|31| just period things

Be patient,

Be loving,

Be kind,

Be gentle.

~unknown

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Another week comes and goes, I'm exiting the bathroom when I feel a stab of pain in my stomach, it attacks my body in quick jabs, I crawl quickly back into bed as I groan,

"What's wrong?" Aaron asks tugging me close, my back to his warm chest,

"My stupid period that's what" I whine in pain

"Did you bring anything from your place to help with the pain?" He asks sliding his hand on my stomach, the immediate warm from his hand fills me with slight relief,

I shake my head "keep your hand here it's warm" I mumble

He pulls me flush against his body and puts both of his hands on my stomach "does that help a little?" he asks

I nod and lean into his touch,

I think periods are the stupidest thing out there...why the hell is my body being punished for not having a child?

Like yeah, I want one but like not right this second...

I put my hands on top of Aaron's to apply pressure so its warmer,

"How are your hands always so warm?" I whisper

He chuckles "how are your hands always so cold?"

"Smart ass" I mutter

My periods are very irregular sometimes I won't get a period for a couple of months and then boom she's back, it's quite annoying and can be unpredictable,

"Is there anything else I can do to help?" he asks

"Yes you can keep your hands where they are and shush please" I frown

I feel the vibrations of his laugh which usually would make me happy, but right now while I'm in pain it's annoying me that he's not staying still,

"Okay, get rest I love you," he says gently kissing my ear

I hum in response because I'm in too much pain to talk,

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A couple of hours later I wake up and see Aaron typing away on his computer but one of his hands is still on my stomach, I smile as I look at him,

He notices my shuffling and looks over at me "how do you feel?" he asks rubbing his hand over my stomach in circles which helps

"Better when you do that" I point to his Hand

He smiles and continues rubbing circles on my stomach, "I put a bunch of different chocolate on your nightstand if you want it and there's water and an Advil" he says nodding to the nightstand on my side

I look over to see a bunch of different chocolates, water, and Advil like he said, I smile at how sweet he is,

I don't even notice I'm crying until Aaron wipes my tears "why are you crying?" He asks gently

"thank you," I say hugging him and hiding my face in the crook of his neck, ignoring his question,

He strokes my hair and kisses the top of my head

"What do you want to eat?" He asks

I peak at the time to see its 12 "geez I slept in" I mumble

He laughs slightly "shouldn't we be at work?" I ask

"You're my assistant you should know I have no meetings today, I can work from home and be fine today" he shrugs

"My brain doesn't work right now, can we have sandwiches?" I mumble into his neck

"The same one you always get?" He asks

I nod "thank you"

He kisses my head and calls the sandwich place,

About 15 minutes later he walks to the door to grab the sandwiches,

He seems to be taking too damn long and I'm hungry,

So I walk over to the door to see him talking to a girl

"Aww come on I'm sure your girlfriend won't mind, I mean hey I can even join you guys for some fun, I'm really over my shift...and most men don't mind" she smiles

What the hell is up with these damn delivery girls...do they hire them with the intent that they flirt with people?

"I said I'm not interested so if you can give me the damn sandwiches before I call security that would be great," Aaron does well at not screaming at the girl, but the anger radiating off his body is very clear in my eyes,

"I swear to God if you don't give me my damn sandwich I might just go into the kitchen grab a fork and stab you in the eye," I say walking over to the girl

I took the Advil not too long ago so my cramps are not too bad, but my attitude from not eating is very high right now,

The girl stares at me but doesn't do anything she looks me up and down "are you sure you're not interested in a group thing?" the girl smirks looking at Aaron

What the hell...?

I start laughing walking towards her and snatching the sandwich bag out of her hands "yeah I think I'll keep my boyfriend to myself, thanks but no thanks"

I grab some money out of my purse throw it out at her and close the door in her face,

I then walk back to the warm comfortable bed and grab my sandwich and place Aaron's on his nightstand, how the hell is this man's bed so comfortable?

