Betrayed and Broken

BECCA

The next morning, I was the first to wake up. Logan was still asleep, almost on the edge of the bed. He was too afraid to lie closer to me, so he just moved away from me as far as possible. I felt warmth spreading through my veins. He was a perfect guy.

Every girl would be happy to have him as her boyfriend. Who knows, maybe soon he will return to the dating market. Hookups and one-night stands didn't suit him well.

I took my phone. It was 6 am. Then I saw an incoming call from Chase. I silently climbed out of bed and tiptoed to the hallway.

“Hey, Chase. Why so early?”

“I went for a run, then I saw I had missed your call and decided to call you back. Wasn't looking at the time. Sorry.”

“It's okay. I just woke up.”

“Were you calling me last night for a reason or did you just want to talk?”

“Tell me. Do you still want me to visit you?”

“As if you needed to ask. Of course!” Chase sounded very enthusiastic. But then, his tone of voice changed. “What happened?”

“I guess, yesterday, my past mistakes backfired on me.”

“What the hell are you talking about?” He stopped running, and now he was staying in one spot.

“Well... I decided to surprise Drew and came one evening before he expected me.”

“Don’t tell me that he…”

“Uh huh. Caught him red-handed.” I bit my lower lip, trying not to cry.

“Have you confronted him?”

“No... I saw him with a girl, she kissed him, and they went inside the house. I... I was... I stayed in my car.”

“Becca... You should have gone and banged on his door. If only he knew that you…”

“What? Should I have stopped him before he made a mistake? I am sorry, Chase, but I always thought that you needed to stay faithful to a person you are in love with. No matter how long you hadn’t seen him.”

“True. When do you want to come?”

“I will look for flights today, and well, I guess I will need to talk to Drew. So maybe tomorrow?”

“Don’t rush things, Becca, and don’t buy a ticket before your talk with his shitty ass.”

“Okay. I will call you later.”

“Stay strong, babe. I know it’s hard, but you are capable of anything. I am sure of it.”

“Yeah, bye!”

“Bye!”

I stared at my phone for a few seconds, then I just sighed and walked back to Logan’s room. I tried to move as silently as possible, but unfortunately, I banged my toe on the table and squealed in pain. Logan sat up abruptly on the bed. He was so adorable with his sleepy eyes and messy hair.

“Where were you?” Logan’s voice was hoarse.

“Talking to Chase.” Logan glanced at his phone on the bedside table and gave me a quizzical look.

“At 6 am?”

“Yes,” I shrugged my shoulders and went to the bathroom.

While I was washing my face, I saw Logan coming into the bathroom too. He leaned on the doorframe and stared at me. His t-shirt was all crumpled because he had slept in his clothes. I glanced at him from time to time. He had a frown on his face, and I didn’t like it. Not even a little bit.

“What are you planning to do?” Logan asked as I walked past him to the room.

“Well, I am going to change and go straight to your best friend’s house. Chase is right. I needed to confront him yesterday. Why did I wait? Stupid decision!”

“Okay, and then what?” I rummaged through my stuff in my backpack until I found the sweater I brought with me. I stayed with my back turned to Logan, so I just took my t-shirt off and put on my dark-green knit sweater. To change my shorts into my jeans, I needed to use a bathroom.

“Then? I will look for flights.” I took my jeans and toothbrush with toothpaste and went to the bathroom.

“To Chase?”

“To New York.” I wanted to close the door, but he didn’t let me do that.

Okay. Let’s have it your way, Logan. I had the same talks with Drew, and now Logan acted the same? Fucking bullshit!

I took off my shorts and put on my jeans. I felt Logan’s eyes on me, but I didn’t care. He had seen me naked before, he saw me in my swimwear. So why did I need to feel ashamed?

“I will go with you.” Logan walked inside the bathroom and washed his face.

After that, we stood close, brushing our teeth. We barely looked at each other. The moment we shared yesterday was long gone. All because of his suspicions about my relationship with Chase. I was faithful. Always. No matter what.

Loyal to my friends, to my boyfriends, and what did I get in return? Nothing good. But now at least I know. All of our decisions came at a price.

My sex with Logan, while he wasn’t single, was the confirmation. Now I was paying for Melanie’s pain and tears. I guess it was the reason why I didn’t let myself cry because I deserved this to happen to me—this pain in my chest and the tears I was holding back.

When we finished, I put my stuff in my backpack and went downstairs. Logan changed into his hoodie and jeans from yesterday very quickly and now was coming down to join me.

It was 6:40 when I started my car and drove us to Drew’s house. When I stopped, all of my bravery was gone. I was afraid of seeing his face and of seeing the girl, but I needed it. I sighed and climbed out of the car. Logan followed me, and now we were walking to the front door.

“Rebecca, wait…” Logan stopped me in my tracks while I was ready to ring the bell. “It might be hard for you. What if…”

“If she’s still here, it will make everything easier,” I answered curtly and placed my finger on the doorbell. I didn’t take it off. I was waiting. Maybe two minutes later, we heard cursing behind the door, and a second later, it opened, revealing Drew only in his boxers.

Right now, that familiar look only brought bitterness to my mouth. Was I that stupid to believe that he could have changed for me?

“Becca? Logan?” Drew’s eyes went wide with surprise. He wasn’t expecting to see us at his door. This situation was in my favor. I knew where his room was, so without words, I rushed past him inside the house. “What… Becca, wait…”

Drew was flabbergasted; it was the only reason why he didn’t react properly. He tried to catch me, but I was the first to reach the door to his room. I placed my hand on the doorknob and pulled it open. When I looked inside, my insides froze.

