had to get out of there, not that it mattered because there was a tracking device in Julia's leg. How's that feeling by the way?" He asked and looked at me.
"Hold on, there was a tracker in your leg?" Sam asked as I nodded. "It feels fine." I said with a shrug.
My leg still hurt but it burned a lot less than it did when it had that piece of metal in it.
"Great. So we need to think of a plan." Colby said and clapped his hands.
"I was thinking that Sam and I go and try to get them before they get Julia." Colby said as my heart sank slightly.
"Isn't that dangerous? They want to kill you, after all." I said causing him to smirk.
"I'm not worried about them, sweetheart." He said causing Jake's brow to scrunch.
"I thought you guys weren't back together." He said as I shook my head. "We're not." I said as Colby stared at me with intensity.
I stared back, feeling like everyone else in the room was melting away.
His eyes were so intensely staring into my own that I could feel myself melting from his gaze.
I was snapped out of the haze by Sam clearing his throat.
"Anyways. I think it could be a good idea to find them but do you have any idea where they are or how many of them there are?" Sam asked as Colby ripped his eyes away from me.
"No idea. I had the guy posing to be Jules' boyfriend held hostage, but my idiot men weren't watching him enough." Colby said as Corey chuckled.
"You had a boyfriend?" He asked and nudged my arm. "Unfortunately." I grumbled and crossed my arms.
"Damn, you really know how to pick them." Jake teased. "Yeah." I said as Colby shook his head.
"Enough. It's not her fault that he pursued her. Even if she didn't want him, he would have gotten her." Colby said then started pacing.
"We need to be a step ahead and we aren't right now." He said and ran his hand through his hair.
"Do they know who we are?" Corey asked. "They may not." Sam said with a thoughtful tone.
"We send Jake and Corey out to find them, once they are found we strike." Colby said with a slow nod.
"Nice! We get to do the cool stuff for once." Jake said as Sam narrowed his eyes.
"I thought you wanted a break." He retorted. "Yeah, from the boring shit." He said as Colby looked at me.
"What do you think, Jules?" He asked as I shrugged. "Doesn't matter." I said quietly.
It looked like Colby wanted to say something but he didn't, instead he looked at Jake and Corey.
"Pack up and get ready to go." He said to them, then looked at me. "Stay here, I need to talk to you." He said as Jake and Corey left to go get their stuff.
"Don't have too much fun." Sam said with a laugh as he left the room.
"Yes?" I asked as he sighed and leaned on the wall.
"What's going on?" He asked with a sigh. "What do you mean what's going on?" I asked blandly.
"You've hardly spoken or argued. Something is up." He said as I nodded. "What's the point in arguing anymore. You're gonna do whatever the fuck you want to do." I said quietly.
"That's what I'm worried about. I'm losing you." He said as I narrowed my eyes.
"You never had me back to begin with." I said as he sighed. "Because you're broken." He said and crouched down to be eye level with me.
"Just let me help you, Jules." He said and put his hands on both sides of my face.
My eyes watered as I shook my head. "I can't let you do that." I said quietly, my voice cracking.
"I can't do it, because there's gonna be a moment where you won't want me around anymore." I said and took his hands, forcing him to let me go.
"Julia...please just try to believe me when I say that it was a mistake. What I did to you was a mistake." He said as I shook my head.
"Please, just let me go." I said and stood up. "Jules.." Colby said as I shook my head. "I can't." I mumbled then left the room.
My eyes were watering and my chest was tight as I quickly made my way up the stairs. When I got to my room, I slammed the door and went to get in bed.
I was sick of feeling like I was going to fall apart.
Life was confusing and scary right now and I didn't think I could handle the pressure anymore.
Everything would be better if I was gone or out of Colby's life completely.
I cried into my pillow, hugging myself while the world crumbled around me.
"Hey.." Colby said as he walked up to me. I was so caught up in my emotions that I didn't even realize he had come into the room.
"Please leave me alone." I sobbed out as he sat on the bed, pulling me into his embrace.
He didn't say anything as he held me close, scratching my back gently.
"I don't want to do this anymore. I can't do this anymore." I sobbed. "Shhh." Colby shushed then kissed my head, hugging me.
I sobbed into his chest, letting myself break once again in my ex lover's arms.
I sobbed for a while, letting all of my emotions spill out of me. I cried until I was weak and emotionally drained.
"I can't have you talking like that." Colby said quietly, resting his cheek on my head. "You can't control every part of my life." I whimpered.
"Julia, I just care about you. I can't have you going all suicidal on me." He said and pulled away from me slightly.
I looked up at him, tears still falling down my cheeks.
Colby sighed and brought his hand to my cheek, wiping my tears away.
I looked into his eyes, feeling myself getting lost in them.
"I can't live in a world where I know I got you killed." He said quietly. My heart broke at those words because he knew if I were to take my life it would be his fault.
I think he finally understood how badly he fucked me up.
I watched as he studied my features, wiping my cheek gently with his thumb.
There was so much concern and pain in his eyes, as if he wanted to say something but he couldn't.
I wanted to say that I was able to stay strong and hold my ground but before I knew it I was pressing my lips to his.
Colby immediately reacted to the kiss, tightening his arms around me. I gasped as he pulled me into his lap, running his tongue along my bottom lip.
I opened my mouth to him, moaning slightly at how good it felt to be kissing him.
I hated how good it felt to be kissing him.
I needed to stop.
Colby moaned as he pulled at the bottom of my shirt, pulling it off.
"Fuck." He whispered, groping my ass as he attached his lips to my neck, sucking at the sensitive skin.
"Colby." I whispered, leaning my head back so he had more room to kiss.
"Yes, darling?" He mumbled against my neck. I felt my core ache at the pet name. I wanted him to put that flame out so badly.
No. I had to stay strong.
"We can't."I said and put my hands on his chest, pushing him away.
"Jules, you can't hide your feelings. You can't deny the attraction." He said and brushed my hair behind my ear.
"We can't do this." I said and stood up, grabbing my shirt. "Yes, I'm attracted to you and you're clearly attracted to me but I can't put myself through the heart break again." I said as my eyes watered.
"Where are you going?" Colby asked as I shook my head. "I don't know but I can't stay here with you. I can't do this again." I said and started to leave.
"Julia, wait." Colby said and stood up, taking my hand.
"I know you're scared and I know you're hurting but I won't hurt you again. Give me another chance." He said as I shook my head.
I knew I was broken and that he was meaning what he was saying but I physically couldn't do this to myself again.
I couldn't let myself fall back in love with the person who broke my heart.
Who was I kidding though, I had already fallen.