Seconds later Aaron walks in and I can see his tongue going over his teeth, he walks over and sits next to me,

As I'm unwrapping my sandwich I feel eyes on me, I don't bother looking at Aaron because I'm too damn hungry,

"You should probably eat instead of staring at me," I say

"I am not sure whether to be turned on by how hot you were, or annoyed that you used your own money," he says shaking his head

I smirk "you could always be both," I say before biting my sandwich

A moan escapes me,

"I was going to say save those noises for the damn bedroom but that would've made more sense if we were in the kitchen," he says unwrapping his sandwich

"Does blood scare you?" I ask after a laugh,

"Its blood..." he says

I give him a look that says he needs to elaborate

"No, I'm not scared of some damn blood, unless you're

bleeding out on the floor," he says

"So you don't mind period blood?" I ask with a slight smirk

"No why?" He asks

"Well I read somewhere that having sex on your period can help with cramps," I say nonchalantly before taking another bite of my sandwich

"Just pointing out," I say after I chew

He hums "then I guess we will have to try it out tonight won't we?" He whispers in my ear

"You don't care that all your sheets might turn into a bloody crime scene at the end?" I raise a brow

He inches forward and against my lips says "as long as it feels good for you and it helps your pain I don't care, plus there's nothing a washing machine can't fix...and if that doesn't work I have spare sheets"

I connect our lips for a short kiss and then go back to eating my sandwich, I lean on his shoulder,

I suddenly get annoyed since my emotions are all over the place,

"It's so damn unfair that you're so hot like we can't even get food in Peace without a girl throwing herself at you" I huff rolling my eyes

I hear Aarons's deep husky chuckle "jealousy are we?" He whispers in my ear, making me even more irritated

"Annoyed more like it" I huff

He chuckles and puts his fingers under my chin and guides my face to his "just know that no matter how many may be interested in me the only one I will ever want is you"

I suddenly feel emotional "promise?" I whisper

He sighs and connects our lips in a slow and sweet kiss "I promise" he whispers

He wipes the lonely tear that made its way down my cheek "stop crying I would never leave you"

"I think it's my period, I know I deserve the best and that if you cheat then you don't deserve me but I think my emotions aren't getting the message" I shake my head

"I would be a stupid fool to cheat on a girl like you and mark my words I am no fool," he says sternly

"Got it sunshine?" He says running his fingers gently over my chin then lips, to my Cupid's bow

"Yeah" I whisper

"Good," he says kissing me again

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A little later I decide to read a page in my dad's journal

Dear buttercup~

I love you so much my beautiful girl and I hope you are doing well in life, I'm not sure how old you will be when you read this but how ever old you are I hope you understand that I miss you every day, but that I don't regret giving your mother a second chance at life, I think in this entry I will explain why I decided to do it, when you fall in love you will realize that you would do just about anything for that person and that's what I felt with your mother, she was dying and needed a second chance at life, and we had you a precious baby girl who needed a mother to guide her through life, I'm very honestly sorry I couldn't be there as your father but know that I forever wish to be, there are things a mother has to teach a child that a man simply can not, a child needs her mother, and so I was willing to make the sacrifice of losing my precious girls to give you a mother, and you might be mad at me but that's okay one day you will understand that I did it out of my love for you and your mother, I very much hope you're doing well in life buttercup and I hope you're happy and safe.

~with all the love in the world your dad ♡︎

"You okay?" Aaron asks after I wipe my tears

"Yeah I was just reading a journal entry from my dad," I say quietly

"Come here," he says gently

I immediately scoot over to him and get engulfed in a hug,

"I love your hugs, they make me feel safe" I whisper nuzzling myself closer to him and inhaling his wood, spice, and vanilla scent that has my knees weak,

"Well I'm happy I'm able to make you feel safe," he says quietly as he draws circles on my back with his finger,

I don't answer him I just cling tighter to him, and ending up falling asleep,

I'm getting more tired lately, I think it's my periods doing and certainly not because I don't exercise...