She was there. The girl from yesterday. She was in his bed. Naked. Only the blanket was wrapped around her waist, hiding her ass. She turned around and saw me. She gasped with surprise and tried to hide her body under the blanket.

Her body was good, I could admit, but her face was so ordinary that I wouldn’t have even looked at her twice.

“Drew, what’s going on? Who are you?!” Her voice was an octave higher than mine.

I know that I was reacting like that because he hurt me, but all in all this girl was a factor of annoyance to me.

“Me? Don’t mind me. I am just this moron’s ex-girlfriend.”

“Becca! Let me explain.” Drew clasped my hand and tried to stop me. But I pulled it away and strode to the exit. Logan was still outside.

When our eyes met, I saw so much sadness in them that I felt my eyes water, even if I tried not to show how painful it was for me.

“Five minutes. You have five fucking minutes to put your clothes on and throw that girl out of your bed. Either way, I wouldn’t even listen to you.”

“Of course!” Drew rushed back inside while I went straight to Logan and just hid my face in his chest. He wrapped his hands around my shoulders and held me close.

“You okay?” I heard Logan’s whisper in my ear.

I only shook my head. Would I be able to forget about it? Drew was my second boyfriend, and it was my second boyfriend who cheated on me. I loved him so much that now it was hurting me like hell. This was a nightmare, and I couldn’t wake up from it.

“Don’t go, Becca. Don’t go to Chase, please.”

I didn’t have the opportunity to answer him. The front door opened, and the girl rushed outside. She gave me one dirty glare, and with that, she was gone.

I stepped away from Logan and saw Drew walking out of the house. Usually, he radiated power and confidence, but today his shoulders were down, and he was totally out of his comfort zone. He knew that he was guilty, and he knew that there probably wasn’t coming back from this for us.

“And? Who was she?” I asked Drew. I was wondering, did it really matter?

“She works for my dad’s friend, and we had a project together. Becca, it didn’t mean anything. It was just a mistake.”

“A mistake worth the price of our relationship.”

“Becca, I love you... I really do.” Drew stepped closer.

I stepped back from him and bumped into Logan.

“Forgive me, please. You are the only woman on my mind. Sex with her was a fucking mistake, which I made because I was drunk, and she has been hitting on me for almost two months... I don’t know what came over me! Becca?”

“You knew about Adam. I told you everything and even how badly I was hurt by it. No one. No one knew about it except for you. Not even Kate.

“I kept a straight face in front of those people, while it was just an act. And now you are saying that it was a mistake? I can’t trust you anymore! How could I?”

“Babe, I am so, so sorry... You are my everything. You are the most important person in this whole world to me... You know that.”

“I knew that. But now? I wonder how much of your words were a lie. All of it?”

“Becca, don’t do this. I’ve made a mistake. But I am ready to do everything for your forgiveness. Whatever it takes.”

“Don’t do what, Drew? You screwed up. You. Now, you are telling me not to do this? You did that. You ruined everything. I came here last night, I wanted to surprise you. I thought you missed me…”

“I did! One month without you was horrible!”

“Yeah. So horrible, that without second thoughts, you cheated on me! Without thinking about how it would be for me if I knew! Because you were sure that I wouldn’t be here until today. You had time. You weren’t afraid that I might catch you. You didn’t give a damn about me or our relationship!”

“Becca, dammit! Listen to me!” He reached to grab my hand, but Logan moved fast and now was standing in front of Drew, shielding me from him.

“Don’t touch her, Drew.” Logan’s voice was barely audible, but he was full of determination and power.

“What the fuck?! What are you even doing here?!” Drew sounded angry, furious even.

“She called me yesterday. After she saw you with that girl. I called you, but you were too busy banging Natasha in your bed. All that you needed to do was to use your head, not your dick.”

Drew and Logan were staring at each other. They both were radiating anger while I remembered Logan’s mother and her words, that they always would choose one another.

They had been best friends for years. They defended each other. They stood up for each other. They were ready to cover any lies if it meant helping their friend.

“You said Natasha,” I spoke softly, and Logan turned to me quietly. It was like in slow motion. Everything became crystal clear. Yesterday, when I called him, he knew. He knew exactly who Drew was with. He knew and hid this from me. His best friend was more important to him.

“Rebecca, I…” I saw how he nervously gulped down and fell silent.

“Oh my God!” I turned around and rushed to my car.

Drew and Logan followed me. I was sure that both of them wanted to stop me, but they were both afraid to do so. I opened my car and slid inside; Drew caught my door before I was able to slam it in their faces.

“Becca, please, stay. Let’s talk. Let me explain everything to you. Please. I fucked up, and I know it. But I am telling you this, and it’s true. I love you like I never did before. You taught me how to love. You showed me what it means to be loved by someone. Let me fix this mess. Babe, please…”

“I can’t, Drew. I just… I need time to think.”

“Becca, I get it, but please, don’t shut me out... I will give you time, as long as you need. But don’t end our relationship like this.”

“Okay.” I nodded at him, and he relaxed a little.

He was hesitant about what to do, but he leaned in and placed his lips on my cheek. I didn’t feel anything from this touch. He closed my door as I started the engine and turned my head to look at the two men. They were standing shoulder to shoulder, hands in their pockets. Two perfect liars.

They were watching me. I rolled my window down and looked at both of them before saying, “We will talk, Drew, but only after I return from New York.

“For now, give me time. As for you, Logan, I'm not so sure that I want to talk to you about anything. You knew, and you acted so surprised... Shit, I am so gullible!”

After that, I was gone. I didn’t look back at them. It didn’t matter anymore. Deep down, I knew. I wouldn't be able to forgive Drew, not for cheating. I wouldn't be able to forgive Logan for his lies. My relationships with both of them were ruined because there was no trust.