"I love you my moon" I whispered looking up at him

"I love you my sunshine" he gives me a warm smile

"Forever?" I whisper

"And always" he nods

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I wake a little later to Aaron running his hand along my back in a soft manner that completely melts me to the floor,

He notices I'm awake and stops his hand movements to which I groan in response "don't stop that" I whisper still half asleep

He lightly chuckles and continues gently tracing shapes on my back and running his fingers up and down my spine while he works on his computer,

Just like he was this morning, and he hasn't complained once this whole day, which just makes me love him even more,

I sigh in contentment and smile with my eyes closed "I love you and your wonderful hands" I whisper

"And I love you" he chuckles while giving my shoulder a gentle squeeze

"What time is it?" I ask

"It's 10 pm," he says

I nod and scoot closer to him until I'm half straddling him, my cheek rests on the side of his face

He wraps his hands around my waist, "You still tired?" He asks as his lips tickle my ear

"A little," I reply

"You hungry?" He asks running his fingers through my hair,

I nod a little, and close my eyes, focusing on his amazing fingers gliding through my hair, the massage type feeling is incredible,

"Is there anything you want me to make or order?" He asks

"Maybe pizza or something" I hum

"Does it matter what kind?" he asks

I laugh a little "we have been dating for months now, I think you should know I'm not that picky with food"

"Fair enough, I will be back in about an hour"

I frown in confusion "an hour?"

"I'm making it from scratch, it's way better than the shit that comes in 15 minutes to your door, plus I have premade dough in the freezer that I made a couple of days ago," he says kissing my forehead

"Aaron you don't have to make me a damn pizza just order it" I huff

"First off sunshine, I love cooking so I would probably be making something to eat even if you weren't here, and secondly I want to make you a pizza so stop being a brat," he says

I sigh and grab his face and peck his lips "thank you" I say with my eyes closed

I hear his chuckle "you're so damn sleepy" he mutters quietly after kissing my cheek

So I'm tired on my period...sue me

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About an hour later I get woken up by Aaron trailing kisses on my jaw down my neck,

A mixture of a slight moan and groan escapes me, and I slightly shift away from the tickling feeling,

His warm breath is on my ear as he laughs "come on get up the pizza is finished" he said gently

I hummed and grabbed Aaron and pulled him down on the bed nuzzling myself close to him,

His arms slithered around my waist, I sighed in contentment with his presence,

Suddenly he stands and picks me up bridal style and walks to the kitchen, he sits me on the couch and pecks my forehead,

He comes back with pizza that has different veggies and pepperoni on it and sparkling water in hand because he knows I don't like soda,

"Thank you, you're the best," I say kissing his cheek

He sits down next to me and puts a blanket on my legs which makes me smile,

He grabs my chin gently and inches it towards his "how are you feeling?" he gently asks as his fingers run along my lips

"a little better," I say quietly leaning into his touch

"How about we eat and watch a movie," he says stroking my hair

I nod and lean on his shoulder

"What do you want to watch?" He asks giving me a plate with two slices of pizza

I smile "how about another Disney movie?"

He laughs "fine, which one?" He asks as he runs his fingers lightly along my shoulder,

"Do you want to watch about a mermaid who trades her voice for legs and falls in love with a human or do you want to watch about a girl with the longest damn blonde hair who is locked in a tower and has magic hair that heals" I grin

He laughs "wow I love your descriptions sweetheart" he teases

My bottom lip is in between my teeth as I wait for his answer, but I don't get one because he's busy staring at my lips,

"Stop biting that damn lip or I'll bite it for you," he says inching toward my face

I don't make any movements to stop biting my lip, so he grabs my face and connects our lips

It starts gently until he out of nowhere bites my bottom lip the runs bus tongue along it to help the sting, which gets a gasp out of me "ow" I pout lying out of my ass since it didn't even hurt that bad,

He hums "stop biting the damn lip then" and he pecks my bottom lip gently and then moves me closer to him

I'm so biting my lip again...

"Let's do the weird mermaid one," he says taking me out of my thoughts,

"Alright" I laugh turning the little mermaid on,

Halfway through the movie we finish the pizza and cuddle while watching,

"This is so weird" Aaron shakes his head

"Weirder than beauty and the beast?" I ask

"I think so...I mean she's actually a mermaid, in the other movie the beast looked like that from a curse..." he says

I grin "I like that you paid attention"

He hums "well not until you told me to stop looking at you instead of watching the movie" he shrugs as he plays with my hair

Towards the end of the movie I start crying "sunshine why are you crying?" he asks gently caressing my face as a frown overtakes his beautiful face,

"Because she's evil for trying to take Eric away from Ariel... it's so rude" I pout,

He chuckles

"It's not funny, what if someone tries to take you from me?" I knit my brows together

"I won't let them" he presses his lips together to keep in another laugh,

"You can't promise that, what if she tricks you like this stupid evil dumb ass is in the movie" I knit my brows together

He's trying so hard not to laugh that it make me frown deepen "it's not funny stop," I say quietly as I hide my face in his chest

"I'm sorry no it's not," he says in between soft laughs

He hears me sniffling into his chest and sighs quietly

"Hey, sweetheart stop crying, I'm sorry okay?" he says cupping the back of my head with his hand holding me close

"I won't ever love anyone the way I love you, no one will be doing any tricking of any kind," he says sternly

I know my period is to blame right now but it truly scares me, especially the texts I have been getting it's like the person is trying to get me to end my relationship with Aaron and I don't like it one bit,

"And doesn't Ariel end up with Eric in the end anyway?" Aaron says stroking my hair

"Yeah" I mumble

"Yeah so the evil dumb ass as you put her doesn't win," he says

I cling to him tighter "yeah but the reality isn't a Disney movie not everyone gets a happy ending" I say quietly with my voice breaking,

"Sunshine" he sighs quietly as he lifts me so our foreheads are pressed together,

I start crying harder, I think its a mixture of the fear of losing him and my period making my emotions all over the place,

"Hey you're okay" he whispers pulling me closer

"I don't want to lose you" I whisper through my tears, it's true fear...a ginormous fear I hope doesn't come true,

"I'm not going anywhere, and I won't leave you as long as you want me here," he says gently

I nod even though my heart hurts at the thought of him leaving when he finds out what I'm hiding,

"I love you" I choke out

"I love you, my beautiful girl" he mutters against my ear sending tingles up my spine

"I'm sorry I think my periods messing with my head," I say with a mixture of a laugh and cry

"Don't apologize, you're allowed to feel scared, but just know if you ever feel insecure please come to me okay?" He says running his fingers along my back

"Okay" I whisper

"How about we go relieve some of your stress mhm?" He says against my ear slightly kissing it,

I close my eyes to stay in the moment of his lips on my skin, I nod in a daze

"Don't we need towels and stuff...won't it be messy?" I say worriedly, my mind already overthinking every moment,

I know he's not David...David would force himself on me in the bathroom when found blood on his sheets from how hard he went with me since I kept fighting him,

But Aaron would never do that to me, that much I know,

He wipes my tears away laying me on the bed "you let me worry about that"

"Just relax and don't stress okay? Let me worry about all the clean-up, you just need to remember your safe word if you need it okay?" He says caressing my cheek as he hovers over me

I nod "okay" I whisper

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-----notes----

Heavily unedited.*****

Hope this chapter was okay...I absolutely hate it lol.

Also yes you were robbed again😘 hate me all y'all want but I barely managed to write what I wrote and it wasn't even that smutty 😐☝🏻 so like anyway...

Also Sorry for keeping y'all on your toes about her secret (what are your guesses? I might get some extra ideas to the one I have ) >

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